Boobalicious Paper Doll's blog: "2009"

12:48pm Deep in my thoughts is where I am... Lost in my train of thoughts... trying not to be emotional. I can't help but think something is wrong and I am at fault. I feel as if everything around me is changing, but it is for the better. Not knowing doesn't scare me, knowing is what does. I am wise, and smart, but I don't want to ruin a good thing while it's around. Keeping my head up high My faith next to my heart trying not to let the worst get to me. I am taking baby steps, when I should take bigger steps. I don't know where else to go since I am at a crossroads. I'd like to be more than just a lover... I'd like to be more than just a friend... I need for you to teach me every step of the way. Everything happens at its own pace. I am afraid because I know. I am not afraid to lose. I am afraid to love. I am not afraid of being hurt. I am afraid of aching and hurting and not knowing what to do. This is my train of thought... I think it's about time to let it go and be at peace. I am afraid ... of what is next... 12:52pm