Firestar Queen Goddessmember of the fuba's blog: "2008 Poems"

Tell Me Why I sit within my broken heart tears. I ponder to why he had to lie too me. Tell me why oh someone please tell me why he had lied to me, when I gave him all but my love as his. My heart felt his need. My soul knew his pain. Yet day after day, he kept on lying to me. So tell me why…. Does he still not get it? I linger here alone with my pain and sorrow of having to say good-bye to him. Did he not hear my words of him? Why did I have start falling in love with him? Now my heart is lost to how to deal with his messages of rage at me. I linger with each haunting words I read that he misses me, But Can I believe his words, when he still refuses to be honesty about his lies to me? I pace and cry upon my endless heart break over losing a man that was not real. Tell me why oh tell me why, do people have to be so fake? Must we live in someone else shadow to gain love or people as friends? When will this nightmare end? I thought I was letting go, But Now he is back to remind he was the best of me. Yet the man I wanted was not the man, he is now. How can I make him see what he has done to me? Tell me why oh why each time he sends me a message, I feel like I have done him wrong? Where can my heart be safe from this twisted nightmare? Does love have to be so cruel to me? Shall I ever know the gentle embrace of real love instead of lies and fake reality? Where be my soul salvation now with his lies out in the open? Two men can’t be one. One is real and willing to prove to me. The other still refuses to hear and see my pain, Oh god does this mean I have to change my cellar number and block him off Yahoo too? Tell me why…. Oh someone please tell me why he had to play this twisted game upon me? I just want to be free from all the games. Can anyone truly love me without all the lies and games? Tell me why my heart and soul hurts to his message. Tell me why…. Tell me why…. I shall never think love is real. Shall I wander alone within the boundless world of life without any man’s love as mine? Can I dare to trust another? Why does the darkness always follow me? Tell me why…. Oh tell me why I feel so alone in how to make him see I need him to move on without me. Because the man I was falling in love was someone, who never knew me or him. Tell me why oh why this bothers my soul. Tell me why my heart feel shatter into pieces. Yet I know I must let go of him too. Tell me oh tell me, if I can ever reach other to another love? ©2008Firestar I am sorry to all my friends, but I leaving Fubar for good...I can't deal with David lies. I feel in love with him....he was just lying and using someone else pictures...It hurts too much to be on here. I am just tired and sick of the damn fake people and bullshit on here.

Firestar (2/6/2008 5:48:12 PM): How in the hell would you know that...since you using Theo pictures as yours...why can't you show your true face....liars can't know true love, if it was a snake biting his butt redkbn1 (2/6/2008 5:49:46 PM): someday when all comes out you'll eat them words, I was always your friend, can't help who has my photos if it's only looks then your no friend anyways cya later wish you well Firestar (2/6/2008 5:50:00 PM): YOu are no man in pictures redkbn1 (2/6/2008 5:50:02 PM): ======================================== Guess Me meeting the real man behind his picture....has gotten him scared....I feel sorry for man that has to use someone else pictures to gain women.... Worst the women...that still believe him. Well....he is not man in picture...cause I have meet Theo...he is the real man in picture that David is using.

Deep Emotional Scars Personal wounds sometimes don’t heal. Drunkenness of your lies and need to hurt me makes me shiver to the pain of what you must place upon my heart and soul that only wants too love you. Circumstances in life creates our demons, But Must you always send me shivering in fear into darkness where I pray you will never find me? Perceptions outside Is Not what lurks behind our closed doors? Do you see my well hidden deep emotional scars that you have place upon me? Or Can life? Commands you bark like drill sergeant sent from hell upon my life. I tremble. I feel the pain and suffer more than you dare to see or care about. I cry within So You will never know my pain. I refuse to beg for mercy because I know there is none within you for me. My deep emotional scars wanders are there any hope you will just fall asleep and never wake up. Is That wrong of me wishing and praying for Or Will god understand? The deep emotional scars I keep hidden away all your friends and family Or Have they been seen now by them Because Today someone asked me, “Why I fell to my knees and broke down into tears, just because he went to move a piece hair away from my face, I was hiding from them, where you left a bruise upon it?” I tremble as your father reached out to hold me in comfort. I watched your mother cry to the horror you was placing upon me. So tell me why…. Can you please tell me why? You have to hurt me night after night daddy? Can you see or care about my deep emotional scars you are placing upon me? Will I ever Be Free to walk within life without marks upon me to show the world your hidden rage because I am in your life? Do my deep emotional scars ever touch your heart? Will one day you break down to cry to what you had done too me? Or Will I always live, breathe and walk within my deep emotional scars forever? ©2008Firestar

Introduction into Life’s Reality Muttering words of love upon a harden heart is like wind storm upon an uncaring life. A mindless soul wanders about within a coldness depth that leaves no mercy within cruel words upon another. Shall we ever recognize our twisted fate not belong upon the winds of reality. Sacrifice of one is not a gracious act of self worth in gaining more than one already has within their reach, It is about the needing to show there is more too life than greedy heart of selfishness to achieve your goals in life. Inward, we must look into our hearts and souls to find what truly would make us complete That one shall be able to offer more than what they have to offer. The wind gentle breeze about life is the proposal we must one day come to see… Life is much more when you dare to be open to its hidden secrets. Confess to our hidden self, we are not enlightened enough to understand what it is that life is telling us within the wind of truth. The altar within life, we need to be standing upon is now crumbling to the hatred upon the winds. War seems to breathe more than life. Ministry of life is planted within each of us to become the sole doctrines of what life is meant to be for all. The higher life is place will give life more time to become complete united as one Than the children hearts will rejoice in freedom as equals of instead of many. Resistant of hatred opens up all the possibilities of depth of love within life. Our logical is no longer lost upon winds of trembling times, it becomes the hunger and thirst of absolute truth to life being whole walking hand and hand to humility. No more will our hearts and souls be inadequate as one. Dreams will no longer be our future within life’s perfection of love and peace. It will walk, talk and breathe upon life winds of reality. &copy2008 Firestar

