Oktob3RR4iN's blog: "My thoughts for today"

OK well I am so tired of of all the crap and stupid messages that I tend to get on here. Yea I know this is FUBAR but hell we all have our own personal lives and our own space. I am tired of the people who tend to think that I would actually post nude pics of me on here. How pathetic sorry I'm not a whore,slut or anything of that nature and I will never have any pics like that on here. If any pics like that happen to turn up anywhere they will be in one man's possession. He is the love of my life and I am only interested in pleasing him. So if you wanna talk thats fine but hell keep it decent. I could care less about chatting about sex or what you would like to do with me...Cause guess what not gonna happen. I work, live my life, spend time with my man when he is home. So for all of you who are just looking for some chic who will show you anything and everything under the sun well look somewhere else because I am not that person. If you want to chat and maybe have an online friend then fine....OK well I think I have made my point for today....

OK well I am bored out of my mind ans sitting here thinking of William of course as always. But you know when you happen to come across someone and their status message states, "wishing I had something to do." Well that doesn't mean to take that as I'm bored and I need someone to screw around with." Sorry to break it to you all but I have the ONE and ONLY man that I ever need in my life. He is all that I need and even though he is away alot that doesn't mean I am looking for something on the side. Because truth be known I'm not looking for a damn thing. The one thing that I may be looking for is that Dodge of his to come pulling up in our driveway...Then I will be happy. SO for those of you who think if you say the right things that maybe I will change my mind...Well that is not gonna happen. I am totally and faithfully in love with William. If you can't handle that then I guess we don't need to talk.....

Well I can honestly say that this relationship is getting better and better everyday that goes by. We continue to find more and more out about each other and so much that we have in common. I am just so in love with William and I couldn't be any happier. I do wish that he was around years ago, just as I have heard him say the same thing so many times. He has touched my heart and soul and I am just happier than I have been in a very long time. At this moment he is in Arkansas and I miss him like crazy. I can never get enough of being with him. Yea I know everyone says that every couple needs their space and maybe thats true. But its just hard to be apart especially when you don't really know when will be the next time you are together again...But anyways...This weekend was pretty awesome but of course everytime that I am with William its always awesome....Saturday we went to some friends and took the 4-wheeler out and rode together...Yea it was dark and cold but it was great. This is all new and of course we have only been together a few months but our future together will be a long and happy one. We both want nothing more than to make each other happy and do whatever it takes to keep our relationship in tact. I mean hell a relationship is something you have to work at and its one of the hardest jobs you could ever have....Ok yea I may have said that metaphorically but its the truth...I can say that I am love with a man who in my eyes is more than he even thinks of himself. He has a big heart and loves so deeply,strong arms to hold me, an awesome sense of humor, an outlook on life that would blow your mind, and he has my heart. I just love him so much more than I could ever put into words

Well yesterday was one of the hardest days I have had in awhile. When I left for work of course William left to go back to work...So he is out of town and I am here at home. I miss him like crazy but as always everything will be fine and he will be back home before I know it. I just love him with all my heart and miss him when he is gone. I can honestly say that he makes me happy and I have smiled and laughed more lately than I have in a very long time. Yea every once in awhile you have to deal with the tears but thats because I love him and miss him. I know he doesn't want me to cry or be sad when he leaves but hell when you love someone it just happens. I am just glad that we have such a great relationship and that he knows when he comes home that I will be waiting here at home for him. I have never loved someone so deeply that they are all I think about. For once I can honestly say that I know how it feels to love someone and know for once what it means. Yea maybe I lost you on that one...But I know I am not the only one that has ever had someone ask you if you really know what love is. Well I do now and I can honestly say beyond a shadow of a doubt that its the real thing.

Ok I understand that sometimes you may just be cruising around on here and rating people for points. But when it comes down to it and you might come across someone who catches your attention it wouldn't hurt to actually read their profile or even name on here. I have come across some really annoying people on here which of course is to be expected. I will say this I am in a relationship with a wonderful man who has my heart and I am very much in love with. I don't mind being friends with people and talking every once in awhile or even on a daily basis. But when you don't even have the respect to understand that someone is actually in a real and true relationship and would do nothing to mess that up. Well take a hint! Have the respect for that person to at least hold a decent conversation that doesnt involve talk about sex or anything else. I love William with all my heart and there is nothing and nobody that will ever come between us. I'm not here for a relationship( I have that), I'm not here to please you or show you nude pics of me cause thats not gonna happen. Cause there is only one person that will ever see those and he defiently doesn't need pics. I'm here to maybe make a few friends and have fun while I'm at it....

