I've been trying to come up with things to write but am not having much luck. Things are basically at a semi stand still with the doctor situations due to having 3 more weigh ins to go until my case goes to the insurance company.
I guess I'll write a bit about clothes.
I realized today when I got my new clothes (had to get an outfit for New Years as it was part of the bargain for a $ loan I got to help me through until I get my temporary disability. Thrifty me got 3 full outfits and a couple extra shirts for the price of 1 full outfit lmao. Clearance shopping is a good thing.).
Anyway I got the clothes and tried them on. I realized then just how much I hate the clothes I've been stuck with for so long. I know I've realized before but when I put on the leggings they felt awesome, something I've not felt since I got too fat for normal clothes. I look good in them too. I prefer leggings and jeans but am (or I should say was as I have lost enough weight to get leggings) stuck with sweat pants mostly.
I hate most of what I'm usually stuck with so badly its part of why I hate going out in public, I feel like such a freak. Sue says I need new clothes anyway (what I have is getting threadbare because I hate what I normally have to buy so much I won't buy clothes until I have no choice but to get more)so I think when I get $ coming in again I'm gonna go ahead and splurge some and get more so I have more then just a couple outfits.
Granted (hopefully) they won't last on me long but at least for now I'd feel better about myself I hope. Maybe I can start making myself go out a bit more. I need to learn to feel ok in public again anyway because I know I'm gonna be out and about a hell of a lot more as more and then all the weight comes off.
The clothes thing got me into thinking that I seriously need to start saving $ to get a whole complete wardrobe for when I am at my goal weight. I intend to BURN EVERYTHING, literally, that I have now when I reach that point. I may go ahead and keep 1 outfit as a reminder though. So I'm gonna start now, saving up so I can go back to being the clothes horse I used to be rotflmao. I used to have so many clothes it was unreal lol.
*sighs* Ah to be able to wear nice jeans, t-shirt and cowboy boots again (my favorite kind of outfit). To wear a nice dress again instead of something that makes me look like I'm wearing a tent. I haven't worn a dress since the early 90's because none have ever looked good one me IMO. Yea yea, people that were with me when I tried things on said it did but if I don't think so, I won't get it. I do actually know what compliments me clothing wise that I like.
I bet I will drive people nuts with my style, as I've always had my own way of doing things though lol. Oh well, its my body. I do take advice on things, don't get me wrong. I just do things different lol. I basically, way back when, was doing the Goth thing before Goth was popular lmao.
Its gonna be interesting though when I do get the final (err meaning when I start my full wardrobe over) thing over with what I'll have. I know its gonna be a combination of old style me and new me. Uhoh, that sounds like the Katt is growing up EEEEEKKKKKK (scary thought lmao).
Some of the things I look forward to I know may sound silly but you know what, its not to me :)
If anyone has questions or ideas or anything to help me keep this journal going over the next couple months, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME AND HELP ME OUT! I got people asking when I'm gonna write more often but I'm low on ideas. Any kind of curiosities or comments will help. I won't use anyone's name unless they want me to in here so no fearing needed be on that cause of this being so public :)
More to be written later.
