This pain that keeps growing inside me is deeper then words
I try to cry for help but no one hears me
Screaming as loud as my voice allows me
Reaching out for the things to say
To get you to hear all of my pain
As much as I cry as I look your way you just turn away
Cant you see I am in pain
I feel so alone even with you right here beside me
Words have not worked in healing my pains
Art is a much more therapeutic way
A canvas is that I crave
Some dark red paint to show the depth of this pain
Thin red lines painted
Red teardrop looking images fall from the canvas
Feeling better from all this art work I made
I cry in silence for you still dont see this pain
My body as a canvas
My blood for the paint
A razor for a brush
My tears for me to feel and not for you
As I sit in a bath of paint
Red tears rolling down my arms
My fingers are cold
My body is in shakes
I begin to feel numb
So I dont feel a thing
Drifting into a sleep
Only to awake in a pool of dark red paint
Screaming in mind felt pains
A handful of sleep might be a better way
With one silent swallow
My pain and fears start to go away
Just to reawake in all the same pain
Is this so bad I cant get away
