what to do, what to do? yet again im confused. i spend half my life being confused bout something but hey if i knew everything then my life would b so boring and i would have nothing to talk bout. lol. ok i recived a phone call from someone i never in a million years thought would ever talk to me again. and it was great talkin to him again. i have missed him so much that words dont even began to explain how i felt when i heard his voice, then when i saw his face it reminded me of how wonderful he really is. but yet i know i cant totally have him like i want due to his living situation and some other stuff. but just to have him back in my life means so much. i was so mad at him and heartbroken at some of the things he said and did to me in the past, but in a way it all makes sence and no one is perfect so i have to look past that stuff and see whats really up. try to figure out what he is thinkin and what he wants in his life. apperently he has been thinkin bout me and missed me enough to just call me out of no where and get over his fears and face me once again and im so thankful for that. ive been on cloud 9 all day just from seeing his face and talkin to him. its good to have someone there for ya that listens to ya and understands ya. so if that certain someone is reading this. no this isnt a "i hate you" blog. its thank you and im so glad we're talkin again. please dont ever stop being my friend or forget bout me.
