Frayed Knot FM2 DRK's blog: "Poetic Attempts"

I made a promise I intend to keep...

even though my heart silently weeps

no single word spoken that may harm

nothing that would register an alarm

there will be nothing more from today on

not a thing more until this life is gone

the feelings are mine and forever stay

inside of me empty, safely locked away

needing no more than my mind to rest

no goodbye will be spoken as it's best

 

 

ABoudreaux2016

To see it all, to see it clear

To know what was when you were here

You said so much and all of it lies

You did indeed force me to despise

I wish I knew what was the goal

Was there a reason to create this hole

You had it all it wasn't enough

Your life was hard you had it rough

Not excuse enough to justify

The pain you create when you lie

You hate me now and that is fine

You will never again hear me whine

Or weep for what never could be

I'm happier without your misery

It makes me angry now and again

I can never trust the words of men

You taught me that humans suck

Especially those manipulative fucks

I don't wish you dead, though I could

I definitely am not wishing you good

You will only continue to hurt them all

Making them weak, making them crawl

Using your words and weaving a dream

A nightmare in which you'll make them scream 

You are not what you appear to be

They should all take a lesson from me

You are a very dangerous man

They should be running as fast as they can

But to you they flock and there they will stay

Until you are done making them pay

An untold misery they will forever regret

if they believe the version you sell on the net

Your life is a miriad of sitcoms, commercials, and blurbs

You are most definitely an abbreviated verb. 

Many kisses on your face, 

 

I would like to gently place...

 

Tell you of this love inside, 

 

irregardless of my pride...

 

knowing I am not for you, 

 

regardless of what I do...

 

I throw myself at your feet, 

 

begging for the smallest treat...

 

warning labels were ignored, 

 

foolish tactics were implored...

 

nothing though will make it so,

 

soil barren, no seed can grow...

 

there's no skill I possess, 

 

no clever words to express...

 

beseeching you to stay, 

 

perhaps there is a way...

 

to love you as I can, 

 

if only you were my man...

 

the man who beguiles me,

 

the man who inspires me...

 

but alas I know somehow,

 

there is nothing to do now...

 

nothing but to let it pass,

 

save my pride save my ass...

 

And in my mind I can see,

 

thoughts fucking imprison me...

 

you never asked for this,

 

never sought loving bliss...

 

I understand, I truly do,

 

I can't ask more of you.

 

 

 

 

A.Boudreaux 2015

 

 

Don't make love by the garden gate...

Love is blind, but the neighbor's aint't!

 

 

My daddy told me this so very long ago LOL!

A glimmer of hope

to know you care

to know you want me

to know you're there

interest it comes

and fades away

nothing changes

just the day

it seems to be

the way it goes

a vicious cycle

my heart knows

I let go

i have no hold

waiting i am

to be told

we can be friends

this is true

but wasnt my hope

when i kissed you

the hand is open

laid down by me

i cant take

more misery

the flowers bloom

refusing to die

why must this

make me cry?

 

I write these poems...these poems I write Words come and go...both day and night I pen them down...or type them out some in whispers...others I shout Feelings so real...both joyous and sad over something...I might wish I had Once they are out...my brain will rest And that for me...is what is best. A.Boudreaux 2008

Goodbye Today you said goodbye, and today I did the same. May it be that very soon, I won't recall your name. The pain I feel inside is razor sharp and raw. It would have been kinder to punch me in the jaw. Be it as it is... or even as it may... Today I said goodbye to you, forever goodbye it will stay. A.Boudreaux 2008

Lonely is this place I have built Completely entangled inside my quilt Pushing out the laughter I so enjoy Embracing the sorrows I now employ Remaining still while time moves on Dredging up memories very long gone Keeping me safe from anything new Trapping me here away from you A trick I had learned early in life With a mind as sharp as a knife Hiding here now I am once again As I withdraw a paper and pen Thoughts tumble to paper with ink Selfish tears I shed with a blink Pitying myself I will not rest But you see, at this I am the best I see myself as I was once before When shall I learn to do this no more?

If I silently love you... If I wait all alone... If tomorrow you think of me... Would you call me on the phone? If tomorrow could come now... Would you come to me? And love me forever... As I wish it to be... *this one can use tons of tweeking...but it was one I wrote while driving home tonight A.Boudreaux 2008

Shoes on the floor beside my bed Thoughts scattering in my head Missing the comfort found in your touch Confusing myself thinking too much Reaching for answers yet holding back What am I missing what do I lack? You offer me love waiting even now Just knowing that creases my brow I've pushed you away and pulled you back Somthing important not meant to attack I cannot fathom what you must feel Don't you question "is she for real?" A. Boudreaux 2008