SLIM otherwise known as HEFTY's blog: "Words are my visions"

I saw this in a bully and thought it much deserved a perm. place on my page. All credit to ACHILLES™ for writing this. Ok then...Let me start by saying we all come here to relax,enjoy and get away from the everyday bullshit, Bills EX's or whatever pisses you off.Please take some advice from a long time member.Buckle up here it goes... (Drama) is everywhere not just FUBAR so don't blame them or the site bouncers and Administration.None of us or free from this semi sorta On-Line terror tactics.You need to understand MOST of these people who CLAIM to be Drama free but constantly terrorize other people usually other better looking women.As for the GUYS..it's Much less common but tend to get clan or group to block you..which I fine and all cause ya prolly don't want Weak minded people on your profile anyways.Then we have the all to Common Attention Whores ..as we like to call.them have never been popular a DAY in they're life and they are thinking Rates,Fans and Crushes will somehow change all that.Well I have sad news for all that come to On-Line sites to be CYBER Famous ....your gonna be sadly mistaken.When you go to bed your still unhappy and none of this...as in your points and rates and FANS,Crushes NONE of it counts for SHIT. (WOMEN) The typical female on this site comes here with one intent and that is to receive attention while the typical male on the site is more than eager to give attention. This is purely a guess. I'm not a psychologist, not a gender expert, and I did not stay at a Holiday Inn Express last night. Obviously there are exceptions to that theory but my guess is thats the case the majority of the time (Men) Well this is gonna be real simple...lol oh the men.it's called NSFW=Not Safe for Work or I like to say NSFA=Not Safe for Anyone.Guys can be CRUEL and RUTHLESS.Women ...it's simple LAUGH and LOUD...most those particular men couldn't count they're own BALLS and get the same number twice. (People) Remember this...NO ONE wakes up in the morning and jumps up and say..( HEY ya know what...imma gonna be a total retard in fubar today and see what sorta Drama I can stir up,and If your reading this and DO say or think that...time for a psychiatric evaluation. (Advice) Thank You SCRAPPER.....He said it to me in my Shout Box many moons ago.SCRAPPER-----DUDE just ignore them....Simple isn't it !?...Yeah but fact is most of us tent to forget the basics.You get Drama IGNORE adjust your profile settings and Block.FACT of the MATTER is DRAMA makes your Profile stronger !! YES listen up. Everyone that actually believes your Haters wasn't a Friend anyways...2nd points is are you really gonna miss them...you probably never heard from them anyways.Look at is this way.Your walking down a street,from across the road some drunk homeless loser says ( HEY you fat BITCH grow some boobies)....ok now are you gonna stay there and argue with him or her or will you just shake your head and keep walking....!? (Tiffany and ME) Last and least important myself and Tiffany.Ever wonder why Tiffany and I don't buy Happy Hours for Ourselfs yet Buy Dozens of Happy Hours and Blast,VIP and Blings for our friends...WE DON'T WANT THE ATTENTION...why!??...cause I am confident in real life and very happy.We enjoy STUDIO 54 and our Friends we already have.Were not really looking for more or the RATES and FANS.Notice you've NEVER Seen me on a pimp out...cause I want a real profile.Am I a snob....maybe a little but I only accept Salute accounts and FAN whom I want.I've been here over 18 months and enjoy giving shit away the Most! Tiffany gives me shit sometimes when I go overboard and add another 500-600 on my Credit card per Month,But I do it cause thats what GETS ME OFF!Making people smile is the GREATEST GIFT.Oh and Ya'll can call me a point whore...but you'd be wrong 42 million points thats the residual effect from my Giveaway...and No I wont apologize

