MEMzZzy FIFO AKA Mr VirusxFIFOx's blog: "Untitled 1"

I look into the mirror to look into my own eyes to try and see what others do. Why am I pained when others say I'm great. It's confusing to me you see. They say mirrors never lie that their reflection is your true self. Everytime I find something that is great something that seems better shows up but in the end it isn't. I don't know why but Life has it's curveballs. Why does life have to be so hard. Why do I feel happy one minute and the next I feel like I am at the bottom of the rock pile. So what if I am sad and crying sometimes. No where in any book does it say that a man can't. It's ppl's presumtion that a man shouldn't cry because they are suppose to be strong well I say that is B.S. If someone wants to cry don't judge them be a friend and tell them it's ok. I'm tired of going on sometimes if you must know. I am manic depressant. It is a diease. I don't say it like most ppl just so they will feel sorry for me. I really am and I get depressed easy. The hardest thing to do is to live.Giving up is easy so get your facts straight. I am strong because all I am going through right now and I am still alive while all these celebs and teens go and kill themselves. I don't want respect. I just want to be understood you feel me? Just because I'm nice to someone doesn't make me one way or the other. I'm nice to everyone until your not nice to me. Mem is just a mask I wear. Tommy Hendrix is the man and he is a fighter. My ancestors were fighters from Michael & Thomas Collins(Irish Republican Army founders) to Bonnie Parker(Bonnie and Clyde) so what makes you think I am not. They died for their ways and their beliefs. What makes you think I am afraid of you? You bleed just like me. I will never fear you. You throw your judgements in my face and I laugh because they are petty and pathatic. I am the name of the game in my life. Now you should learn to deal with it. I make the rules and the rule change alot. I have that right. It's my life. I may not have a damn thing to show but those things are material anyway. When I am dead and gone. Those things will remain here. My mind is my fortune and if you can take the time to read some of the things I post. You might learn that I am actually rich because I don't let it go to waste. I use it to better myself and those that read my words. I do this for free and because I want to. Not because I have to. I choose to because I'm tired of this ugly world. I want something better. I want to live till I'm old and grey. I want a world that my children's children will respect and be happy to live in. This is why I write. Don't consider this just a blog. Consider this a lesson in life and quite possibly a wake up call because I only want better. Why shouldn't you? I am not here to point fingers: the human race as a WHOLE needs to change not just one race. I don't care if your Black, Brown, White, Yellow, nor if your Muslim, Athist, Wiccian, Buddist, Christian, Jewish, or your own made up religion. I am not saying that one person is right and one is wrong. Because WE ALL ARE WRONG. That's right I said it.  I am talking to everyone that has a pulse. Everyone that breathes this air everyday. Open you DAMN eyes and step up and do something about everything that is going on in our world. Don't be afraid it only takes one voice to make change. I'm not afraid to be a martyr to make change. Why should you? I can be a leader. I just want ppl to follow. Why should I stand alone when you know I am right. I can do it there is just no reason too. You catch my drift. I am not looking for awards or gain in money. I just want to live in a world where we don't struggle everyday for food. That is B.S. No one should have to do that. It's like Barack Obama said "It's Time For Change". Well guess what in that sense he was right but it's not in the power of our governments to make change. They are powerless because they are greedy. They tax and tax when there is nothing to tax. We are the voice for change if they would pull their head out of their asses and just listen. Don't be afraid stand up and demand change. We can do it if we stand together. Trust Me. This Concludes another MEM life lesson. Thank you from the bottom of my heart if you take the time to read this.