Icarus's blog: "Somantics"

Well tonight I had the opportunity to get a more complete psychological profile of christian and friend.

Geeze... I nailed them pretty good too.

I really do have a knack for this
shit they have tells on, their body language when they lie (even just to tell a joke)
Course I pitted them against each other to prod the tells better but ... not in a mean way

So what's the number one way to fuck up a set up?

Bail.

Surprise surprise

Flake didn't show. I got a call about 5 minutes before arrival. Christian told me flake was having car trouble I says "damn... I really should've put money down that she would bail, everything I heard about this girl told me she would"

I love being right.

We talked about a lot of things
mostly attraction and attracting
then we got off topic and started talking about my penis

...
yeah.


That was different, but I painted him in a good light.
Strong
noble
bigger than average (especially on the rumors of the irish)

I mean, we were talking about urinals, and how unnerving that would be
and I said some guys are weird about it
me
I'm not as much as I was

guys look at my dick
no
really

Maybe its my stance
maybe its an accidental glance
maybe its the fact that I'm a red head
I have had people
turn head
and stare.

Being the victim of sexual abuse, dealing with this since puberty, and jail have really softened me on that ordeal.

Its kinda weird talking about my sex life and my privates to a couple of home-schooled christian girls, but kinda hilarious too

"wow that's a lot of build up"

"no you can't see"

got some pretty good laughs.

If only they were a bit more ... proactive and curious.

*sigh* that's a fantasy that plays out very well in my imagination.
So much to teach.

As usual I drove the conversation
imparted a TON of advice based on my own experiences with similar problems and dillemmas, and encouraged friend to really get out there and make an effort
that everyone deserves love and happiness
especially since she couldn't give me a rational explanation to why she didn't think she deserved it

Jack for every Jill
and you increase your odds by going places you would normally like to go.

A lot to think about.

I'm gonna take my dog out to pee and take an allergy pill
then I'm crashing

also

Christian took a picture of me for flake
and I saw flake's picture.
Christian is prettier.

Christian blushed and denied profusely.

Apparently Flake is the supposed "cool friend" of the clique, the one with a better job, a lot of male pursuers, and too cool to hang out with everyone else.

... I haven't seen why yet.