Fubar Blog Posts 2

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There is a hole, which i cannot fill. There is an emptiness within my soul. I must reason with what I cannot kill. How do I find what I have lost? He is always racing through my mind. I cannot hide from what I have been taught. I know he is right here in front of my face. I just cannot seem to grab hold of what is clear even though he is the only one that makes me feel safe. Please help me search for some kind of peace. I'm sick of being cast upon this curse. There is only one who can put my mind at ease. How long will it take to find my true love? I must wait until I'm truly awake. I must look beyond and far above.

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A life defined by loss and pain, a heart has died slowly over time, a soul tormented then destroyed, a man who never let anyone close, made the mistake of letting it happen, what pennance is this he must pay, what crime did he commit, when will paun and anguish end, Giving of himself over and over, wanting nothing but love and tenderness, Only to be thrown aside again and again, Giving all he has and is for others, putting them before him time and again, only to be cast aside without a word, abandoned and alone for eternity, not even god listens to his please for mercy, Why is he so unlovable, undeserving and unworthy, Why has she killed his very heart and soul, why do people lie and make broken promises, Use him then throw him away like yesterdays trash, what has he done to deserve this life of torment, why has god turned such a deaf ear to his please, how can he go on when all he loved and cared for is gone?

Untill It Happens
Until we meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."

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Grace is when God gives us what we need Mercy is when God doesn't give us what we deserve Baseball, it is said, is only a game. True. And the Grand Canyon is only a hole in Arizona. If there is no Hell, a good many preachers are obtaining money under false pretenses. When I was a kid I used to pray every night for a new bicycle. Then I realized that the Lord doesn't work that way so I stole one and asked Him to forgive me. Why does everybody stand up and sing "Take Me Out to the Ballgame" when they're already there? Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, 'Where have I gone wrong?' Then a voice says to me, 'This is going to take more than one night.'. And God said, 'Let there be light' and there was light, but the Electric Company said He would have to wait until Thursday to be connected. Sure, luck means a lot in baseball. Not having a good shortstop is bad luck It took me seventeen years to get three thousand hits in baseball. I did it in one afternoon

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Every passin minute throughout the long day you wonder through my thoughts and seldom go away Sometimes you just sit there a smile on your face other times you dance and sing which sets my heart to race At times you even take my hand and we stroll along the beach other times you tease me and stay well beyond my reach All in all you're constant an ever twinkling star although by day you're hiding I know that you're not far Time and time I find you a constant running thought an ever lasting reminder of what my heart has saught

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Tears and smiles at the thought Of all the things to me you’ve brought Of how my life is forever changed A miracle for one who affections were estranged When life and love had fled the heart And nothing good could ever start And hope had gone all was doom You walked in to my souls room Feeling grew as you touch me down deep Making me yours forever to keep And filling my head with visions of you Till no one else could ever do Held in the embrace of your soul Till only you could make me whole Desire no angel to grace my life Seeking a human to share the strife One who knows how past hurts scar One perfect vision that you are And now you’re my deepest thought For love to me is what you’ve brought By R. Thomas Dinsmore

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She holds me captive with a smile Now I search all the while Seeking the one who caught my eye Beauty such to make angels sigh Flaxen hair and the perfect face Sound of her laugh made this heart race Faint of heart and fair maiden charm Did the mans defense she disarm Now I seek just one more chance The fair maiden and her glance That holds me still to this day That keeps me looking in every way For the one whose beauty true Makes the days all feel so new By R. Thomas Dinsmore

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When an angel steps in and changes fate is it for love of god or is it hate for whose to say this life is a wonder perhaps all of this is just gods blunder and we were never meant to be yet we are here we ponder mysteries that are far from clear we presume to know gods will and mind we presume too much for being so blind to live our days as if it was all for us alone and forget the lessons that history has shown what a folly is the creature that exist without a doubt our illusions do persist for with one mouth we do praise with another hell does raise and we cast our brother into fire and yet we have our own desire to rule the heavens and the earth a souls value is it all worth for what does it profit a man to gain if he looses himself into a world of pain time to define our role in the universe the show goes on and no time to rehearse By R. Thomas Dinsmore

10/29/2006 - Untitled (dedicated To My Mad Mike)
If tomorrow the sun did not shine And the world decided to end I wouldn’t be able to continue on Without you beside me If eternity lay before me With all the wonders that are promised And I had to go or be left behind I would stay behind and wait Until you were there with me There is nothing in this world Or in the great beyond That can change my love for you My need to have you by my side There is no one who can change my mind Or sway my decision to forever be the one That yearns for you, that hurts for you Whose heart aches for you when you are not near There are no wonders in this world That are greater then the ones I have come to know being here beside you And there are none more fantastic Then the ones yet to come In the years ahead The rest of our lives Seems such a short time to ask for So instead I ask for more I ask for the eternity And for the infinity And for whatever else I can get As long as it gets me my ultimate goal To h

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Do not grieve this man who passes away Instead live life each and every day For no one lives free of worldly sin And much wrong is done while in the skin And much of the lessons had to be So we could go on to eternity I prefer to think of me you may smile And maybe enjoy the thought for a while Of all the things I meant to you And of how our friendship was so true And then you will know I am at peace For when my soul this form did release Went on to wait in paradise for my friend So we could share joy without an end And know the peace of souls set free So never weep a bitter tear for me By R. Thomas Dinsmore

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Once to surrender and give into destiny Punishment of years made the rest of me A discovery or truths and so called lies Learning from the past becoming wise Growing in time to know my heart Wishing I could react my part This drama of life and of things we know Of healing the past and then letting go Of trusting in some thing yet unseen Knowledge of direction makes me keen To allowing life to take care of you all Taking care of my self having taken the fall From pain born of pride the greatest of sin An ill seed of hell that grew deep within Leading astray all who are not aware Killing the joy and bringing despair Then you walked into my life and away went most the hardship and strife and peace grows in the knowing of you till no other face could ever do and so I seek you each and every day to tell you I love you in every way and though at times we may disagree I know you still love me as I will be By R. Thomas Dinsmore

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Recklessly the melodrama that I found Twisted circus glass suppressed lips Intentions abound weigh distressed reveal Heaviness of well-earned romantic thoughts Once bold but changed cracked tones Untamed clown sours heavy recompense By voice soft laugh wounds of wine Some truths bleed quiet

