This time I won't cry or feel bad or even for one moment look back and wonder if things would be different if I just try a little bit more. I have been through alot and way too much to have my heart ripped open again. I have way too much going for me at this point and I will not let nothing or nobody stop me from accomplishing my goal. I hold my head high and walk away with my my sanity in tact. I won't give my heart away to easily the next time. My heart would be locked away and it would take alot to touch it.I don't really compare what I want to anyone. I know what I do want and that well if you want my heart you will have to give it all or nothing. So for now and till that day my heart is locked away for a good long while. Because it will be a long time before anyone can open that lock. I love my boys and just want them to be happy. They also want me(their mom) to be happy. I have been through 2 very complicated marriages and not ready for another one. Thats just not gonna happen. So for now just be my friend.....
