DAMN DAMN DAMN i want to get orders out of here at this point with or without my husband....maybe apply for Korea just get the fuck out of here, but as always the power he holds on me will never let me go
He has captured that part of me that no one can see me unwilling for that mind you but indeed he did
as the time grows closer for CCL to leave my heart gets harder and harder, my mood gets worse and worse
panic wells up in me like I want to do something to stop it but I know i can't ever do that
So with everything in my life being as it may I am here no matter what, three kids make it hard to do anything but continue to smile........
I wish for that fairy tale love I suppose but it doesn't exist does it, so I will be content in the love that I am given by a good man and continue to make him as happy as I can
I AM DEFEATED the wild mustang has been tamed the impossible made possible, like many the spirit has been dragged out of me, so now I sit and go threw my day with my mask in place...... I think I will check out the moon phases and perhaps cast a few spells.....
Then get all dolled up and go sing and dance, maybe even have a few drinks LOL
go have a good day all
kisses mel
