im having a wiring issue.
its being exacerbated by continuous thought process.
on the one hand...it would be easy to allow the circuitry to have its twisting turning jumbled way...cuz then yannow...well...i dont even know...but at least i wouldnt have to do anything...i could just sit there in a bout of confusion and watch the wires twist their way toward my own demise.
im pretty sure tho in the end that would suck just a little bit.
there are no right answers cuz there is no 'right'
theres no fixing cuz theres no 'fix'
its not anything which is in my control
cuz im not wired that way.
i find it amusing when ppl say 'well just stop thinking about it'
well gee...if i could do that there wouldnt be a problem now would there?
of course it all boilds down to being in the 'know'
i dont know anything
cuz when one only knows one side of a story/theory/thought process/idea...they dont really know anything at all now do they?
its like knowing half the alphabet.
and someone else knows the other half
but they're not telling.
so ya hafta guess.
and ya wind up guessing wrong and then its back to square one.
theres got to be a translator or psychic somewhere. ha.
gah.