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PERIODS IN LIFE OFTEN SEEM MUTED IN OPAQUE WORTHLESSNESS. WHILE FEELING MIRED IN AMBIGUITY AND UTTER CONFUSION.AMIDST MANY HOURS OF PAINFUL,LONELY REFLECTION. DEEP, REALLY DEEP WITHIN MY SOUL THAT SEEDS ARE BEING PLANTED AND NOURISHED. DURING THESE PERIODS OF CONFUSED ANXIETY, THE PATTERN REPEATS. SEEMINGLY THESE SEEDS AND ROOTS ARE GROWING DEEPER. AS THESE ROOTS GROW DEEPER THE REALIZATION OF EACH ADDITIONAL NUGGET OF TRUT AND KNOWLEDGE IS ACCOMPANNIED BY THE BURDEN OF ACTING UPON EACH GRANULE OF INSIGHT. THE SOUL CAN BE BURDENED WITH THE ANXIETY AND ENTHUSIASM OF UNDERSTANDING AND REACTING TO THESE BLOSSOMING INSIGHTS. OFTEN THESE TIMES ARE FUSED PARADOXICALLY WITH HOPEFUL ILLUSIONS AND DESPONDENT AUTHENTICITIES DAN CELTIC CHARMS

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These words from me to you, They come before your eyes, Seen and read by you, Allowing you to see me, As I am, standing before you, Warm, solid flesh and blood, Your eyes on mine, sinking deep, Reading from the very pages of my soul. Each letter bold upon this ethereal parchment, Vivid as the gilt heart upon my sleeve, Each lettered key, stroked tentatively, The letters forming these words, Emblazoned on this page, Each sentence I press and enter. They are the work of this chaotic mind, They are the expression of this impassioned heart, They are the finger's touch of this yearning soul, Words penned not with ink and quill, But with hand, heart and mind, Untouchable and floating in this static air. I would have them touch you, As I would have my hands touch your flesh, I would wish them falling from your lips, As I would have you spilling into my mouth , I would have them sink deep into you, Move you to your very depths, As I would have you move within

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I finally crawled into bed last night, late. With visions of you still in my head. Anticipation pounding in my heart. All my senses filled with your existence. As I escaped into the dream world I know so well, I took you with me. We walked down the beach together. Our hands touching and our hearts bonding through them. The wind kissing our faces gently. The sand giving way under our feet. The warmth in our hearts that only a poet would understand. Finding an oasis in the never ending edge of the world, We sit beneath the giant tree, on the patch of thick grass that seems to have been put there just for us. We talked for what seems to be hours. Never running out of things to say, feelings to share, thoughts to exchange. I reach out to touch you and you stop my hand with yours. Our fingers touch. Our hands envelop each other. Almost as though they were making love to each other. Our fingers dancing. Our eyes gazing into each others. A soft and gent

Until The Silent Stars Speak To Us Once Again...
So spirited on the last night, man gazed for a moment at his worth Seclusion formed haste, as observes looked at the ape-like man passing And man went on killing; as their crypt was ascending quick, Even the leaders fell in their lies; as truth arrived to expose the greed It was too late, the living could never be grafted, the pure could not continue The colorless places glistened, it was hell, man was strong no more. Far off in the cosmos where his opponents grinned in joy Some hissed that man was beautiful, in a human-thing like way Though a sightless forgotten beast, some wished that man would live, How hollow our capital thought, our energy, our deed so foul Deception can not repair, the unjust; if man should vanish, not our guilt Life is perpetual, value it, in genetic-- one circle, even to humanize. Constructing, admonishing, howling, loving brightest of them all, We've believed in different masters, in celestial b

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THINGS HAPPEN ALWAYS NOW TRYING FOR LIFE AND LOVE THE GREAT EXPLORATION GOES AGAIN MORE EVENTS SEE THE POWER SEE THE PAIN AND SO IT CONTINUES SEE THE WEAKNESS SEE THE STRENGTH UNCLEARLY MORE IS SEEN ALWAYS MOVING, ALWAYS CHANGING SEE THE FRUITS, SEE THE PITS BUT HERE IT IS ALWAYS ENSCONSCED BY THE CROSS OFTEN PUSHING, OFTEN PULLING THE PARADOX REMAINS LIFE AND LOVE ALWAYS FOREVER PLUS MORE DAN CELTIC CHARMS

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Splattered Blood, On the walls Never the weak survive Hold my hand, Down the hall Ready to take a dive Into the pool, Of drained blood In and out of madness If I could Kill, And I would I'd bring you out of sadness You need to die, Once or twice Again and again if you try And I try, To be nice Just to listen to you lie Never again bring on pain With games in your head Then I'm on a higher plain When I see you lie in bed Although I want, Us to work Initiative is all yours Because I don't want, You to hurt As the sweat seeps from my pores

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Sittin here with nothing to do so i thought id write you, It's more of a poem of that you can see, To let you know what you mean to me. We've become so close in so little time, You've become a very special friend of mine. We share a very special bond you see, This closeness between you and me. We've both had heartaches and pain in our life, We understand each others strife. When you need me I'll be there for you, When i need you the same is true.. written by: angel

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Violent struggles Sensless murders Unfortunate mishaps Fall through our strong girders Shall we overcome How much more can we take Infringing upon our souls taking over our fate Do we dare to proceed It is all but to late Will we ever be freed Has it been in our trait I have no choice but to try I am only but one Being somewhat to wry Having all but no fun I can't do it alone But if we come together We can now for a union And abort this tiring weather. Copyright ©2006VFC DISCLAIMER: Copyright infrigement is a serious crime- do not take my poem for your page without asking.

