Frayed Knot FM2 DRK's blog: "Update"

I am a bit scared of what will be and happy to know it should make it better. Surgery is the course of action recommended and I will hope it is sucessful. Stupid ligament, it's tiny, buried, and all I need is to be screwed for 3 months to correct it.

A screw will be inserted in my foot and it will give my foot the time it needs to heal correctly, then they will take the screw back out. 

Please be patient with me if I seem distant or grumpy. I am frustrated and can't see past my own needs right now. 

If you:

 

1.) Piss me off

2.) Irritate me

3.) Ignore my requestto cease 

4.) Are rude, crude, or ignorant

5.) Ask me to get naked

6.) Lie to me

7.) Do something hateful to someone I care about

8.) Just rub me the wrong way

 

YOU WILL BE BLOCKED!!!!

 

I suggest you know your audience before you type to them. This includes photo comments, my shoutbox, when I broadcast, and any other form of communication you use on this site. 

Tonight I will hold her close...listen to her breathe while she sleeps...stroke her hair and know that tomorrow I will see her off at the airport. I am not staying on here as I have somewhere I'd rather be. With her, where I have been tonight. It will truly break my heart to let her go. I cannot change this. I cannot.

 

sometimes the right thing is the hardest thing...and it sucks really bad!

 

 

So my life is not so sun shiny just now. I don't feel like giving a complete explanaition regarding the situation, but suffice it to say that I am absolutely miserable. I have to focus on fixing what I must to ensure the next step is in the right direction. That direction leads me to my kids.

How does one explain that their' children love them absolutely and want to be with them, but choose to live with the other parent because of the situation they don't want to suffer through any longer? I know without the details you will only be confused, but living where I am, at my parents house, with my parents, isn't where my children wish to be. Soooooooooo I have to get us all out in one piece but in pieces and it makes no real sense to me just yet. I hate today and may hate tomorrow even more, but I will keep going because I know it will all be okay at some point.

 

I might not be on much or talk much, but I will probably blog again.

 

xoxo

So I took a shower...not an uncommon event, but today I had no hair. I only needed a small bit of shampoo and conditioner. It was the strangest thing I have experienced, lately. *giggles* So to top that off I didnt have to wrap a towel around my head upon getting out of the shower either! Holy hell...its been 2 decades since this has been.

So I turn on the curling iron..and blow my hair dry..takes no time at all hahaha.  I spent 20 minutes curling it..and it just doesnt look as cute as it did yesterday. I forsee a ton of time before the mirror with all my girly stuff trying to find the simplest cutest way to do my hair..til then haha I will have to pretend I am happy I no longer know my own head....literally.

 

Today is a beautiful day. I hope you all enjoy it!

 

For those of you who haven't spoken to me in the last month and 8 days you may not know I have been sick. It started out like any head cold. Making me feel like crap...starting to ease up and worsen..up and down all of this snottiness continues til I hit a really bad patch. 8 days ago I thought I was death warmed over. Though I like to feel important, it was merely some bronchitis mixed with a lovely sinusitis...intermingling in the tasty upper respiratory infection. The result was to take the horse pills they pass off as antibiotics for 10 days. I am on day 8 now...and I still feel like SHIT! I really hope this miraculously clears up in the next 2 days otherwise I may have to go back and pray there is a cure. I may have mentioned I don't care much for being sick...or maybe we have never spoken. Don't worry when I am sick I don't delete people. k, thats it...time for another horse pill

Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I hate chain crap like this "tag you're it" blog. (it's mildly annoying to force me to think about myself) 2. No matter if I am logged in or not my computer must be online at all times. I have been able to have the monitor shut off...but unless the power is out the computer is on 24/7. 3. I fall in and out of infatuation as often as I read a new book. For those of you that don't know how often I read...it's roughly between 5-18 books a month. 4. I drool on myself, my pillows, my bed, wherever I pass out. I snore very loudly too! 5. I love to spoon with my back against his stomach I don't like it the other way at all. 6. I don't believe people as often as I allow them to believe I do. I trust that they aren't attempting to hurt me or mislead me...but I totally believe the absolute worst. For example "I left my cell phone at work" Means I don't want to talk on the phone tonight. Most people I know would be lost without their cell phones, and anyone who left it behind would go back to work especially if it wasnt locked up or closed and retrieve their phone. DUH! 7. I have a ton of gray hairs...they are white so they blend in like blonde highlights only they are wiry and completely spaztastical! 8. I am highly sexual but randomly not interested in thinking about sex. 9. I am a very serious soul. Most people I work with would say I am "anal" I love being utterly ridiculous but am so OCD-ish it's insane. 10. I can and do confuse myself. (often) now who shall I torture? (compliance is optional!!) SherryMH™ Stimulus Package Me Myself AndI haha I know I cheated!

So it took a couple weeks to get over the "you make me wanna cry blues" boys are silly and I am sillier to let them bother me so! I am sick. Yucky, snotty girl...missing her daily quota of knottiness. haha! So I wanted to let you know I am alive. I am still primarily off the fu. I do miss you all so very much!! If any of you have written blogs that you think I should read please email me a link so I can go check them out when I check my mail That is the first thing I do when I sign in yanno! Ok...thats it. LOL Alana

So I signed in..and replied to all my messages in my inbox...♥ Just wanted to touch base...I am a busy worker bee and my schedule isn't giving me much time for socializing...online that is. :P On a good note..I am happy to announce there were no gifts I was asked to return LOL! I am on for just a bit longer this morning and then I don't know when I shall sign back in..but know you are always in my thoughts :) Have a happy and safe New Years everyone ♥ I will try to sign in before then but if I don't it's been said LOL!

As this year draws to its end..I am making a blog devoted to my Very Important Pals. It will take me a long time to complete..so be patient if you feel you might have been forgotten or overlooked I assure you that you will make it in there before I am done. Most of you know I am emotional..and when I open up and share my thoughts and feelings I tend to go through a bunch of energy. I care deeply for all of my friends...it is so simple for me to say thank you to each and everyone for being my friend..but I want you to know what you mean to me too. So if you check in on me..and find yourself posted...:) smile!! xoxo hugs and kisses to all!