Ok this is to just clear the air and speak my mind cuz biting my tongue really gets to hurt
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I am the one that has too wake up every morning and look myself in the mirror.
Lately with the ongoing's of my life others lives and the surroundings of them all and the intertwining has all fell apart n been brought into question
MY LOYALTY N TRUST HAS BEEN BROUGHT INTO QUESTION and I personally never ever gave that up or reason for it to ever be in jepordy....If it came down to it maybe the people that question it are the people I should be asking bout theres
just recentley it came to my attention to a brand new friend and I quote
"If there's one thing this site has taught me, it's keep your friends close and your enemies closer. never in my life have i ever had so many people hate on me for reasons that don't even exist, and the people that i should have a beef with...hell we're cool. just when you think you're on a site for adults some stupid bitches gotta take shit back to highschool...which is fine if that's how they want to roll. i refuse to stoop to their level, yet i have to admit i do find their childish antics completely hysterical and it does make for good entertainment. ignorance is bliss as they say"
Now Im not one to call people out specifically by name but its getting to the point i just might need to or decide where i need to be. Shoot if its really an issue maybe its just my DESIRE that is lost. I think 4 myself i do 4 myself and react 4 myslef...
If there is something I need or want I will do it I dont need others to go n do or say things for me. or better yet take what I say n twist it into something that isnt.
I have taken upon myself to LEAD by example. so by doing that I am following the lead of others. I also expect others to do the same.
Im tired of prying and trying. Since I decided to do n act a certain way I FEEL SHUT OUT N DOWN.
what should I expect when I am pre-judged and told things that I didnt say or do.
shoot if shit I say isnt even considered or thought bout then Why should I care. I never chose sides i never picked.
It has never been bout POSITION for me on this site. (rank, level, rates, fans, LOUNGE POSITION)
Look JEALOUSY causes WOES n Im not part of that. I do what I have been asked I go over n out of my way and dont appreciate being told I don't.
Im not the moste defensive person but shoot if you want to know why I feel or act a certain way then ask don't attack me.
Alot of this is directed ata certain situation n people and a part 2 is definatley required
all I know is if someone is to bitch whine or complain bout people saying, doing or so to speak not performing actions maybe they need to sit back....LISTEN OR READ WHAT THEY ARE SAYING AND BITCH AT THE ONES THAT ARENT DOING IT OR LOOK AT THEMSELVES AND NOT THE ONES THAT ARE BUSTING THERE ASS
