i thought i was over this depression shit but once again its back. i just dont understand y i keep feelin like this for no reason. i should b used to being alone by now but i guess i aint. i just have this hole in me that i cant seem to find the missin peice for. my kids make me smile everyday but they arent what is missin. i guess my biggest fear in life is to live and die alone. but people say only way to get over ur fear is to face it and maybe that is my destiny. maybe i was ment to do good to all and still live this life alone. no one would miss me livin like that so i guess thats a good thing,for them. idk i just hate feelin like this and aint really no one to talk to bout it cuz i dotn wanna look weak or feel like im just being stupid and cryin over nothin.
