So what do i do? I am so screwed inside and so toren a part. Between my ex who i know still loves me, I still love her too... We're suppost to meet in NY and decide where to go from there but yet at the same time .....
I love another and its driving me mad inside, She has someone else too, I do not honestly think i could put someone else threw a waiting game by the phone waiting for it to maybe ring and maybe not. So much of a chance of re-deployment .... Is it fair to bring anyone back into that???
Is it fair? I dont know if it is, I dont even know how i can love two people at the same time? And yet in a nother sence my heart is broken in 3 pieces, for an ex i will always love and never get back , for another who has been my childhood sweetheart and for the woman who has run off with the other piece.
God how do i get myself into these messes? Am i doomed to have this kinda drama? the hell if i know. All i know is i am tired... going to go to bed too.
Later All.
