Yea I know I just posted a blog but hell couldn't help it cause right now my thoughts are going crazy. Its like you can go from at least somewhat normal to all of a sudden feeling down and nothing else matters. For one I miss my boys very much. I love them with all my heart. I mean its been hard enough for me to know what my oldest child went through the last day of school and the reason he can't be here right now. Then tonight my youngest gets in a motorcycle wreck and then that just makes me feel even worse. I swear my mind is going in so many different directions right now. Being a mom is hard, and I know from being around my hubby that so is being a dad. Just being parents period....You have to worry about your kids 24/7. Me I have always I guess you could say in a big way sheltered my boys but I love them enough to so what it takes to protect them in every way I know how. I know I can't protect them from everything. I am just writing this so I can maybe get some sleep tonight but I don't think that is going to happen. My boys are my life and I live it for them. I know my son will be ok and I know my oldest son will be doing better with time for what hes going through. I just hate that they are so far away and I can't physically hold them and tell them it will all be ok. I know some of you who may read this and think omg this woman is insane. Well no I am a very over-protective, loving mother. I will do what it takes to make my children happy. They are my heart and my soul and no other man can take that place in my heart. My two little men always have my heart. Well I know my babies will be ok...And I know I have blabbed long enough...But I am tired and going to bed at least for what little bit I will be able to sleep....
