Over 16,530,314 people are on fubar.
What are you waiting for?
FOR YOU
For you I'd have walked 500 miles.
Now I don't want to see your smile.
You hurt me more than you will ever know.
So now it's time for me to go.
Here I thought u were the best.
It was all a lie, you're worse than the rest.
I know someone else has your whole heart.
With tears in my eyes, I must depart.
So hear me now & hear me well.
I am no longer under you're spell.
Tho I can't bear to look at your face.
The memories of you I can't erase.
So there it is all laid out.
You know who you are, I have no doubt.
Your words meant nothing, cuz it's how u act.
No more love shall I show you, this is a fact.
By BRIGHT BLESSINGS
aka
Steph
MONSTER
BY: Bright Blessings
aka
Stephanie
Yes, I'm a fuckup, I know this is true
Because of everything I've done/not done to/for you
I hope one day you can forgive me
Tho, I dunno if that will ever be
I'm sorry I couldn't do anymore
I wish things were the way they were before
Before the fights, & the courts, before things got this far
I have no choice now, things have to be the way they are
I will now be out of your life forever
I hope our bond I didnt 100% sever
I know it is hanging by a thin thread, if even that
wish you knew where this point in my life was at
I will go now, won't bother u at all
I hope one day u will let down ur wall
Now it is wat it is, & I can't change it
Together it seems, we no longer fit.
BY: BRIGHT BLESSINGS
AKA
STEPHANIE
THIS WAS WRITTEN ON MAY 17,2012
INVISIBLY VISIBLE
Can you see me?
Can you hear me?
Am I even here?
Am I there? Anywhere?
Do you know who I am?
Do you see what I've done?
Do you realize what I've been through?
Does any of this matter to you?
I will walk this road alone.
I must try to push my way through.
I can't stay stuck here.I have to move.
Why do I feel,it's my strength I must proove?
I feel sometimes,I'm fading away.
Sometimes,it's such a struggle to stay.
Everytime I trust,my trust is betrayed.
I must move forward, & for my kids,I won't stray.
Tho, I think I'm a doormat,& invisible to many.
I strive to be something to my kids,it's scary. (original line:I strive to be something to, well,any.)
I know I also have to do this for myself.
It's so hard to put all my fears on a shelf.
PLEASE DO NOT COPY THIS WITHOUT GIVING ME CREDIT,WITH MY NAME..
ALL MY POEMS MEAN SO MUCH TO ME. THEY ARE EXTEMELY PERSONAL.
THEY ARE MY DEEPEST, INNERMOST FEELINGS,EMOTIONS,& SO MUCH MORE.
FEEL FREE TO COMMENT,BE POLITE PLEASE WITH KINDNESS, & RESPECT
THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ THEM.
My world has gone grey.
Sadly not just for a day
I hate feeling so down!
Why can't I come around?
I cant cry,nothing comes out.
I'm emty inside,yet I know what it's about!
There's nothing I can do no matter wwhat I try.
Everything seems to be one big lie!
My life isn't over,I never said it was yet!
Just wish there were some things I could forget.
Well,with no1 to care,to share with,even be aware,
Looks like alone I stay,but for others I must be there!
November 7,2012
WRITTEN BY:Stephanie L
AKA Bright Blessings
Every time ,all I wanted was you.
Again I wait alone,decide what to do.
I care about you,it almost hurts!
All you do is keep treating me like dirt.
Why do I continue to torture myself?
Why can't I just hide my heart on a shelf?
I hope one day I can break free.
Maybe then will you even see?
I hate what I've become,loosing myself each day.
Everytime I try to talk to you won't stay,you runaway.
You can't be real,have a conversation & talk to me.
Why should I change?To become something I don't want to be?
NO!I won't change,or back down anymore!
It hurts too much,each time more than before.
I will give you up for good if u say.
But I can't just ignore it all and stay.
WRITTEN BY:Srtephanie L.
AKA Bright Blessings
So,now what do I do?
I'm still feeling off.Who Cares? Who?
NO ONE is the answer to that!
They careless wherever I am at.
Should I just let them make me feel this way?
No,of course not!Unfortunately I still must stay.
There is no way to leave,no where to go.
This sounds like just another excuse, I know.
Is there anyway to make things better at all?
Anything,anywhere,no matter how small...
My wish obviously,is to get out,to leave.
Then why do I think I can't,Don't believe?
I feel so stuck,like sinking in quicksand.
All I really want is a warm, caring hand..
But how is it even possible to get that?
Esp. cuz I feel invisible,scared,worthless,flat..
My hope is for even a small miricale to come.
To help me get away,even a little, some.
I know I need to help myself,still wish for someone kind.
I pray that one day soon,this person/people I will find.
WRITTEN BY: Stephanie L.
AKA Bright Blessings
Written on June 12,2008... The night I found out my last,but most favorite Aunt,
with whom I had a very special bond & connection with. Passed away that day.
To All Of My Loved Ones
So much to do, so little time
Can't slow down!We'll fall behind!
Friends & family are always there for you.
You know that they love you.Hey! They're busy too.
Well,here are just a few simple facts...
About those little,overlooked,kind & random acts.
Have you called your loved ones to talk and say,"I Love You"?
Did you rush thru a call,because you had stuff to do?
Emails,IMs,text messages & more.
Does anyone remember what a phone is really for?
I recall from my childhood gathered around.
Hearing them talking & laughing,such a beautiful sound.
When I was younger,I'd work so hard.
It could be on big gifts,or some homemade cards.
With excitement,I'd watch them open my special suprise.
Such pure love & delight shown from their faces & eyes.
All of those memories I hold in my heart,surrounded by love.
I know those who've passed watch over me from above.
Only their earthly bodies have died & withered away.
Their spirits live on with beautiful memories here to stay.
Don't forget to tell those you love,how they ARE YOUR HEART.
Spend time together,in their lives,take an active part.
When it's time for the body to go,& the soul to return home...
From such loving memories,those still on earth,shall never feel alone.
BY: Stephanie L.
AKA Bright Blessings
It's like my soul isn't real.
I give & give,so others just take.
It seems like everyone is being so fake!
I wish I was stronger, like I used to be.
Why does that seem impossible to me?
I know I'm suppossed to start fresh & new.
It just feels like something I can't do.
I feel like my world got torn apart.
But they get to make a brand new start!
His once open heart has ,toward me,turned to stone.
I hate this feeling, of being completely alone.
This is something I'll hide from the world outside.
I'm not the person I want to be inside!
It seems each day I just stand still.
There I am, at the bottom of a hill.
I keep going backward it seems,away from what I could & should be..
The struggles to climb up again,are far greater than anyone can see.
I need some help, some advice without jugment, ridicule or tormenting me!
I never do get that help,I'm the one who must be there for world,no,I'm not free.
Aren't I allowed to ask for help as well?
Or must I continue alone in this hell?
I hope someday soon, the Universe gives me a sign.
To please tell me how I can leave the past behind!
I guess,alone I shall be, for now, until when...
One day maybe I'll get help, but till then..
Here I sit in the in the middle of this lonely place
Continuing for everyone, to put on a brave face..
By: Steph aka Bright Blessings
written: 1/6/2014 @ 11:15 pm
