8975372's blog: "My Poetry, My Heart, My Wish"

I meet you and suddenly I realize: you have everything I want in a man. That this is everything I want in a relationship. And that realization throws me into a panic, pushing the what if into my head. what if I want this more than you? What if you want this but not with me? What if the connection I feel really isn't there? what if, what if, What if?

But I can't help myself

Every text makes me smile a little brighter. Every laugh we share makes me fall a tiny bit more. every conversation makes me want this. You. Us. Yes, I know what my head says. Don't rush, mustn't rush. You don't know for certain what he's thinking.After all you haven't really looked into his eyes, you haven't seriously felt his arms around you, haven't kissed him with the passion of a thousand burning suns, haven't felt your spirit join with his.

But I can't help myself

I want this, I want you. Getting to know you has melted the icy prison that I stored my heart in. I stored it way down deep in an abyss I thought was in penetrable. I threw up hi towers and dared anyone to try to get in. Others tried and gave up. Try and failed. tried and called me cold. but somehow, you saw the towers of ice for what they were and decided to climb anyway. I should have held my ground against you.

But I can't help myself

Your personality, your passion, your intelligence may my heart one of flesh again. I heart that comes a little harder when I think of you or when I hear your voice. a heart that aches just a little because I want to tell you all of this but I won't. A heart that is afraid it might scare you away. A heart terrified it will break if I let you win. I want to tell you all of this, I wish I wouldn't hesitate, I wish I weren't so scared.

But I can't help myself!

Where are you???

Your Gone!!