Just a little bit about myself and my life. I am 41 years old, divorced after my ex left me for my sister, I have managerial custody of my 12 year old son. I am recovering from cancer, had a kidney, a tumor that was almost as big as a volleyball removed. They claim I would have had 5 months if I hadn't had the kidney and tumor removed. I also take care of my two parents, my father is 81 and my mother is 71. Well today the electricity went off and the alarm clocks all reset and we where running a bit late, so my dad yelled at my son to get him up and going. Well my son yelled back, and world war three started. Now a brief history of being raised by my father, he thinks the saying spare the rod and spoil the child is a law somewhere because he used to whip me alot, ok thats an understatement because once he knocked me cold with a 2X4 because I let it slip half an inch while holding it. Needless to say, he may be the reason I have all kinds of physical problems today with all the beatings, knocking me out with his fists, or whatever he could grab hold of. Now he doesn't remember all this, he says I am exaggerating, but I still have nightmares about most of it. Well my father said i am a bad father because all I do is "TALK" to my son, I don't spank him or anything. To set the record straight I do spank my child some, but I don't believe in hurting him like I was hurt. This goes on a lot, so if I seem short with anyone, or distant, now you know why ok, please don't hold this against me, I come here to relax and have people around me who make me feel needed and special, not hurt and confused. So please forgive me for today, I might not act normal but I will try ok. Hugs to all my friends, thank you for being there