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Sucked deep into the void No time to be annoyed What I was has been destroyed Yet I remain the same Life happens hard and fast The dice roll once their cast Things I love aren’t meant to last Yet I can not be tame Wonder why I feel lost Was it ever worth the cost Run from love emotions tossed Yet I still wear the blame Do the fears consume the soul Is this why I can’t be whole Ask not for whom this bell does toll Yet I always feel the shame Try hard to give up the fight Try to live what is right The line blurs within my sight Yet unaware of what I became Unsure of what to do I just can’t let go of you All this is something new Yet I burn within the flame How you scare me so deep When you call me yours to keep And yet for you my heart does leap Yet I remain the same

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UNTITLED why do we cheat? why fall in love and life gets harder and we cheat? why can't we stick it out well look ill tell u this if gets harder u fall out of love tell your love one don't keep em for anyhting let them know you are not happy tell them you want out dont make them hurt cause at the end you will get hurt what goes around will come around i mean you are gonna get you lick off life and all what it involves and i will tell you this it hurts. You meet someone and grow a family you can't see your life with out them you give anyhting to keep them happy.Then someone you always wanted comes along and sweeps you off your feet for what to learn it ment nothing at all. You were lead to belive something was gonna grow something was right for what to be lead into a lie and guess what you got hurt just like you left the one u loved to belive everyhting was alright. You got hurt and now are left to tell the one who was left in suspence to belive he is and was the o

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I saw you sleeping so quietly and beautifully. And waited for you to wake up so I could hold you in my arms. But as I waited, I waited with nervousness, 'cause I found out that you was sick, so I got worried. I know you will get better, and I know that everything is going to be ok. 'Cause I'll be praying for you.

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The husband emerged from the bathroom naked and was climbing into bed when his wife complained, as usual, "I have a headache." "Perfect," her husband said. "I was just in the bathroom powdering my dick with aspirin. You can take it orally or as a suppository, it's up to you!

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This 65 year old woman is naked, jumping up and down on her bed laughing and singing. Her husband walks into the bedroom and sees her. He watches her a while then says, "You look ridiculous! What on earth do you think you're doing?" She says, "I just got my checkup and my doctor says I have breasts of an eighteen-year-old." She starts laughing and jumping again. He says, "Yeah, right. And what did he say about your 65 year-old ass?" Your name never came up..." she replied

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You don't know how much it hurts to know that you never loved me You didn't even care about me You lied to me saying that you did but you didn't I thought you were the one but you weren't that it would last for ever but it didn't and I know that you knew that I loved you but it still didn't matter You still did all those things with no reason at all no cause no matter You never cared about me and that's what hurts the most You never loved me that hurts even more than before I put my heart on the line for you you ended up throwing it on the groundvall damaged and broken My heart was fragile easily broken It hurt so much Do you know what it feels like to be in this much pain? to be broken? to be cut up inside? to cry yourself to sleep? I guess you don't so I gave you another chance I changed my mind I broke your heart It's what you deserve Its called KARMA Like you see people change And feelings fade Now do you feel my p

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I've often wished that I could show how you've pierced my heart with Cupid's bow but we've been friends for far too long for you to buy my siren's song so deep are your eyes of brown I pray to see our friendship's grown I pray to see your understanding for the love my heart's commanding On this, the feast of Valentine please say your heart feels just like mine on wings of air I look ahead towards a day with joys unsaid And then I'll know we two won't part because I've given you my heart

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At first I thought, the more and more we talked, that you could be mine. I whispered sweet words of love that dripped from my lips like nectar to fall onto the flower of your heart to bloom in beautiful colors of love. Or so I thought. In one night, that dream was shattered, the true side of love being shown, that sharp double-edged sword that rips you apart and leaves your soul to bleed. New scars crisscrossing across old scars in my heart in a kaleidoscope of bloodand pain. No more will I believe in "happily ever after" or "true love" for now that I know what love REALLY is, it's something I want no part of

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12-8-05 Untitled By: Travis Smith Never give up Never give in Live for what you love And don't look back again Confusion Frustration Happiness Sorrow Things that haunt me A fuel that fills me Eyes of forgiveness, mouth of fire There's no one to me who's finer Taking chances Taking risks When it is for love How can you miss? I'm probably a fool Each time I say "I love you" But just between me and you.. It's true

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Do you ever feel trapped within yourself, suffocated by memories? Do you ever wish, that for one second, you could live life as if heartbreak had never crossed your path? Do you ever hope that someday, you might be able to open up completely to someone, like you did once upon a time? Do you ever wish that you could erase all the pains, all the images, so you could move on without hesitation? How I yearn for those days; the days in which I didn’t have to tiptoe around people, waiting for the other shoe to drop. Waiting for the pain to start over again. I wish, I wish I wish.

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My immortal unknown trapped within my own soul kept and keen on all there is unsure of where to look. Lost. alone. unnerved. Long it has rested in a gilded cage waken by those who rattle the bars All looking for the key that would set the creature free kept within the cage itself where no one thought to look.

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Lain in bed set ablaze by the fire in my soul that moves to take over all and never let me go. The fire wrapped inside my vain speaks of words never said of anger and of fear, and a thousand thoughts inside my head. It burn me from the inside out, melting away all that is me till the anger and the hurt is all other will see. My spine turns to steal my flesh into a grave my heart incased in stone, regretting all i gave. And still your words will play upon my burning form wrapping still tight round, reminds me of lesson learned. The burning goes from night to day and everywhere in between all the time in wake or dream, blurring all i see. I would hate you if I could, them maybe it would end but we both know I cannot for them it would be my souls end. So I burn forever in anger left unsaid and will light the world till it or I are dead.

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A door opens slowly in the night Hoping the other side holds a light Walking through with a candle burning Trying to fulfill an empty yearning A soul full of shadows and pain Her heart had all been drained Nothing she hears but the cries in the dark The screaming sounds had left their mark Walking through the door without any fear She shed her last final tear

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The tears come rolling down Her voice, unable to make a sound Her wishes lost in the night Knowing that she had lost the fight Looking for a new beginning Wanting someone to just listen Not afraid to face her fear As she sheds her last tear Waking up from her moment of pain Waking up to the sound of rain Listening to the drops fall Waiting for her final call

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She is so sick of living her life as a lie Watching everyone else pass by Tells herself constantly everyday That she is happy A smile always on her face But it's her tears that she tastes Afraid to open up what is inside Because that part of her already died No where left to go No one left that she knows Sitting in the rain crying So tired of hiding The pain that she feels Is nothing but real her heart betrayed once more And again, her heart torn

