To my real life family who will never read this here...
I have had inspiration from a place I never expected. A Tyler Perry movie...first I've ever watched. It reminded me of the trials my own family has had, but also the strength and stubbornness WE all have. Our own mother/grandmother/great grandmother has the strength of no one I have ever known. Giving more to those in need even if some of us disagree. If we were needed as much...she would be there! I know there will be arguments....but YOU are not our mother! Giving all she can!!!
Maybe some of us should speak up a little more! She would be there and help as much as she possibly could. I, myself, have said..."if it was so and so....." but I also know, if it were me, she would do everything she could, but I tend to stay silent like a few others. And she has been there for me, for us, Jeffy and myself, so speak up! Even for words of encouragement, wisdom or just kindness and an ear...she is there!!!
I am at a point in my life that I truly do not care who I piss off! But I know my family is important to me.
I had an amazing time with my sister, nieces, great nephews and great nieces in Hotlanta. It was too brief and I honestly hated to leave before dinner...but, another niece was having a baby...or so we thought. And now, she is back in the hospital and I am not there. Breaks my cold heart. I love my family....sometimes it is hard for me to show.
I was there for some of my older nieces...I hate that I am not more in the lives of the BEAUTIFUL children they have born. That is something that hurts me daily.
But we all need to accept the beauty and ugliness that WE ALL BEAR!
For our mother's sake...can we get together without fighting or harsh words? If that means without our "significant others", then so be it!!!! It is important to me and our mother (she thinks it will never happen again), the only woman who supports and loves us unconditionally! And she truly does! Children, grandchildren, great grandchildren. I would rather it be the entire family...but we can't seem to agree on the saints and sinners....sometimes the saints are right...but, guess what? Sometimes the sinners are as well. Let's put it all aside and be there for the one that gave us the lives we choose. And we have chosen. Accept everyone...I think WE ALL believe in that.
Our mother deserves the best. I'm willing to give...are you?
My love to ALL of my family,
Kelly