You never know where you will end up or even what job you may or may not end up with. Well maybe some of us do. But when you actually find that one that you actually like then of course you try your best to hang on to it. Well I think so far at this point in my life I have actually found the job but is it worth it? Well of course you expect certain things to happen or not happen also is the reason I say this. OK maybe you are lost at this point. I work Loss Prevention for a company and I do really like my job and the people I work with. I have actually put at least 4 people in jail so far(hey they shouldn't have been stealing). Anyways to get to my point...I was at work the other day and of course I noticed 2 guys stealing on camera..I tried to get management like I am supposed to. Everything was happening so fast that nobody could get there fast enough. Well when they approached the front door and I attempted to stop them I was grabbed by one on the arm and shoved to the side. Of course I am not about to chase anyone much less fight them. Sorry thats not worth my life. It just really got to me more than I thought it would. That has been the first time since I have worked in this field that something like that has ever happened to me. Of course I will be fine and life goes on. Just sometimes you have to think about some things you take on in life.

Life of course takes on various paths and you never know from one minute to the next where you will end up. But then something happens and slaps you back into reality then you realize there is just so much going on in this world around you and you are just missing out on all of it. Ok well been there done that and slowly moving away from it. There are just so many things in this world you take for granted. But oh well life goes on. It may be a bitch to live in sometimes but you only live once. I have had so much happen lately but my goals and priorities are slowly falling into place where I need them all to be. Its only a matter of time when all things will be exactly where I want and need them all to be...Anyways you have to take the good with the bad and go from there. We all make mistakes and either we live with it or die trying to make a difference. Well of course I guess I would be one that will fight my way through until I croak...hahaha (((Yea insert laughter here))))

ROCK FEST HAS MOVED TO A NEW VENUE Due to problems with the venue, RockFest has moved to Hurricanes Sports Bars Grill located 9234 Highway 87 S. Miltom Fl. (850)-623-6223 All the same sites and sounds. On 8 acres!! Info on Rockfest 2008 On July 25-27th, 2008, artists from the local Florida scene and the southern United States will converge for three days of family fun and music. Friday July 25th will be local Florida band day with the band Black Smithz from Atlanta, Georgia as the headliner on the main stage. Saturday July 26th is "Rock Day" with some of the best rock bands the South has to offer. With names like Falls From Grace from Biloxi, Mississippi and Flirting with First from Georgia, it will also feature national acts such as Stereoside and Uncrowned, along with Joan Red and One Less Reason. These artists will be performing their best music for the fans at Rock Fest! Rock Fest is proud to bring back to Florida the Platinum recording artist Trust Company. They have sold over 200,000 copies of their album "True Parallels", which was on the Billboard charts for some time, and they also have a new album being released this year. They will perform on the main stage on Saturday night. Also featured at this years Rock Fest is the band Wounded Soul from North Carolina, led by lead singer Maria Ward. Wounded Soul continues to gain fans across the country with a stage show that is packed with high energy and great original lyrics. Saturday will also feature a bikini contest with the winner receiving $200 and a signed CD from each headliner and national act performing at Rock Fest, along with A free VIP pass for the whole event. Sunday July 27th is Classic Rock day with some of the best classic rock and 80s music. It will feature the number one Journey tribute band Chain Reaction performing some of Journey's greatest and classic hits. Also hailing from Pensacola are The Slammers (formally known as the Morgan City Slammers), and to end the evening off, Michael Allman of the Allman Brothers will headline the evening. This year, Soft Tone Productions will be donating a portion of the proceeds from Rock Fest to Sacred Heart Children's Hospital located in Pensacola, FL. We invite you to come out and enjoy three days packed with great music, July 25th thru July 27th!

OK well I have looked and looked most of the day. I am trying to locate a skin on fubar for a friend of mine. If you or someone you know can help me out please let me know...I am trying to find one(maybe animated) that has Miller Lite on it. If I knew how to make one myself I wouldnt be asking...SO if you can help me out please let me know asap...Like I said this is for a really great friend. Thanks!!!! R4v3Ns(Becca)... you can im me on yahoo @ soul_of_ravens

Well of course what I have been wanting but yet to have asked for or even said anything is about to happen. Last night after many nights of no sleep(as usual),and continous arguments. Well I'm getting what I wanted. Yea so my so called significant other finally told me that he knows what I want and he is willing to pay for our divorce. Well I know in a way I should be upset,maybe cry a little,or whatever. But I feel nothing at all. I care but not enough I guess to hurt. Theres just been way too much that I just don't even care what happens. I just care about getting away from the chaos and stress finally.....YEAAAAA