a dark shadow filtered through the night haunting pounding through the soul through the deadly silence bringing with it's demons of terror but the need for something more something deeper and meaningful a love hiding in the trees perhaps behind the veil of death suffering a thousand deaths oh the horror she has seen that's almost too much for my mortal soul to take yet i can't let her go though i seem to afraid to find her to bring her to me yet time and time again i try to push past the fear and hold on so tight that her touch will brush against me and her face will come to life a few brief moments let me know she's there that she cares always for me yet still i lose mysef falling further and further away from her each year beginning to run away yet longing to run into her arms begging her to hold me yet running to others less pure less pain less truth
hell is in her eyes and fire in her heart yet i cannot bear to know her suffering if only to free her and free my own soul from this endless fall alone fall to hell with her crash and burn in her arms torment torture deadly sins would be worth to know her love for eternity my own happiness my very sanity worth losing if only to be by her side for the love of an angel a demon of hell a darkened angel who's fallen so deep that only she could love me my heart bleeds out yet my strength fails i would tread the coals of hell if only i knew she was real not just a figment of my imagination a ghost created to protect me when reality is too hard to see if dreams could be a reality but the death i see so often tearing at my soul it haunts me to see my sometimes pleasurable feel in the thought of destroying others to cut the flesh rip limb from limb hacking through the bone sending blood splattering through the air
my life is tainted by fear yet i know not of what i fear but every action every movement every second is filled with a fear every touch of the souls around me of the emotions causes my heart to speed anger swells in my heart with the longing to destroy becoming anxious biting my tongue trying to hold back the demon burned inside of me i'm born for destruction chaos yet understand not why as if i've fought through a thousand lives fed on adrenaline and anger that i no longer know how to block out the hatred of the souls around me at times wishing my own emotions made some sense wondering how they change as they do darling if you love me if this is not just some torment to drag me through an agonizing hell and leave me alone if you long to find me and not to simply destroy all that i've ever had than i will fight through death for you
if you love me than push me through the pain and fear drag me kicking and screaming unmercifully if you must until your arms wrap around me but darling if you love me don't let me go i miss you no matter how much it hurts to feel your presence no matter how much pain is in your heart no matter how much it kills me to try to wash away a thousand lives of pain and death that you've seen darling i miss you come home my love my ghost my angel my darkness my light all that you are all that i need burned into the edges of time through a winding river that's never ending to the gates of hall and through the garden of eden to a palace of two that become one internally the devil himself will not break darling if you are real touch my soul
don't let it go hold so tight until i can't breathe dead or alive where ever you are hold me tight my dream my vision my savior my destroyer my all beautiful the ugliest part of me and the most cherished lay down with me upon our crimson sheets in our darkness together alone as one burn the fire low cast a shadow on my wall shine your image to me and touch my hand my heart my need tonight i close my shallow mind and open as deep as i can find the strength to with stand in my deepest fear i will search to find you once more i will close the surface and beg to the gods of the undead and pray for you to see whispering my fearful truth and love for you begging you appear past my beating heart reaching out into the darkness longing to touch your soul asking of you
if you're there if you hear me begging of you to appear once more i search for you hoping we both search strongly enough to find as i know you miss and need me as i need you don't give in my love to less than all we have to give my broken and shattered heart the little that remains longs for your touch take my hand follow me or lead where ever you go i shall follow there is no heaven with out your eyes there is no hell worth believing there is nothing worth living or dying for with out you live or die you're worth it all but with out you there is nothing but an empty void that i care nothing for with you everything is beautiful painful joyeous worth feeling and living with out you it matters not whither fade and die take my plea to heart and find me here tonight my darkest dream je t'aime ti amo mon amourt je te donne mon couere ich liebe dich sei in mia couere no words will find you but only silence dead silence and truth we will both know when it's found who ever whatever you may be if you have heard my name seen my face i pray you see my soul and i see yours before we forget what we've always had danse avec moi ma belle
