I am back did you miss me :)
ok quick and the dirty on me for real I WAS active Air Force for almost 7 years now I opted to get out with the whole force shapping thing, I lost my grandfather (which I loved very much) from there I had a nervious break down was rapped apparently in the process by my airman, my friends or so called friends bailled on me for real! I tried to commit suicide (apparently it didn't work ) hahhahah I don't remember alot of the events due to being plastered on barbituates and the suicide attempt caused some memory problems long and short but I am getting along now it would seem, I am currently on terminal leave and will soon be a civilian once again wha hoo I am sad a bit because I did so love serving my country but I am afraid I just can't deal with the stress of it anymore, I accomplished making sargent sooo I am pleased with that out of the whole thing all in all I am thankful for the experience I hate that I was hurt but it just made me so much stronger.
my husband has been awsome through it all even the brief stay at the crazy house LOL but anywho that is the low down of whats up with me! It has taken me months to get to the point that I could talk about things but here I am still strong still alive and I am thankful for that I have my 3 babies that are healthy and my hunny so I guess you could say life is good, It will be better when I get the fuck out of here but I am doing good considering the torment that took place I suppose so to you all hello again I can't wait to look around get orientated again and start rating some profile and pics soooo
kisses all mel
