I can't help but think there has to be more to my life than this. I am unsure where to turn, what to do, who to pursue, what to make for dinner. Without a job, I feel like a waste of space. Without a partner, I feel like everyone is getting short changed. I'm not saying I'm not complete without a man. Far from it. But I also know I'm not meant to be alone. This life should be a team effort. I know with the proper support system life can be a wonderful place. Not that I have seen evidence of this. All relationships I have witnessed have been totally dysfunctional. I just know in my heart that there is someone out there who is craving the gifts I have as much as I crave theirs.
I'm sure this makes me sound like a husband-hunting sap. I'm not. I've just begun to realize that this is not the life I'm meant to lead. I know its in transition...I just need to figure out which direction to go in next.