Whatever it takes to find a way some shit in the back of my head, but this is some shit I'll write instead feel like the world is throwing stones at me everyone has a bone to pick with me. its ok lets get back into the storm I feel like I got a drug problem that I'm not dealing to because I got enough problems and my solution is to stuff problems. and I'm sure something will go wrong with that I'm depressed lately and noone seems to understand. I'm depreseed latley sort of feeling regressed latley, like anyone notice the regress latley, look deep dont I seem stressed lately seemed disturbed alot of regress lately work for a company thats not within my company when all I need is some company the more and less I feel everyone is done with me. I would get into it, all I need is 10 minutes from them but I save that for teh growth Everryones got beef but I'm secure with me but its only beef I don't need security, want to get at me wanna go to war with me I got a hood of friends that appreciate me a hood of friends that depreciate me. You don't want to tell me its the streets that made me, won't let the belly of the beast degrate me, then I got people criticizing trying to rate me, the world trying to rape me Wouldnt give a chance to do it, a 2nd glance tro do it People say I whine to much, they call it bitter they say it complaining I call it explaining All the people I know caught up in this game, lose their minds and fall for entertainment I have some shit with me but they all knew that, gamble with my life I used to not do that with everday struggles its either mo money mo problems or NO money more problems All I need is a single for the moment or maybe just a single moment then it comes to the ionvolvementt of the he say/ she say shit, set my mind on replay each day then its the BS she say, like she don't like her just cuz she was throwing it at me and I ain't touch her, she will say anything south like I don't wanna fuck her I don't feel good dont wanna go to a club or lounge - I just wanna lounge with sweats I had on for days, Just 1 day at a time is bed willing. Trying to see straight but the fog keeps building. Heart starts racing, bills start facing. Gotta be King, cuz the wolves trying to play me hoodie when its hot like its freezing winter its hard to keep this all in so I write it all down WHATEVER IT TAKES TO FIND A WAY So one day when life is all sweet ?I will remember, this is all a probation, we all go thrui it, we call it this but theres no pro to it. My soul is aching only a few beers and peers know. Funny thing is its a few years old, got some shit going on, it felt so good but its bad. So I sit here like what the FUCK I'm at. This is not a story but real and true. Yo whats happening do I look happy to you If it goes to the wire I'm a fighter. Bruised up & sloppy I damage like Ali. sitting up talking late at night the only thing to gett me off the bed right. FUCK THE WORLD. my moms and my girl, well maybe not my moms, Just need to remain calm. This to won't last, it to shall pass Thats what I say thats what I pray for. I'm the only thing standing in my own way. got to be with me theres no escape, the pressure just stepped in and took over, shit like iits know to do Hey I'm going home with you, I need to be alone with you, be in a zone with you, I'm the only thing grown to like I own you. Been with you since thick and thin starting to confuse me been so long it seems like your trying to lose me you show such cruelty When everyone turns there back on you - its just you and me how you always come and get me, how we always reunite I got that place in your heart. Doctors, meetings, pills and drugs, couldn't keep us apart now you want to get rid of me, I'm in your head you gotta live with me, sometimes I want you to leave & understand, let me live in peace smoke my last cig in peace, leave for a second its been to long and I can't handle it as long as your around, I can't face it WHATEVER IT TAKES TO FIND A WAY I'LL FIND A WAY

Mind Racing, thoughts chasing with no road to follow, just steps to lead Pace by Pace Determination & Anxiety puting things in there place On the steep cliff close to the edge, far way down with nothing to reach within grasp Long way to climb, huge hurdles to leap stretching to make it with the reach in range with nothing but pain and anger brewing inside, with nothing able to stop the progress of moving forward, upward climb out of the downward spiral trying to pull me under Clearing baggage off my shoulders to loosen the weight. Clearing the mind to reach the stake. All thats left in this chase of the path is to free the soul. with the evil and darkness intertwined in my veins. clasping at my feet to pull me through. I gather nothing but the faith calling my name. I break on through. unfinished..........

