I been leaving home alot cause i couldnt stand my house, i mean i may have stayed at home one night or a few during the month. I could deal with work or i could deal with home. Now im outta a job, im doing some construction on the side, but i been sick so i couldnt go out. I been at home alot, its very weird, but i got back able to take care of my mom, Shes droped to maybe 80 lbs again, and shes got blood in her lungs and leaking really bad all the time from her feeding tube, and the past week, i've been able to go in there without loosing my head and giving her most her feedings, changing her, cleaning up. She has alot of ups and downs so i cant say she may be close to actualy passing away this time, but it seems like it, which isnt a bad thing, shes in hell and it would be a good thing. But i fed her and did all her meds for a while now and i even sat down with her a lil while ago and talked to her for a few hours, it was nice. Now I gota just find an ax to hit my dad with at work so he'll stop with the dumbass remarks. pleople can be so cruel. But i'm finaly getting over my two week cold so huzza for me.