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Do not stand at my grave and weep I am not there, I do not sleep I am the thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints upon the snow I am the sunlight on ripened grain And I am the gentle autumn rain When you awaken in the morning hush I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight I am the soft star that shines at night Do not stand at my grave and cry I am not there I did not die

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9-14-03 Untitled 3 By: Travis Smith I saw the world With rays of light While others saw black and white As a star I shined so bright Man, was I a sight Now as tears Fall like rain All I can feel is mostly pain While this picture Turns to gray I never wanted it this way On what was such a wonderful day

Until You Return
I bind myself to your bed with no visbale rope or chain. But with the simple knowledge, that I cannot live without your touch I can feel it haunting me. It's pressure on my spine, the tug on my hair. Nails leave rivers on white skin, these rivers I travel when you're gone. Mark my skin, I leave it to you. A calling card that I am yours. Even now I can feel you still. Inside me, real in my mind. The crule, hard, heat. Exploding into me, leave your makr on my DNA. That is why I am bound. I cannot be whole, when I am lacking. Outside I heal, Inside you're absence, make me weak. Until you return.

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NUMBNESS AND DRIED TEARS NO LONGER ABLE TO SING BETRAYED AND ABANDONED SADNESS PREVAILS IN THE DEEP LIED TO WITH HOPEFUL WORDS PAIN AND YEARNING FILL THE HEART FLOWING THRU THE VEINS WITH BITTERNESS USELESSFEELINGSPOURED OUT AND WASTED NEWNESS OF SUCH A QUICK REJECTION MANY CONFUSED THOUGHTS, HATRED,CYNICISM,CAUSTICNESS LIFE NO LONGER HOLDS MY ENERGY TIME HEALS ALL, BUT FEAR IS EVER PRESENT SHEILD THE HEART SHEILD THE PAIN DAN CELTICCHARMS

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Everywhere I look today, all I see is lovers and yes I do take pleasure in the happiness of others but of the people out there, you'd think somewhere there'd be someone out there somewhere who's meant for only me Yes I've had relationships, and from them only pain sorrow and heartbreak time and time again mostly I'm happy for the people deep in love for those who go together like a hand fits a glove but sometimes the loneliness just gets to be too much I lie awake at night dreaming of a lover's touch and sometimes it's so bad I wanna break down and cry if others can find love well then why the hell can't I? It's just not for me is the only conclusion I can come to or maybe everything people have said my whole life is true I'm ugly and I'm worthless, I won't amount to anything I'll spend the rest of my lonely days making fries at Burger King Does she even exist or can there really ever be someone out there somewhere who's meant for only me? Right now I don't think so,

Untill My Last Day
The sun rises above the hillcrest, As does the joy of my heart; Rays of warmth and love, From her I will never depart. Fresh dew upon the grass, Young birds chirp in their nests; I watch her gently sleep, My love to her I silently profess. I enjoy the stillness and calm, Watching as she smiles and dreams; She brings me to stillness and peace, Like that of a slow flowing stream. My heart and soul flow with love, And I smile as I quietly reflect; I’ve been handed a sweet princess, A sweet princess to love and to protect. A vow to myself I make, As she quietly sleeps away; To love and always cherish her, Until my last breath... until my last day

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I wrote this poem for an amazing friend who travels the world and inspires with his wisdom. He is as beautiful on the inside as he is on the out. May she rest in peace Christian. UNTITLED Something is missing. The stars in the sky... are fewer but for one. Her's was a fierce light... In the time of remembrance... How oft we forget- The mortality of the human soul, the fragility of life. Sewn together by an ancient seamstress, with nought but time in her vacant eyes... It has looked upon the young one, has embraced her, lovingly, and engaged in the eternal dance. Her hair is sunfire now... Her feet are the ocean... Engaged in a never ending waltz with the universe. She can hear you now... Her ears are the air, Her eyes are the stars... Her hands, your heart. She spreads her cosmic dust down upon us all... daring us to catch it... daring us to live if we can- O, young spirit...

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ok now here is a pome i havent had really much time to work on .. one slightly rainy night my siginfante other sent me on a errons mean while he was back at home fixing somehitng up fo rme but he knows i love suprises so thats y he sent me away well i am gone he calls me with out me saying before i speak he tells me dont speak just come home when u do be quiet and hangs up well i drive up not talking or saying anyhting i walk in the door there is flowers on the floor my fav candles or lit all over the place and the lights or dimmm and there is a big big box in the middle of the floor it has a note that says open me as i open the box to find another box there well i pick it up and open that box to find theres another box in it i am growing excited but impation wanting to know whats going on well i open it to find yet another box i open it theres a robe and blind foldes with a note that saids undress slide this on and blind fold yourself and

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I look into your eyes, search to find you gazing, for something buried, caring, longing, frightened, caged deep within me. You reach out moving closer, destroying the sadness, loneliness, fear of empty space until you embrace, shield, love me. Your touch, strong, caring, relaxing my trembling body, fragile mind. Tears roll down my face, pouring from my heart, drowning my soul is lost, destroyed, release…

Until.....
*Until I Fell In Love With You* I never dreamed one smile could fill my world with warmth and light, Until your smile made all my days so beautiful and bright. I never thought that love could be this endless, deep, and true, Until the day I gave my heart and all my love to you.

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I think of how happy we were long ago. But that was the past and I've never felt so low. You took my heart and stomped on it. The light on my path it was you who lit. I miss your love and looking into your eyes. I guess I should've realized it was all lies. We were in love or so we thought. It wasn't right even though we never fought. We kissed in the rain and danced in the moonlight. You told me you loved me and you held me tight. I still remember when your lips first brushed mine. I told you I was yours for all time.

