Ok so for the sake of all parties involved I am going to try and write this without names, most that read this and know me pretty well will most likely know who this involves.
Ok so me and this dude started out on the rocks cuz I am not a fan of internet dating and what not, mostly I think its bogus. Then turns out dude is married. Ok fine whatever he wants a divorce, blah blah blah. We start talking and he tells me he loves me, me being the loser that I am fall for it and tell him how much I love him back. Well he gets jealous of my gay best friends, and I dont know what else and I just get a little freaked out when he is talking about marriage, living together, his kids are my kids, (keep in mind still married) and not to mention our age difference. Ok we are talking 11 or 12 year difference here. Now I will admit that I go for older guys but it was never anything super serious. THIS WAS SERIOUS BUSINESS!So between the jealousy and the freaking out we split. Well I go nuts for a few days not being able to talk to him ,blah blah blah. I tell him I want to work it out. Fuck the internet what matters is him and me thats it. So he says he's game right. Well the very next day he has some other chicks name in his CT name. Now I dont want to sound childish or like a girl but I know that most you guys out there would shit bricks if your girl put "insert name here"s loving wife, and you girls would flip to, internet or not that shits not cool in my book. So I do what I always do, I delete his number out of my cell, I get rid of his pictures, I delete him off every account I can come up with, I basically wipe him out as if he never exsisted. This works for like almost a month. SO I cave and decide to start talking to him again just to work on a friendship and let him know I dont hate his guts. So we start talking and he tells me how the chick that he is "CT Married" to is married in real life too so it is just kinda like a friends thing and that he doesnt really feel that way about her, or atleast not anymore. So I say ok. Well insteps my retarded ass and decides Hey why not really give this ago like not just half ass but full on like wanna meet as soon as possible to start a life together kind of shit. He agrees, we made a deal that we wouldnt let the CT shit bother us and we wouldnt listen to what our friends said about it because again all that matters is me and him. Not to mention we both made a promise to each other about breaking bad habits. I promised to give up my skiing if he would stop being such a downer. Now granted mine is a bit harder of a habit to break, but he was always in like a depressed mood. So determined to make a fresh start I ask him about his CT name, I mean it is only respectful to me by not having some other chicks name listed as your loving wife. Well now I am the jealous girlfriend because he thought that we were seriously dating not just ct dating, I am still thinking that he isnt catching the drift. He has pictures of them saying how they are a perfect couple, he calls her baby and tells her he loves her, shit like that right, what do I get so uh when am I going to get a topless pic of you. or my favorite love you too. Deep stuff right? Am I nuts? Am I asking too much? Am I reading to much into this? Well I guess this has been getting to me for sometime now and he hasnt been catching on and it kinda blew up tonight because I admitted to breaking my promise this weekend, cuz it was a friends birthday party and I was depressed and what not, so yea I told him what I did this weekend. Let me also point out I told him he broke his promise as well, and when I told him this he said that he had good reason (which he did) and that if I would have MADE him talk to me I would have known. Yea thats right I got yelled at because I wasnt patient enough with him and I asked him whats wrong he would say nothing so I didnt push but apparently he wanted me to push because I have no fucking clue as to what is going on. So he tells me he is over the internet and CT and that he is thinking of leaving it all together(which means we wont speak because I refuse to call his house so I dont have to speak to his WIFE, and his reasons for not calling me are still unknown) so my only response was whatever. I am not the type to beg someone to talk to me. Either you do or you dont. I am not your fucking mother I am not going to tell you what you can or can not do. So I guess the whole purpose of this blog is to ask, 1. Why are guys like this? 2. Why the fuck am I even trying? 3. is it even worth my time trying? and 4. If guys complain about having to be a mind reader for woman, wouldnt it be the same vice versa? WHAT AM I MISSING????
