Deep Emotional Scars
Personal wounds sometimes don’t heal.
Drunkenness of your lies and need to hurt me makes me shiver to the pain of what you must place upon my heart and soul that only wants too love you.
Circumstances in life creates our demons,
But
Must you always send me shivering in fear into darkness where I pray you will never find me?
Perceptions outside
Is
Not what lurks behind our closed doors?
Do you see my well hidden deep emotional scars that you have place upon me?
Or
Can life?
Commands you bark like drill sergeant sent from hell upon my life.
I tremble.
I feel the pain and suffer more than you dare to see or care about.
I cry within
So
You will never know my pain.
I refuse to beg for mercy because I know there is none within you for me.
My deep emotional scars wanders are there any hope you will just fall asleep and never wake up.
Is
That wrong of me wishing and praying for
Or
Will god understand?
The deep emotional scars I keep hidden away all your friends and family
Or
Have they been seen now by them
Because
Today someone asked me, “Why I fell to my knees and broke down into tears, just because he went to move a piece hair away from my face, I was hiding from them, where you left a bruise upon it?”
I tremble as your father reached out to hold me in comfort.
I watched your mother cry to the horror you was placing upon me.
So tell me why….
Can you please tell me why?
You have to hurt me night after night daddy?
Can you see or care about my deep emotional scars you are placing upon me?
Will I ever
Be
Free to walk within life without marks upon me to show the world your hidden rage because I am in your life?
Do my deep emotional scars ever touch your heart?
Will one day you break down to cry to what you had done too me?
Or
Will I always live, breathe and walk within my deep emotional scars forever?
©2008Firestar
