Boobalicious Paper Doll's blog: "2010"

12:40am PST

So my weekend went by pretty quick.  I had a busy week but it seemed like it would drag forever.

I've been going to the gym about 2-3x per week when time permitted, but I went in for an impromptu, yet informal interview sometime last week, only to find out that they decided to turn it into a real interview, which again I had no clue whatsoever.  I got called back on Monday to go in for a 2nd interview on Tuesday, and found out later that day I got one of the 2 jobs I'd interviewed for, which i didn't know was for a 2nd job anyway.

So Anywho... my phone decided to just completely shut down on Monday night.  I didn't do anything to it and it wouldn't powe on or anything... to top things off i lost ALL my pictures and music and everything.  Also, the backup phone I had wasn't responding do it was the day off days!  Then my b/f asked me if anything was wrong cuz I hadn't responded to his texxts, so I called him and told him about my phone problem ad gave him back up number.  Another positive though is I bought the Yankees tickets :)

I was trying to get my phone delivered by Thursday but couldn't since they had it set for delivery on Friday, which kind of sucked cuz the HR Dept and I kept going back and forth on missed voicemails and stuff since Wednesday.

Friday was ok though... I went to hang out with my close friend, my brother tagged along. I came back like at 1:45am, dropped my brother off and hung out with my guy at 2:00am. I ended up leaving his house at 6am only to find out i dropped my necklace there, but it's ok, I got it back yesterday.

I am still getting text messages from people who's numbers I don't recognize just yet. Yes, my stupid self forgot to backup my numbers... but who would've though a phone would just malfuntion like that?  Oh and my boyfriend's Droid also went through some weird thing, where it wouldn't get past the 1st screen.  I still blame it on him *grins*

Now... the one thing that is bothering me is that ... this was father's day weekend right?  I'm not sure about my current condition.  Everyone keeps poking fun at me cuz i've been moody and whatnot for the last few days.  We let this happen once... yeah I know once is all it takes, but since I haven't gotten tested... I sort of don't want to. Pregnancy test i mean for those who are wondering...  It's been 4 days since i've been late.  Maybe I'm late due to stress and whatnot. I mean I took "plan b" right away when the condom broke...  then again I haven't really stressed out at all except for the drama I went through on Tuesday.

I guess I should take a test anyway just to make sure, if I don't get it by Friday?  It would probably change things b/c I know we both discussed children before but not this quick.  As I mentioned, I doubt I am pregnant, but I want to talk to him about it.  I'm just confused b/c a couple of people just straight out blurted it out like that... Yet even though they were just making fun of me, I want to prove them wrong. *sighs* I'm getting tired now.

I start work at 9:30am but they want me in the office by 8:00am so I could fill out my paperwork and whatnot.............

12:53am PST

12:33am

So i've been talking to this one guy for a while right.  We're so into each other.  I thought I made it clear to some people that I am not interested in meeting or hanging out or whatever.

So, I got this random text out of nowhere right? From some dude I hadn't spoken to years ago.  He wanted to catch up and say hey, and just wanted to know what I was up to.  When I told him I was seeing someone, he somehow flipped b/c he thought he could just appear out of nowhere and sweep me off my feet.  I stopped talking to him b/c he was a bit too possessive.  I mean a little bit is fine as long as it's in all fun and games, but c'mon now, too much is too much.

He still hasn't done much to better himself.  I am a young woman who knows what she likes and what she wants. :D anywho, he tries to spit out stupid one liners hoping they'd make me laugh, which only got me irritated.  I finally told him to leave me alone, why text out of nowhere and expect for me to wanna hang out after like seriously 4-5 yrs.  This isn't high school!

That was the end of that story.  Just thought I'd write it down.

Oh and I've been writing more often. Maybe I'll share my stories and/or poems and songs.  Some sound all weird, but when you read the background to it then you'd understand and identify with more. 

