The light of the moon
casts shadows in the night
alone tonight with shaking arms around me.
sobs of anger and betrayal breath through me
isolation
how many more lonely nights
am i too spend
always expecting to be betrayed...
no expectations of others...
because that would mean that i care again
i hide behind my dreams
and tell you they don't exist
but they do when i face my self in the mirror
even though i hate what i see
i see the girl he destroyed
the one who wanted it all
the one i try to bury everyday
so tired of hurting
so tired of crying
so tired of living an illusion
but there is no way out of the hell i created
no one cares enough to help
wrapped up in their own hell
to selfish to see that beneath it all
is a heart of gold
and someone who so desprately needs to be loved
and treasured.
nothing nice comes from the voices in my mind
placed there by years of abuse
you hear the words so often you believe them
and now they are all thats left
i look at how far i have come...
what i have accomplished..
from your eyes...if you knew all my past..
you would be in awe
i feel though like i am still failing
that my best is still not enough
I WAS NEVER ENOUGH
I AM NEVER ENOUGH
same story different day
different man
same results
i can swear at the heavens
and i still have no answers
i seem to be easily discarded
i just wish i new what was wrong with me...
i just wish......the tears would stop
and someone would hear me....
