Eros's blog: "Insight Into Me"

Just some extended thougts based on something in my about me. This won't be well formatted, or probably make sense, but there will be words.

The point in question - 6. I'm pretty much a reactive person, 9 times out of 10 at least. So if it ever feels like I've stopped talking to you, I don't mean to.

To expand on that, I'm pretty much an introvert. Never had many friends. Never been in to partying, or going to clubs. Never been really that good at socially interacting with my peers. I play football and have the odd drink with my teammates but never feel more than just that, a team mate. Have no confidence in myself or belief that people actually like me anyway.

Now here, I can more... hide that. The nature of the interactions here allow me to be a version of myself I wish I could be in my offline life, and in a way have maybe helped certain aspects of that. That being said, I still suck at talking, at small talk, at bringing up a topic of conversation, at asking questions.

But I will bounce off of people like a mofo, outside of here too. You talk to me and I will babble your ear off about any random crap you decide to talk about with almost no exception. I won't argue, but will debate, I will listen to opinions and not make you feel belittled or stupid because we are who we are and I will never make you feel bad about yourself purposefully. All it takes is a little help to get there.

I guess where I'm going with this, is that I'm sorry. I'm sorry the burden lies upon you all. I'm sorry I can't be the friend I know I can be without help. But I can be that friend, with a little patience, and I will always be here for anyone.