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If i knew it would be the lat time that i'd see you fall asleep I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the lord your soul to keep. If i knew it would be the last time that i see you walk out the door,I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more. If i knew it would be the last time i'd hear your voice i would video tape each action and word so i could play them back day after day. If i knew it would be the last time i could spare an extra minute or two to stop and say "I love you" instead of assuming you would KNOW i do. If i knew it would be the last time i would be there to share your day,well I'm sure you'll have so many more,so i can let just one more slip away. For surely there is always tomorrow to make up for oversight and we always get a second chance to make everything right. There will always be another day to say our "I love you's" and certianly there's another chance to say our "anything i can do's?" But just incase i might be wrong,

Until We Meet Again
Star lit sky twinkling above can you sense the extent I miss my love? Her gentle way her voice dear to me all make my heart ache in her distant memory. Sun in the sky as you warm the day do you know my love is far away? As I think of her I can feel her touch as I ache for her I want her so much. Teardrops falling upon my cheek are you the tears of love as my passion seeks? The feel of her as though I am in her embrace as she brushes you, sweet tears of love, from my face. Oh heart of mine aching within will you know her tenderness once again? Shall she speak my name gently as before? Or is she gone from us forevermore? Dearest one so far away can you sense my love upon this day? For I have wished upon a starlit sky I have known the warmth of the sun above. Yet, they pale in the beauty of your sweet love Thus know my dearest I shall remain lost in love until we meet again my love.

Until The Day
until the day i see you.. i will be waiting... hoping, and praying. until the day i kiss you... i will be wishing... wanting,and dreaming. until the day i wake up next to you.. i will be longing... desiring, and thinking. I know how I feel, these feelings wont pass... You are a good person, and I love you for that... and until the day when my world takes a break.. when I put everything on hold, just to hug you.. then I will truly know whats this feeling means.. but not it's just... until the day.......

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Untitled .2 I'm captivated- By your intellect and depth. You are proof that love is life, And not death. Will you let me be- The chorus to your song? Will you let me be- Your shoulder to cry on? You've taken my breath. You've stolen my heart. A thief in the night Thats perfected her art. I'm lost in your eyes. You hang from my lips, Impatiently waiting, For the next time we kiss. You make me feel warm On the coldest of nights. You make me feel passion Every time that we fight. You make me feel That love can be real. But best of all, You make me feel.

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Untitled I'm sick of people giving me well wishes. "Keep going", "Have faith", or "You will get through this." How do you know? Dont act like you care. Walk in my shoes and see how you fare. You say you understand, "No really I do." But you dont and you wont, say it again and we're through. Yeah, I'm angry, I said it, I'm sick of this shit. Cant you just give me some space for a bit? Just be there with me, I'll come to you if i need, Someone to talk to, or help cause I bleed. I'm trying to protect you, dont you understand? I tell you too much and it gets out of hand. You've gained my trust, so you can hear my thoughts, But if you give me your heart, then together we're lost.

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...endless thoughts smashing through insanity that comes from you and I break my heart again my own worst best friend throwing things away nothing good to say and the days long and weary lonely and leave me feeling down kicked around and beaten. But then again I am a new man changed in better ways honesty a mainstay and I have it all that I need and now I see there is always an answer out there waiting for the right time to show you the light that you need to feed your soul and help you grow. Lets walk that Path together...

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THERE ARE MANY THINGS IN LIFE THAT CAN NOT BE EXPLAINED IN MERE WORDS. THINGS LIKE ENVY, TRUTH, LOVE AND HATE. IN THE EYES OF A LOVE STRUCK GIRL YOU CAN SEE HER SOUL BEGGING TO BE SHARED WITH THE PNE SHE ADMORES. BEING IN LOVE IS LIKE FLYING. FEELING THE WIND IN YOUR HAIR, HAVING THE FREEDOM TO GET CAUGHT ON AN UPDRAFT AND SETTLE ON A CLOUD. LIKE FALLING, THE RUSH OF ADRENALINE THAT LOVE FORCES THROUGH YOUR VEINS IS SATISFYING, HEART POUNDING AND ALMOST UNBEARABLE. YOU GET SHIVERS, YOUR FACE FLUSHES AND YOU GET BUTTERFLIES IN YOUR STOMACH EVERY TIME YOU THINK OF THE ONE YOU LOVE AND IT BRINGS A SUBTLE SMILE OF JOY AND EXCITEMENT TO YOUR LIPS. ALWAYS LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEXT CHANCE MEETING, THE NEXT KISS, THE NEXT HOT SILENCE AFTER AN ENCOUNTER. LONGING TO BE IN EACHOTHERS EYES, FOREVER DROWNING, FEELING THE WARM BREATH ON YOUR NECK FOR ALL ETERNITY. SOFT KISSES IN THE MORNING MAKE YOU WANT TO STAY IN BED FOREVER, SWEET WORDS IN YOUR EAR MAKE YOU PRAY EACH DAY TO NEVER GO DEAF AND CA

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untitled Don't try to be strong for me, I'm already weak. Don't try to fulfill the promises you made to me, It'll only make you stay longer. Stop pretending you're happy, I can see right through that act. Forget the memories that we shared, They'll only make you feel worst. Ignore my cries and my pleads, I'll calm down after awhile. Just leave me and forget me, Because I won't... Just turn around and walk away, Remember that this is for the best. At least one of us will be happy...

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Untitled I loved and lost, My trust the cost. You held me near Told me you loved me I thought I was your only one, dear. But I was blind, didn't even want to see. As you betrayed my heart, Even from the very start. Didn't take you long to find one, Whom you would tell was your moon, stars and sun. I wouldn't let that be, And blocked out my heart for eternity. All is black for me, As silent as a midwinter's eve. As you toyed with my emotions, Thinking I would actually believe, That you could rule me like the moon over the ocean. And I understand, You want to be my land, The one I run to when I'm scared, The one who chases evil with teeth bared. You want total control, With me dancing over hot coal. For your own pleasure, You simply want another treasure. You are my black moon, My darkness and eternal night, As I struggle to see, The first rays of light.