In the meanwhile.... I don't know how much I like the guy I'm seeing. I know the intensity is there. I know there is passion and fire and everything.... We're both on the same level yet at different paces.  I feel as if I can and am able to catch up with him but its not about a race.
I've been hurt in the past, so I kind of feel weird sometimes when I call him my "boyfriend"... just don't know why....  Maybe b/c it's been forever and a day since I had a decent relationship.  I mean we both know where we stand and where we want it to go.  IDK... maybe it's just me.  *sighs*  He's charming, very responsible, pays attention to details, loves to hang out with me, always includes me in his plans, is making an effort for his little ones to meet me, etc.  Yeah, he is a single dad, and what?  He takes care of them, clothes them, feeds them, etc.  They always look happy when they're around him.  The littlest one is too small to understand what's going on, but then again who knows.  But I won't go into details.

It's rather late right now. But hopefully, I will say this for sure. I want him to be there to celebrate my bday.  I wanna be there to celebrate his.  :D

Liking Unconditionally Is Simple.........  Loving U Is Symbolic..... Lusting Us Is Sexy :)

12:45am 

2:48pm

So this always happens.  When I date a new guy and then things go well, it's as if I never existed.  I didn't do anything to scare him off or anything.

There is this guy I really, really liked.  He has everything I've ever wanted in a guy.  We got along, we hung out, met his family, and everything.  All of a sudden he says he wants a break.  We weren't really in a relationship but we were dating.

I hadn't been in a relationship and he knew why.  I always end up hurt, which is why I don't date altogther. Somehow, I thought things were different.  Shows what i know huh?

Last night, we were supposed to hang out, but he decided not to. That's when he called me and told me he just wanted a break.  I tried not to look into it.  I told myself i shouldn't like him and to only give him a chance, but I guess I liked him more than I thought.

I'm not the type of girl to fall easily.  I'm not the kind to play games.  I am the type who knows what she wants.  I should just take a break altogether and just hang out with friends.  I don't think I want to "date" guys for a while.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not into girls, but I guess I need a break for the time being.  *sighs* 2:52pm

10:26am

I just thought about something that really gets on my nerves.  Whenever a guy is trying to get my attention or acts as if he knows me, they tend to call me or any girl "baby".

I don't know why I've always gotten annoyed when a guy calls me baby.  I mean it's cool if I know him and he's a friend or whatever and calls me baby, but it annoys the fudge out of me when it's a random guy I've never talked to or spoken to, or just a guy who is trying to pick up on me.

I mean c'mon now.  Can't a guy address a girl by her name?  Or can't they just say something softer like hun?  Maybe it's just me.  Who knows?  

For example, the last guy I was dating called me baby so many times I got upset and told him to stop calling me that.  He asked why if it was just a nickname and word he used.  I said it was fine, but it was just overused that I literally wanted to just hang up on him or just walk away or not talk to him at all.  We didn't stop seeing each other because of it, we just stopped seeing each other because we were on completely different levels.

Check it out, some youngster hit up my sb... i've told him I'm seeing someone, and he still hits up my sb.  This was what he just hit me up with, "hey baby i need help" and "help me plz"
How the fudge can I help him if I don't know him.  He's probably the one who has gone in the lounge asking for me and claiming he's going to meet me or he's supposed to meet me or whatever?

FUCK OFF.  I'm not going to meet any other guys off here.  I had a couple decent meetings and I even liked this one guy but I got over him.  And the only other guy I met off here is my best friend.  Well one of my best friends now.  I'm ok where I'm at.  So no more meeting guys from fubar ever.  I'm not interested at all in meeting up anymore!  Like I said haven't had a prob, but I haven't talked to anyone worth meeting in person.  Besides, I have RL issues and drama to take care of like school and work, etc.

I'm going to slowly delete pics and just get rid of my current nickname.  I swear, people aren't original anymore.  I've seen sooooooo many chicks with my nickname it's not even funny.  Yeah I'm the original Boobalicious here on fubar.  I'm also the original Paper Doll.  Eh, like i give a fuck who calls themselves what?

Too many "DJs" and "juggalos" and "juggalettes" etc.  Yes, can you tell i'm just in a ranting mood? BLAH!  I guess i just wanted to just rant on and on and on...  Call me a bitch? I don't care.  Do you?  I know you don't! 10:35am