Hunybear29's blog: "Frustration"

i have a burning question. well let me start at the begining ok. 

i have been seeing my very first boyfriend since jan 4 19 he waved at me on fb and well i have been waiting for years for just that one little small opeining to talk to him.

i was 11 he was 12 it was 1987 oct and well i thought he was the prettiest thing id ever seen. I asked him to the football game where by the end of the night i planned on being in a hot lip lock with him. sure enough by the end of the night i had impressed so much on this boy he thought about me for 31 years. but that is not where things end as kids. 

long story short we broke up not bc we wanted to but bc of manipulation tacktics by my sister. anyway fastforward 5 years. i see him riding around in town in his truck and i have a thing for him and trucks so i hope in and get him to take me to my house where i proceeded to throw myself at him and where he proceeded to reject me. at the time i had no idea why now after talking to him more i know it wasn't because he didn't want me it was because he hadn't showered{silly} but he left me standing in the moonlight at 16 with nothing on but a royal blue thong. i was crushed, it really played a large roll in my self esteem for a long time first rejection and all lol.   

so again fast forward another  years and he waves at me and of course i immediatly hit him back we have been talking daily and i went to see him a few times we click so good in and out of bed i just feel bad because he is married with kids so not sure how i feel about it what do you guys think 

the moment i laid eyes on him i fell all over again he is what i have always based my men on what i like htat is lol he is a big man now and i'm actaully ok with it he turns me on so much. i just wish he wastn't married!