Its the day after the funeral, and we got food and flowers everywhere. Dads already pretty much got the mountaineer sold, so i gota rent something to take to MTAC in april.
But anyways, The wake was really nice, they made mom look like just like right before she got sick. My dad wouldnt let me drive myself, and a good thing cause i refused to get out the truck when we got there for the viewing. I turned into one of those kids you see in walmart thats unruley and kicking and screaming and crying on the ground just about. But they got me in after a time and I got it all outta my system and saw mom, the flowers and she looked amazing.
But anyways, the Funeral was the next day (yesterday, friday). Elly came home from Switzerland for the funeral and i got to spend time with her last night with Kathrin and Tariana. Her and John went to the Funeral, and john helped carry the casket, he was supportive and i know he loved mom more than anything. But I put her lei (flowers) she got from Hawaii (the second time she went right before she got sick) in the casket with her, and two pictures in there with her, lots of people put things in with her, mostly things that had to do with hawaii though lol. And i had a hard time getting through the service but we made it and shes resting in our family cemetary now.
But today i get to go see and hang out with my favoritest people in the world Bry and Elly and they'll make me feel better but for now i hate the site of this house and it gets worse by the day, And i hate the fact i was forced to sit down at the table next to moms room and eat breakfast, and i cant get through my meal without crying the whole time, and dads sitting there just watching tv, and can hear me clear as day. . . .Just let me eat in my room and do my greiving out of everyones earshot if they're gonna turn their head anyway.
But im going back to bed now, im gonna take something and maybe sleep the whole day today
