July 23, 2008 Wed at 2:39 pm. There are to many thoughts running around in my head. Mind won't settle on one thing to figure it out, and then go to the next one. Not really anyone to talk to. I have found family, and most of the so-called friends that I have made here in this town, only come by, or call when they are in need.
I love the fact I can be there for those who need me, but I would like that returned. I don't ask for myself the times I do ask. One time I need just a shoulder to lean on , or cry on. There isn't one around. At the point where I think I am better off staying to myself.
Never believed I could hurt, or feel so alone as I do. What really hit this all home was going to the Nursing Home to visit my mom and do paper work to cover her exspenses. The Social Worker there and I got into it about some stuff of my mom's . There was some issues over a policy of my mom's that she will lose cause there is no money to cover it. The woman made me feel like I was less than the dirt you walk on. I have been doing everything I can to help my mom, to the exstint of putting myself in a hole. I don't know what else to do. I have called family to help me in this situation , but with no favorable outcome.
Felling lost and Hurt!
