In darkness I fall, sliding downward into a deep despair. I reach for a hand to hold but I find none,and deeper I slide. Finally I land deep within. I crawl looking for a way to leave this dark despair. But I am tired of fighting it, tired of getting ahead one space only to fall back 4. If my life where a video game I could just start it over, but game over has a definite finality to it in real life. I lay in a heap, crying, my heart in shambles and a pain so deep I can't stop it. I lay unmoving, feeling my pain deepen, and listening for some sounds. Time seems to stop as I lay in darkness and pain. I blink my eyes to moisten them because they are dry now from all the tears.I feel death approach, its dull thud in the dirt, its empty stare watching me. I feel its cold hands touching me. I cry out, oh someone help me find my way out of this place. I hear my name being spoken, in a soft and lyrical tone, you call me, begging me not to give up, your coming and I see light. Its getting closer and soon I feel your hands upon me, helping me to my feet. You embrace me, holding me close and I feel warmth not just from your body but your heart as well. I lean back and I see your eyes, deep fiery in the darkness, holding my gaze, shining into my heart and lighting it on fire. Making me want you, need you. I touch your lips with mine and I feel lost again, but not in cold darkness, lost in the fiery depths of your eyes, but this is not a place I want to leave, for its my home, a place I am meant to be.