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Untitled You gave me back my torn up heart And walked straight out my door I can't believe you used to say It was I you most adored I was naive, I know that now To think you really cared And wiht the slamming of the door My secrets all were bared I never thought you'd be as cruel To rip my heart in two And now you've goine and left me Not knowing what to do I miss your goodnite kisses Your arms, sow arm and safe Your eyes, your hands, your smile Your lingering embrace The way you used to stroke my hair Or gently take my hand You'd treat me like a princess Obeying my every command I pray you'll come back to me I know she'll break your heart I'll help you mend hte pieces She'll have torn apart You'll soon know what I've been through You'll realize your wrongs I really, really miss you I haven't seen you in so long I know the time is nearing Soon you'll walk back through my door How many times I've wished That I could see you just once mo

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9-14-03 Untitled 4 By: Travis Smith If words could kill They did me today As my world with her Came to an end I used to say "I Love You" But it didn't mean anything At least to her anyway If actions were predictable I could've stopped it This time was undetected Like a knife to my heart All that's left for me Is a my broken little heart And what's left Of a dismembered man One who was full at the start Until it was her Who broke my heart

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9-14-03 Untitled 5 By: Travis Smith For all good things shall pass But for me it kicked my ass As I stat there quite and stale She told me "I wasn't there" As I thought this whole thing through I knew I couldn't be with you And as I tried so I failed Now it's time to tell the tale

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9-14-03 Untitled 6 By: Travis Smith So I sit here all alone like a dog In its pen who was told it couldn't be seen again Trying to recall my past only To have lost it at last in my shame I no longer feel pain My head is split while my feet are dry Why is it that I have to cry? I will never know exactly why

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I feel, Signs of this cancer coming on. Waking up in a pool of sweat. Wondering if you’re still next to me. My heart leaks, Rivers of lust begin to pour from me. Wanting nothing more than to have you Out of my head and under my sheets. My mind, Is filled from your disease. I’m weak in the knees and with one touch, I fall. For you. Again and again. I fear, Proof that this cancer is on its way. It’s taking a hold of me. With the words on the tip of my tongue I can’t deny the attention. I will, Pray that you see how much I care. When you see me lying there, How can you think otherwise? I know, That you’ve been hurt so many times before. I can ease the pain with words. The ones you’ve heard them say but never meant. Well I do. I feel, Signs of this illness seeping through. Believe me dear I mean what I do. Just trust your heart, It’s trying to heal too.

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I'm trying to find the reason, Why this world's so cold. The mask I throw on daily, Is beginning to grow old. I've hid my face for far too long, I fear it might be lost. I want to end the sadness, No matter what the cost. I'm hanging by a single thread, Should I cut the strand? Would my pain finally end, If my death came from my hands? Would it be a help at all, Or counted as a loss? My head spins til it comes undone, My brain's forever tossed. So I crawl back in my hole, Never more to roam. Waiting for someone to love, To come and take me home.

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those eyes tell no lies that smile gose on for miles that mouth with the sound of the south those ears that have listened for years those hands worn and weary like the sands that heart tells me we should never be apart

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Blissfull Sleeping, Joyous Leaping, Loves in season, and I'm fiending. I'm ready to elope, so what's the scope? I'll say yes at best, but she sez nope. Dang you cuss, where is your trust? What's happened to us? that's enough. Its enough to make you say whats the use. then she wears a skirt, and we're back to work. Kisses on lips, touching of fingertips You'll miss the lovemaking only if you dip. Lintuous touch, lust corrupts Its more i'll fuss, incredible stuff. Check yourself, you'll wreck yourself,. you tryin to get me, but you'll get yourself.. I'm a romance pusher.yeah boy she's a looker. you know she's a hooker, like Chuckie Booker. Oh? How would I know? You can ask Joe. If you got that cash she can make it last. Even myself, I had to rise above her I had to cut her, and run for some cover. She told me she loved me, but when it was over I peeked over my shoulder, her smile grew colder thus grew her fame, a lustful game everything to lose, nothing to gain.

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"Untitled" by: blingbling bunny My soul spills into bloody tears of joy, just looking upon you, your eyes so deep, our love so true, i wish i could hold your heart till the end of death and beyond, in the dark eternity mist, but forever is a long time, even then my you shall have my will in your fist, you say you will never leave, yet i still worry, that time will betray us, and this love will turn to furry, but i love every side of you, even the madness, so i will try to keep it away, and drive away the sadness, eternity is a long time away, so i will hold you now, and if forever comes, you will be there to show me how, we can overcome the "good" together as one, always apart of the wickedness, until finality is done, so as destiny unfurls, and this passion burns, you will be in me, as the dimension turns, it cannot be broken, not even by the one(s) above, it will never end, our wicked burning love.

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"Untitled" Her lies of smiles and blankets on tears Every emotion she shaddows to hides Covering her sadness and all her fears No one knows the torture she feels inside Shes losing all hope on the life she knew A life full of happiness and laughter Forgetting after all shes been through Not wanting to see what will come after She hides herself behind a fake smile Slowly shes fading away in her mind And no one noticed after a while Looking for hope she wants so much to find Her lies of smiles and blankets on tears Covering her sadness and all her fears By: Helena

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I don't think I'll recover I don't think I'll return You took my heart, broke it in two Then made me watch it burn I'm really on my own now I feel so all alone I get that sinking feeling I won't be coming home

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Bees in the caramel and I'm not afraid Surgeons make incisions What a mess they've made Tearing at my skin leaving knives in my brain Stabbing at the voices making me insane Girls vomit candy and lies that they're fed. Boys whisper lullabies and wet their beds Eat TV violence on the toast that they spread Talking with their mouths full here is what they've said.

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It's too hot in the store and I want to roll up my sleeves, but the gashes on my arm are in straight lines, glaringly obvious to anyone who 'went through that phase' already. Clearly I did not fall down any stairs to get these scabbed over little trenches

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My eyes long to see you Now you behold Him My arms ache for you Now you know perfect love My ears yearn for your voice Now you sing His praises. I desire to feed you Now you will never know hunger. I anticipated the pitter-patter of your feet Now you play at His pierced ones. I dreamed of years of love and laughter Now you will never know pain. I longed to watch you grow and develop Now you are perfect. This isn't how I planned but I know He loves you and me. By Monique Stam

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untitled It is a night of dark desire, a song of darkness, wolves vent their howls. The dark one stirs. Curling, icy wisps of death shrouds her pale form, an eternal desire. Her raven hair cascades over pale and delicate shoulders, and her full crimson lips part slightly, to taste the red tears streaming from the pale flesh beneath her. Now a night of shared vitality, I awaken.

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Untitled Slender beams of illumination enter this darkened prison as I kneel, always a slave, always despairing, frozen here, waiting. Accusing forms wrought in panes of glass loom as dust dances in the air, forming an image in my mind, searing my naked soul. A reflection on my face. I raise my head, now defying this uncaring truth.

