So....
This is a total drama fest, I was kind of hoping that after highschool all that would come to an end but HAH like that has happened. There is still Drama the Drama has never ended!
I feel like yet another episode of Dawsons Creek tho my friends tell me its more along the lines of Doms creek... with the way it all goes as of late.
I was suppost to be happy with my girl who has been my Joey.. in the story that has been my life but now is gone, She left me for another man whos life is playing with flowers and cutting crab grass, Or in his words he was a "Free lance land scaper" She left me a battle harden Soldier... For a little boy who piddles on the flowers and plays in fresh cut grass.
Don't mind the hate in that statement but i guess it will always be there . I've now spoken to the Shrink twice and she honestly came to the conclution i am better off without her. I dont know where i see the logic in that but it is apparently there... Plus there are other complications that i get to consider in all this as well.
Feelings that remain there i guess what will be forever.. Plus picking up the pieces and seeing the very things in others that they do not deserve yet still have and how much i wish to be in their shoes insted of my combat boots...
When i hear about someone bitching about having to go home to the wife and kids i feel like smashing them upside the head with something blunt.. Because i would love to be able to go home to a woman who loves me... And kids to call me daddy.
I am told one day.. One day that i will have those things too but for all the hope i hold inside me the most was held in my heart which i am still picking all the pieces up to.
And then feelings for either someone i know i cant have or someone i shouldnt. To never wish to be the other man but know that any one of these females who are taken if something was to happen i know for a fact that i would end up being that other man... Which would make me just as bad if not worse then the man who ruined my own engagement...
Doomed to fail? or just Doomed to fall. Not sure which one just yet but when i do i will make sure i let you guys all know too.
Well i guess thats it for now.. I guess i finish this one off with a favour to ask.. To perhaps keep me in your prayers perhaps then something good will happen because right now god does not seem to be answering my own... Maybe he'll answer one of you.
Dominic
