You know its fucked up how things have turned out at this point in my life. Two years ago I was with a sorry ass boyfriend who treated me like a whore and a fool and was never going anywhere in life. Our last year together all I did was fight with him, spend all my time at home when I was away from him praying to the lord and lady to help me find true love or open the eyes of the one I had currently to the fact he was torturing me day after day. Everything else besides my love life was great. I had a part time job and was going to college full time making the Dean's List and getting along great otherwise.
Then one night it seemed that my endless prayers, chants, spells, were finally heard and I was contacted by Dallas through Myspace (who is now my finace). I left the deadbeat I was with my love life has been perfect ever since. Its been a year and half. No fights, no problems, just love and understanding. So things should be great all around right?
Wrong.
Everything else in my life has been destroyed. My parents tried to destroy our relationship because he's not an upstanding citizen...basically he's been in trouble a lot because he's got a lot of mouth and anger issues with cops and authority. He's a daredevil. He likes to be in the lead so his bosses from work end up firing him or pissing him off because he works his way, not theirs.
Every since the start everyone seems to be out to destroy us and fuck us over. Our business partners bailed as soon as we got things going and signed some contracts. We were left with everything and we sunk in it because they didn't help like they promised us. I used all my personal resources to make our business work but we failed. I didn't have enough credit alone to get what we needed.
I am currently $14,000 in the hole with credit cards, accounts, and family memebers who loaned me money for my business. My fiance was attacked by 7 guys in a parking lot and they broke his ankle. He had to have reconstructive surgery to fix it. A plate and 10 screws will always be in his ankle. $25,000 in hospital bills and doctor bills. Since theres no way we can pay that, he's putting off getting a job so that this place, whatever its called, will pay it off for him.
I'm looking for a job but it could take a month to 3 months to find one. The part time job I have now only pays $45 a day and there's no guarentee how many days a week and paychecks are given monthly and its always a month behind so what I'm doing now I won't see for another month. And my average check a month from there was never more than $600.
And it keeps getting worse. The longer the bills go unpaid, the bigger they get. Within the next month these bills will probably start going to collection and my credit is going to drop dramatically. This shit will probably put a loan for a home or anything else on hold for another 3 years.
Its fucked up. So little would go such a long way right now. Hell if I just had a way to get my hands on $1000 from someone I knew or something it would be enough to pay all the overdue and over limit charges so it would all go back to regular payments I'd be okay because I wouldnt get anymore bills until next month and I'd start getting paychecks from my part time job on a regular basis.
So it seems that now I have a wonderful love life and I've found my soul mate after all these lifetimes searching that everything around me is trying to destroy us. Its like most people aren't allowed to have money and love. If you've got love you have struggle with everything else. And its effecting our relationship. We stay so stressed all the time that I seclude myself so much and he senses that. His biggest regret in convincing me that we should start a business is that we dont treat each other the same anymore. And I keep trying to put off negetive thoughts and I try so hard to be the way we were.
I just wish there was a way to get rid of this shit on us. And the only people who care can't help us anymore financially to get us out of the hole our ex-business partners let us fall in and sat back and watched. They will pay for this. When we're back on our feet they will pay for ever penny I lost because of them. I will swear to that.