wondering where my life may lead & where to turn to next, but all I seem to find is it turns to you. From being lost in a sea of emptiness when your not around unconditional love to come. Losingmyself in the gaze of your eyes to the undearing smile that you give to make me want to see where it leads, into your soul with your gasping flows to know whats on your thoughts for to be one with you as you are with me. A love so deep that I yearn for your touch when you are near all visions clear as your love is so deep. Bound by forgiveness & thoughtfullness from rights to wrongs, ups & Downs. All taking me back to wonderland wishes and candyland kisses when I was a kid. Succulent kiss from yyour lips pressed upon the chest, feelings of being like that kid in the candy store or that unopened gift at Xmas time full of suprise inside. Past mistakes left oblivious with the search of MS. Perfect instead of the rrealization of MS. Real Taking time for granted wasting what could have been. with memories down the drain but more to arise with a deep stare in your eyes lost for days a peaceful tranquility taken over my peace of mind with butterflies, wings spread abroad where we can grow in fields with so much space to flow In which where all time has stopped.

As a present never opened always a suprise, waiting for the package inside never disapointed in the return. Always satisfied like nothing can go wrong. Belonging to the indefinite, whether or not our love grows strong, your heart belongs to someone else, never given the chance to shine, stopped shit on a dime, scared to commit and learn shit from the inside out. Have no doubts couldn't handle the trouble, out in a double trouble jumpin jack flash. Said you didn't care bout the cash. Left me with you on my mind. Didn't know how to be kind. said I didn't care when all it did was put wear and tear to my heart & soul. How could someone be so cold. Never knew how to define or explain my feelings inside. When did LOVE become so blind that you walked away with no chance at.. Redemption, conception of my being for you Left unsaid with no chance to be told, let the cards unfold & the future fortold, with nothing left to realize that I was here for the LONG-HAUL Never saying I would leave even though you bailed with EMOTIONS put on sale never to be bought again, once purchased to only be returned & shelved. Can't say who was to blame, but found out the hard way you weren't meant to be tamed All that was asked was honesty, but lead falsely to the accused of not knowing. TO THE PAST, PRESENT, FUTURE DEAD AND REBORN AGAIN Going through the trials and tribulations but how long will it last, with the problems in the past. can't get thru Can't recognize what is here right now and what may or may not become. Started and stopped & tried again with a full 360 of PAST, PRESENT FUTURE DEAD AND BORN AGAIN Say to be friends but where will that turn. Should I take the risk of being burned once, twice three times to make it nice. Howw much can one person take before it bakes inside and self destructs with NO rrecognition of what may have or never was Back to the same ol same ol PAST PRESENT FUTURE DEAD AND BORN AGAIN With a fork in the road & which way to take left right or even straight always ending at the same place that is PAST PRESENT FUTURE......DEAD AND BORN AGAIN

Sitting alone in a 4 cornered room candles burning and nuttin to do looking for the passage thru the land of savage with bricks piled upon bricks with no end but the search for where it all begins and where noone wins Ghetto dreams with real time themes to make ends meet but does it meet the ends trying to escape like a POW caught in this concrete jungle of bungalows and broken down dreams disappearing into the atmospheric region of smog and clouds with doubts of making it taking it to a higher level above the skyscrapers of bricks creating a cell divided by miles and miles of slums swept under the carpet like yesterdays news not realizing the pain each day faces for that child or mother working on survival to make things whole again instead of an incomplete mess with life of stress

Look at the mirror I dont fight I'm not your everday paper pushing, pencil writing, label creating writer words upon visions, and visions upon these words i speak take me into a ring and you can box me into a corner read my words and I will run you around from corner to corner but I dont want hurt you with my verbal excavations of mental hilltops with intellectual intejections upon your ears am i your voice within reason or am i the reason you dont voice your reason as i speak you tell me your listening, but you don't hear words to be twisted turned and changed into some obsure mess that fits your rationalities but the rationalities become irrational I write to rejuvinate revitalize to express my generation that got numb I use a page with chicken scratch to express my thoughts your opinions there observations I make sense or things that are undescibally painful and obscure I relate to the unrelatable you want to battle me.....fine then step in my world and my ring go 10 rounds with my mind and my metaphors that are like jabs and similies that are like right hooks that is why I write.......welcome to my world