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There is light in you that no one sees.. Because its been shattered and hidden by misery.. They state that misery does not ajoined well with company.. but when look you will see that individual that brings out the light that you no longer see.. I have been there and live there in the darkest part of my soul trying to take away the one thing that I hold.. I held my life in my hands and wondered the streets lost and confused hoping and wishing that my life would end here.. Still to this day I sometimes say lord please take me far far away.. My heart is scorned and bursied and can’t take no more.. I have been through the paths of hell one to many times.. I wonder sometimes when I’m going to die.. I even felt at times that there was no one to love me cause I live in misery.. Depression is a bitch and can kill you softly.. can have you in tears that never disappear.. It makes you feel like your useless.. If you have ever walked a path in the shadow of darkness you know it’s a lonely p

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I hear your voice carried on the breeze Silent sweet melody puts me at ease Listening to the spirit that calls from within Wondering if love is ever a sin Now that I have found you no other can be I am so lost in you your all I can see You fill me and are that missing peace You’re the only one who can this soul release I soar upon clouds at the sound of your voice I seek you out for I have no other choice I am drawn to you as a moth to the flame I live for the melody of your sweet name I feel you I think you inside my skin There is a joining beyond flesh’s sin You are that one I sought through all time The rapture of love living ever sublime Perfection in all that I ever had dreamed The one I would kill for and die if so deemed The hand of god is seen in the working of things I will wait another life time and accept all it brings For I will never be whole till I hold you near My muse and mentor the one I hold dear By R. Thomas Dinsmore

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I love it when you smile, I love it when you shine, I also loved it when you told me everything will be just fine. You were there when I cried, You were there when I was down, You made me smile so I wouldn't have a frown! I miss you so much, Thinking about the good times we had, All those memories made me kind of sad. I know you will always be here, I know I wont be able to see you, But I will always remember your love for me was true! I love you so, Now you're not in pain to be, You are now in heaven safe and free. From the day I was given life you were there, If I was still hungry, from your food you shared. You were always there for me like my mother, And we spent so much time together every summer. Playing dominoes and playing cards, Life without you would have been so hard. I still imagine you blue-gray eyes in front of me, I miss you so much, for this I weep, And I've cried so much sometimes I still can't sleep. Your

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I gave you the choice If you wanted to get back together I gave up my voice And my freedom for you forever It has taken several days And I'm getting nervous It's only your way I'm always at your service Only break me once I can't handle too much pain Not another ounce Or I'll go insane I have given up On trying for someone who doesn't love me Enough is enough Just let me go free I'm tired of getting killed I'm tired of getting of getting hurt I'll be left distilled And be treated like dirt I'm here to wait And slowly dying Must this be my fate? As I continue crying? I'm bleeding within I was stabbed in the heart As tears fall on my skin And I'm slowly fall apart What is this feeling? My heart is racing My conscience is peeling As I am embracing The dark side of life And the lost and dark soul In my heart is knife Was That your goal? My heart has been ruined forever I was completely shattered I try not to think of our chances of being together I ne

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A tear drop rolls down my check Im so hurt I cant even speak I knew this day would come in time Someone else already calls you mine I met you just a little too late I think to myself, why did I wait Silence falls deep in my room No light is shinning not even the moon My eyes are open with a blank stare on my face Why do I have to be here at this time in this place Its not your fault, its only mine I just fell so hard this time You understand what I mean and how I feel I dont want this to be a big deal I let myself down just once more If I had the money, Id be knocking on your door I cant do for you the same things she does Theres not rhyme or reason, its just because I do feel it inside, that this is right But my heart and my mind are in a big fight I think its right but you know its not I dont want to change any of your thoughts What you have is good, but not the best right now She could be the one with whom you exchange vows I dont want

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Our hearts are tightly bounded together I hope we can tie the knot forever. I honestly thought I’d find you never. Now I know we won’t be apart My heart has been stolen by you Hurt me not; I know you will. In my heart you’ll have a place always, I have a feeling we’re meant to be. In my life, you’ll always be in Your kisses blow me away, oh my Forever you’ll have my heart

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These cuts become scars upon my soul, Inside I know I can’t take much more. Slice me open inside out Leave me here to bleed about. I’m stuck here in a cage, Sunk to my knees in a fit of rage. These wires sink into my flesh, I know with pain I’ve been blessed. The eyes, they stare, inside out I wonder what it’s about. Everything’s wrong with me, nothing’s fine Please let our hearts untwine.

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1. At least two people in this world love you so much they would die for you. 2. At least fifteen people in this world love you in some way. 3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. 4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don’t like you. 5. Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep. 6. You mean the world to someone. 7. If not for you, someoen may not be living. 8. You are special and unique. 9. Someone that you don’t even know exists loves you. 10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. 11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world. 12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won’t get it, but if you believe in you

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A girl asks her boyfriend to come over Friday night and have dinner with her parents. Since this is such a big event, the girl announces to her boyfriend that after dinner, she would like to go out and make love for the first time. Well, the boy is ecstatic, but he has never had sex before. He takes a trip to the pharmacist to get some condoms. The pharmacist helps the boy for about an hour. He tells the boy everything there is to know about condoms and sex. At the register, the pharmacist asks the boy how many condoms he’d like to buy: a 3-pack, 10-pack, or a family pack. The boy insists on the family pack because he thinks he will be rather busy, it being his first time and all. That night, the bow shows up at the girl’s parents’ house and meets his girlfriend at the door. “Oh, I’m so excited for you to meet my parents. Come on in!” The boy goes inside and is taken to the dinner table where the girl’s parents are seated. The boy quickly offers to say g

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Salty memories encased in tears I’ve succumb to pain over the years. My blade has never left my side The voice of my mom I do abide. My blade has sliced only at night The blood seeping out causes no fright. I watch it trickle down my arm I cause myself the most internal harm.

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Bloody memories and salty tears, Encasing all my inner fears. My heart is frozen, my lips are shut, Within my soult here is a cut. You used a knife to place it there. To see your face I cannot bear.

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Love is a razor, used to cut the soul My life has never seemed full. Broken and battered I lay in dust, Staying alive isn’t a must. Life is torture as you see, I lay crying on bended knee. While you were here, life was great Once you left I became live bait. Attacked bya nyone and everyone near I have nothing left in life to fear. I’m not afraid of when I die Happiness is a thing money can’t buy. Love me not for who I am, Kiss goodbye what you can.

