i have so many issues im dealing with right now, but i just brush it off like its no big deal. i have been serving a life sentance in the worst place possible, my own mind. my baby's daddy is doing time in jail about to be sent to prision,but my own world has no compaision to that. he do many things wrong to end up there, all ive down was be born and actually care. i live off the moto" life is to short to be fake" and i beleive that to the fullist. my problme is sometimes im too real.to everone else, just not myself. i know what i want out of life, i know what im looking for in a man, but i push back my want and needs only to konw im not with the one i want but i have some uncontrolable urgure to be with the one who has so many things bout them i cant stand. i know im not perfect by anymeans. but my worst quitlity bout me is findin the flawes in others. how can i sit and judge sumone for things they do, when i am not god. people do what they want to and i am no one to say they are wrong or they need to change. but i guess ive been told that all my life that finally i got the point. and all i do is try to help people see how they are hurting themselves or others. i just wish i could find a man who i didnt see any flawes in and have the feeling of "changing" them. but once i had met a guy like that and it was so boring to me. nothing intresting or excititing ever happend. i guess i need that drama in my life to feelthat i am worth something. i dont know im just rambling on but i have so many things i need to say and no one to say them too. no one that actually cares.
