So few of you know that I cant stand living at home. I hate living here for a few reasons..
1. My mom is anti depressant medication and doesnt take it because its too strong and she wont get it adjusted.
2. My mom is just rude and inconsiderate. She will wake me up to do the dishes at 11pm. Ok let me expalin I will do a load. Go out w/ sean come home and go to bed w/ sean until he leaves. The city raised our the water cost because theyre chargin us for sewer usage. Gayness i know SO our bill was almost 200 bucks. SO I figure do 1 load a day to cut the water usage down. nopers she wanted me to wash 2 sinks full of dishes.
2. I get to babysit my brother and sister all the time and get no money for it. yeah i know im not working but hello! I have no license and a non working car. so im sitting at the house and not paying rent or anything. then she tells me to ask her for money if i need it like 10 bucks or around that ammount. ok the last time i only ten bucks i had to have been around 8!! i can go to the movies by myslef and thats about it! She have THOUSANDS of dollars racked up in credit card bills and has to pay them off. plus she buys groceries and spends 10 bucks on my bro and sisters lunches every 2 weeks. so wheres the money left for me babysitting?? yeah no money!!
3. I cant keep food in the house or mom gives it away or eats it. i bought my mom and i lunch 2 weeks ago and her and my sister divourered(sp?) my leftovers. Then I cant have food downstaires or my mom gives me shit for not sharing w/ everyone. I was buying me grapefruit juice so i can have my vitamin C everyday so i dont get sick as much. i had to stop because my mom was letting it get wasted because shed give it to my brother who hates grapefruit juice. then i bought a huge jug of hi c and she let everyone drink it! i WROTE MY NAME IN SHARPIE ON IT!! And they still drank damn near all of it!
4. She reads ALL my blogs on myspace!! Then if i mark them private she throws a fit!! and says that im talking about her and i just dont want her to know. No i want some damn privacy!!if i want to talk about seans and i sex life i dont want you to know!!
5. I feel as if what i say goes right over their head. my sister when i watch her she wont listen to a damn thing i sya then if i yell at her she cries and runs to mom and dad when they get home. Then she is 11 and sleeps in their room on a bed made of pillows and blankets because she refuses to sleep in her room which is right next door!!! So she has comprehnsion problems and my mom babys her!! She stayed hoem becuase she had pms cramps!! I had a disease that if i dont ake care of my self when im sick w/ it i am stuck in bed for weeks/ upto 2 months!!I was told to dela with and to take care of myself! Then my dad also said that when i get my period i cant stay home because im raging! plus my sister has 1 chore and it takes within 5 min to do! She has to fill up water bottles. then she bitches about DO IT!! I wash dishes vaccume and watch tham. so i have a lot more on my plate then her! then i tell her to do them and she wont!! so i nag her like my mom does me and I get yelled at!! she wont listen to my mome ither! She will listen to sean tho!! its bs!! i have to SCREAM my lungs out at her!!
6. I wanna be an alt model! I really cant have porn sites contacting my house and sending me stuff if im living at home. too many questions and i dont wanna hide it or lie about it! i feel as if i cant be me in my house!!i have to walk on eggshells! 'm loosing my mind!! I need an escape!!
I need to spread my wings!!
Pray for me!
Hope for the best!!
God I need a lot of help and prayer!!
any advice??
xo's
Amber