Kim Kyung Ho Kind-hearted is my bewitching ways In such Manners that kidnap your heart forever mine. Kindling the Youthful heart to surrender is my Ultimate Need within my heart that is pure Grateful for you daring too love me back in the same way. Heaven is Ours within one single kiss share between us. Knowledge of your kisses and touches up my body Is like angels singing to me with a call from My heart desire… Where you will not fade away…. From my reach within this awakening dream. Knuckling under are my legs to what your passion makes me feel. You are the only one for me Or ever need to be complete. United, we will be within this powerful love which is Like us being within paradise. Never wanting to let Go of this dream, until I have made real for both us. Can it be you feel the same as I do? How can we find us within a world that is vast and Over powered by hatred and greed to dare a love that will shine like a star upon life? Kiss me now my love. I have Many dreams for us to share as one within this waking dream, If you reach out to me. Keynote within us Is the Many ways too make our dreams real, instead of just being a dream, So just embrace my love that is meant to be yours always. Kill our fears that keep us apart. For my heart and soul knows. You and I must be. Understanding our heartbeat and soul needs to be one is too Never let Go what we feel is right for us. Because I don’t want too be without you no longer. Heaven is Ours once we dare to forever. ©2008 Firestar

Robert the Bartender Walk into his bar where angels dwell and steel hearts melt. His whiskey is strong, But His smile soothes the powerful drinks down like honey. He got the rhythm of the bar flowing. No need for blues here. His laughter is wicked, But he got the drink to reflect what will be, if you dare. His words are not bitter or harsh. He is made full of soul for life. His drink can be deadly, Yet give a man hope for love will follow him home. If you dare to enter into this bar. Fear not. For when you enter. You are within Robert, the bartender good hands. Cause here…. You have a good friend to make your worry fade into darkness. His drink and time is always ready and willing, When you toss down his first drink for free, he will say, “There is always plenty of love here to share for all that dares to come within the bar for Angel’s and Steel Dreams.” &copy2008 Firestar written for Robert

Wiz of Strawberry Dreams Dare to be the change within my strawberry dreams of love. He is the wizard of dreams coming true. Embrace his love like a god that will make everything else fade away. Hear his whisper upon your soul that will make you heart awaken to love. For he is the wiz of Strawberry Dreams that will make your heart flutter Upon the soaring winds of love eternal flames forever. See his world of Strawberry Dreams as yours. He has nothing to hide or gain by you losing all within his dream of making you come alive. Let the chemistry start deep within a hidden desire to belong too the Strawberry dreams of delight, Where he, the wiz will make all you dreams real. Connect to what is no longer a dream. Wiz of Strawberry Dreams has come to forever love you. ©2008 Firestar written for Wiz

Jammin’ With Da Best He is a gust of wind that always has your name upon his whispering breeze about life. Jammin’ has the substance to be the best for blast of spicy that leaves your mind tingling. He got the walk that makes you flutter about the wings of butterflies in life. Jammin’ with da best, Will what more can I write? His hands are of liquid steel. His heart is pure as rain upon hell like a spring day of freedom blowing in and out. His soul fears not weep to your pain or sorrow. Jammin’ like a band strumming out a sweet melody too soothes your tears away. How can I say the words to make dare love within his tender ways? He caress you like a wings of angel sent to spare from you harm. Jammin’ burst to life, when you come to see, you in his eyes sparkling sin. His smile is like cool water falling upon you as the sun tries to burn your flesh. He becomes the strong foundation beneath you, When the world starts too crumble around you. Jammin’ with da best is the dream we all wish to have come true. Arms’ gently holding you close as the sun begins to fade away. A heart beating words of desire for only you forever. His Soul depth of passion breathes the sweet air that yields to surrender. Jammin’ with da best, he is man that has little to say. Yet, A man with substance to be your hero, The endless fool willing to make you smile, A champion of honor willing to make all your dreams come true, even when times are dark. What can I say? But Dare to be Jammin’ with da best man. ©2008 Firestar

Slapping a Hater Down First accept, who you are Than Deny or refuse it. Fake recognition Of What the f*ck Is Being said by your fowl thinking ways upon life. Heartfelt, Are you for real? You say, your words are Labor of love, Yeah right Your words are just a bunch of banana peelings lying around the floor for you to falling upon your hating ass. Who is laughing now…. Me of course At you dumb Ass Falling down. Briefly, I confess feelings of friendship towards you, Boy Was your dumb ass from the hicks! Rearing an ugly headed Child, Is your mother worst nightmare. Ask me, If I care, The answer would shock you. Beause your dumb hating ways made me write this. ©2008 Firestar

You Almost Knew Me You almost knew me Yet you never let me close enough to know you. Shatter dreams before we could create them together. Hope fading likes a lost horizon upon yesterday love that will never bloom into tomorrow. Once we talk upon tomorrow dreams. Today, there are no words of kindness or hopeful dreams for us to share. You never dare to reach out too me. Fake reality was what you were chasing. You say I almost knew you, But In reality, I did know you, Better than most in your life. I felt you pain upon my heart as you cry alone in the dark. It was never shadowy thing about me to dare love for you, Yet Once again, You tell me, I almost knew you. When in fact, I knew you better than you knew me. Fading hope of what we could have shared. Dreams will never being real for you and me. What did you give up for all the fakeness within your reality? You gave up on knowing me. &Copy2008 Firestar written for David aka Darkangel6