Forever Lost's blog: "just read it"

 I have this man in my life for the most part he seems great, but as time goes by he seems so busy.. He works a lot and is a very hard worker, when he is off work he has something to do all the time yard work things for his moms house his house his CAR always a friends car something always.. He use to make more time for me and now I feel like he will see me when he has time, I feel like he is no longer making time for me, its like fuck it I am going to do this that and the other and when I feel like it I will call text or come over.. I don't want to push him to be here if he don't want to be here I don't want to push him to talk to me if he don't... I wish he would just break up with me if he don't want to be with me... I am more then lost when it comes to mine and his relationship its like I really don't have a clue, does he want to be with me is he really just that busy and stressed out because he is that busy does he miss me at all?? Do some people (men&woman) have a harder time showing those fee?lings letting someone they care for know how much they care and miss them when they are not spending time with one another or is that just a red flag a sign they really dont want to be with you but dont want to break it off either? I really don't know.. Should I give him the benefit of doubt because I know what all he is going though and be more understandable and let him work out all these kinks he has been going though and then see if he starts to be the man I have fallin in love with or do I get a clue and break it off before I have deeper feelings and get hurt even more then the pain I feel in my heart