innocentprncss's blog: "Our baby (on celebration....love and loss)"

Please stop by and check out this guys page and thanks him for supporting me in what I am doing here. ~~Shadow Raven~~member of K.O.T

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Please come check out this great lady's page and thank her for supporting me and what I am trying to do on my page. ~Mz Mic~

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My story starts in 1991 when I was 19 years old. I met a wonderful man named Gary and finally in 1993 we decided to start a family. I got pregnant and 7 weeks later had a miscarriage. It was tough, but I thought, "Okay, this is just something that happens." The first miscarriage was such a scare that we waited another 3 years before trying again. Again, after 7 weeks, another miscarriage. The doctors said it's just something that happens. After my 5th loss, we decided it was time to see a specialist. I've had every test imaginable and everything came back good. So is this just something that happens? We continued trying all the way up to 2005. That is when I suffered my 8th and last miscarriage. I think that was the worst one. At my age then (33), I knew that there was probably no hope left. We decided for my well-being to stop trying. God has kept me sane and I don't blame anyone, I just can't understand why. I do believe that time helps heal wounds, and mine are gradually healing day by day. I think the 2 hardest things now are realizing that I will be alone as I get older, and holidays are always very bad. Especially holidays that involve children. One good thing about all 8 of my miscarriages is that none were over 8 weeks and I got to see 1 heartbeat but never heard any. I think that may have helped me.... Written and permission granted by: Lori #494778 (¯`·..·£ÕRî·..·´¯)

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Please stop by this mans page and show him some love for supporting my mission and what I am trying to do here on my page. Lost Soul

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Please stop by and show this great friend and supporter some love! She has a section devoted to spreadng my message. check it out! froggie

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I would appreciate everyone stopping by this great lady's page. She devoted a section of her page to my page, blog and the cause I am supporting. Please show her that her effort is much appreciated. (¯`·..·£ÕRî·..·´¯)

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July of 2005 I was in my first serious relationship after my divorce.I really thought I loved this guy and was ready to start a new life and family together.we had decided to try in January of 2005 , I did everything from tempature readings ovulation kits..month after month nothing happened.Finally in June I hit the day just right by the time I was due for my period I was already having morning sickness and my boobs were growing .I was sooooo excited. Then I started bleeding on what was 4 weeks after I concieved. I kept telling my self it wasnt happening I went to the doctor because I have been through this too many times .My fear was confirmed and my world crumbled around me . But I still had hope maybe just maybe it was just a threatened M/C ..but 2 weeks later the sickness stopped along with the other symptoms.It was the hardest thing I went through , and all of my M/C's have been devistating , but this one was so hard , because I was trying for soo long .Needless to say , I withdrew and became angry towards every one even hateful , I would walk around and see people pregnant that I just couldnt understand why them ..why did Brittney Spears get to have a baby and not me??!! I was in a black hole ..And to make it worse my boyfriend at the time didnt seem to care, His response was "Im sorry Hun, but we'll try again its no big deal" Thats when I turned on him , I was alone in this and he was so heartless.This is what ended us. Ive 6 miscarrages and Ive finally decided that I just cant try again .I would love to have 1 more child , But there is no was I can handle going through that again . I know I have to see a specialist because Ive had 3 back to back M/C's even tho they were spaced out . One of which I was carrying twins..My daughter , made it though and that was the scarest pregnancy of my life .After I lost her twin every little thing had me scared to death. I figured I was fine with the last pregnancy ..It had been 7 years but it wasnt fine. I love being a mother and I wanted to have sooo many children .But that dream died One that July day 2005 with my baby .Maybe in a few years Ill have the strength to try again But for now , I still need to completely grieve my last loss. Written and Permission granted by: Kim Purrfectly Impurrfect/ 337196 Purrfectly Impurrfect - fishy kissies!!!

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I thought about this and have mentioned it but this idea just came to me. I have many friends that have been through the same or a similar kind of loss or fertility troubles. I am asking all of you out there that have had any of these troubles to share your story if you are comfy. I would like this blog to reflect how prevelant this really is and that each story may be different but the emotions are very similar. I want to give you a place to tell your story to the world and help in others grieving process. If you are interested please let me know and I will give you the details of what I would like from you. thanks so much...please share if you can...its cleansing for the soul and can help so many.

Mike and I have been talking recently about my health and when to start trying again. I know that physically I am starting to feel a bit back to normal again. The first cycle I had after losing the baby didnt start on its own so I dont really count it. Mike and I decided to wait for the next and then see if the cycle after the next one is normal. If it is then we will try again after not the next one but the one after that. I am very excited but yet also very scared of it happening again. I just have to trust in God to give us our baby if and when He thinks its time.

In this entry you will find some links to some amazing baby memorial pages. I give the families of these babies props for sharing their stories and babies with us. Please be aware that there are pics of some of these babies on some pages. Micheal's Page http://www.geocities.com/dmrader/MICHAELSPAGE.html Tyler Branden Lotz http://lotz.homedns.org/tyler/ A memorial of 5 babies http://members.tripod.com/garrison.patty/mymemorial.html Georgina Elizabeth Rosina Weeks http://www.geocities.com/georginaweeks/index.html Memorial of 5 babies http://www.geocities.com/myheavenlyangels2000/index.html Memorial of 4 babies http://members.tripod.com/~CheriR/Angels.html Brianna Nicole http://www.geocities.com/Heartland/Ranch/8537/ Brittany and Jessica http://www.geocities.com/EnchantedForest/Glade/6399/ Mary Ann Grant http://www.angelfire.com/ma3/emptyheart/ Alex http://www.silviaskingdom.com/alexmainsite.htm Grace http://www.missinggrace.com