Hunybear29's blog: "Needing"

He He does not want you You silly girl Why would he with his witty charm He is big, you are small Why would he settle? For you at all So brush it off And continue to be The lovely person the world does see

smiling faces looking up to me with such admiration blue, green, hazel entering the soul like spectacular waves of loves embrace. sweet song singing such angelic words whispering threw the air like billowing clouds drifting in a summers sky. tiny hands grasping mine, letting me know the frailty that exist. My sweetness, my blessing, my soul. Heart explodes with waves of love as gaze returned nothing like the amazing connection shared between mother and son......... I have often times wondered if my heart could fill even more with the love I have in me for my children wondered that how could I have possibly existed with out these angelic souls that have been given to me for safe keeping. With all my faults I wonder how it is that these beautiful souls could possible want ME for there mother there protector. I thank the heavens for them all three. And pray every night that I can be all the mother that they deserve. I love them without them I am absolutely NOTHING.......

darkness surrounds engulfing forces eating me from inside out blacking my soul my heart is heavy full of sorrow blowing away taking with it ME maddness clouding the mind damping the spirit heart broken Neverending sorrow creeping in leaving this shell eluding me eluding the soul ending ME catch me pull me close force this maddness to leave

the night surrounds like a gentle cloak the feeling of waitlessness moving across billowing clouds what is this who am i falling faster years passing i close my eyes nothing there darkness swallowing me whole wind,air filling my lungs nothing, no sound i scream out no one can hear what is this who am i suprisingly, no fear falling faster years passing thrashing about nothing to fear you pull me close whisper i am here all the answers felt right here in magnificiant arms falling faster no fear woken by morning sweet lights embrace to realize I love you even more with every moment.