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Thoughts of you haunt my dreams, paralyzing me with shattered screams. Days go by and time drags on, I still can’t believe how long you’ve been gone. Time goes on and still you’re there, Oh how I know life’s not fair. You were here and life was great, Once you left I became live bait. Left open for anyone at all, All they had to do was call. I’d come running, oh yes I would, Trying to do all I could. I’d calm and comfort, sooth and ease, The pain that brought them to their knees. They’d weep then stare, Wondering why the hell they called me there. They’d stiffen up with rage and fear, Wondering why they kept me near. I walk away from with you with a faked ease Ashamed to fall to my knees. My eyes fill with pain enduced tears Long held-in, distant fears I sit and cry, wondering why Suicide Kisses I must defy.

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All these memories race through my head, Eerie whispers of what’s been said. The past lives on inside of me, Late at night I feel so free. Soaring among faithless dreams The sunc asting magnificent beams. Early in the morning when I wake, Reality gives me a violent shake. I quake and tremble within its grasp, Wishing away my present past. The grip is tight, it won’t let go Watching me struggle is its show. The indignation boils inside of me, Stirring thoughts that shouldn’t be. I’ll face the day apprehensively, I’ll treat myself belligerently. The past, it cries to me Become what you used to be. Scared and hurt, hard to trust, This is my place, remain I must.

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Haunting thoughts race through my head, eerire whispers of what you’ve said. I can’t go on anymore, all this pain I failed to bore. It breaks my heart to let you go, I never want to be your foe. I care for you, yes I do, I cannot let my feelings brew. I hate these thoughts of goodbye, I wave to your picture as I cry. A simple cut, so deep and cleam, trailing out an ample blood stream. The blood, it flows, red and accusing, it’s never felt so abusing. In the past scars have formed, I’m full of them; I’m so afraid this is the end. I’m afraid my time has come, you’ll never see why I’m done. My life is torture as you see, I’ve never been free to just be me. I open my eyes I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light I wish I may, I wish I might, wish away my simple life.

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Parents, friends, enemies, too, Always telling me what to do. I’ve been down this road before, I never did ask for more. Broken and battered, I watch everything pass me by. I no longer can hold my head high. Your words cut like a razor blade, I’m not the person you wish I made. This is me, who I am. I won’t let anyone take that again. Love me not for what I’m not, Don’t pretend like you forgot. Love me please for who I am, Or I’m afraid I’ll never speak to you again.

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Used and abused once again Time to turn from friend to friend Looking for somewhere to turn, Someone to burn. I’ve lost my faith, you took it all, You left me here with nothing at all. Soul in soul, heart in heart, we’ll be friends ‘til we part” you’ve told me with a broken heart. Now you’re gone, I’m alone and cold, Desperately trying to open this fold. Come back to me, I beg of you, Let me show my point of view. I want to be the one you love, the only one you’re dreaming of. I want to be the one that’s there. I’m alone and cold, waiting againf or a you that never comes. It’s dark and cold and you’re still gone, I guess it’s time to move me on. Another day, another life, I’ll meet you in the after-life.

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All these memories race through my head, Eerie whispers of what’s been said. The past lives on inside of me, Late at night I feel so free. Soaring among faithless dreams, The sun casting magnicifcent beams. Early in the morning I awake, Realtiy giving me a violent shake.

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I sit and think upon my life gone by, Thinking back when I wanted to die. Consumed with guilt, grief, and fear, Constantly hiding my every tear. I can’t believe, once that was me You always heard my every plea. You’d come running, oh yes you would Trying to do all you could. Years of comfort within your arms Safe from everyone’s battering harms.

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Crimson tears slide down my cheeks, regret they lack, Of those morning I want to go back. I’d take her pain and keep it close So much more than I can say for most. She slipped in it with an Angel’s ease, The seizures took her to her knees. She bucked and kicked upon the floor, I hope this pain she sees no more. Memories haunt her seizing thought, Of her rapes I hope she forgot. I went through it long ago, The image’s stick like a memory slide show. They pass along before my eyes, Over it, I’ve had a million cries.

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Some say ‘love’ is the best thing that’s ever happened to them in their life time. Some say ‘love’ is the worst thing that’s ever happened to them. I think love is a little of both. But to me, love is something God put on this Earth to help people live a ‘happy’ life. There is many different kinds of ‘love’. There is love as in a parent loves their kids and the kids love the parent. There is the always the sibling love. A relationship love. A friendship love. A love of a hobby.

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I want to cut, I want to die, I want my corner so I can cry. Slice my wrist and ease my pain, I see nothing in life to gain. Pull my close and hold me near, Wipe away my every tear. Soothe me with your loving voice, Please block out my internal noise. Please keep my comforted, keep my calm, Please protect me with your arms.

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A million words dance through my head Ghosts revealing what I’ve left unsaid. A light breeze wafts through the air Inside I wonder why you care. Is it my smile? My looks? My charm? These things I used; I myself brought the harm. I broke myself down and threw me away, For my wall I have to pay. Your voice, it echoes in my head. It’s a wonder that I’m not dead. Sleepless nights and haunting dreams Inside my head echoes the screams. They’re trapped from within and can’t get out, Won’t I help them cease the soul drought? My soul got lost within this mess Without it, my wounds I cannot dress. I feel so lost and empty now, To fix myself, I don’t know how. My simple fix comes with a cut, Still, no relief from despair in my gut. I shake and tremble with every scar, To be the best, I’m not up to par.

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I sit here in the morn’, not knowing what to do. So I think I’ll sit, and write a love poem to you. You know how much I love you? You know how much I care? Whenever you need a helping hand with that hard raging boner, I’ll be there. I’ll be the one to ease the cum out of your hardened dick, I swear when I do it I won’t be a hick. I’ll be the one to caress your parts until they feel all soft Next time can we please not fuck in the neighbor’s loft? I’ll be the one to lay you downa nd whisper, “I wanna fuck you” You’ll look up with a huge ass grin, and say, “I wanna fuck you, too!” So off fly our clothes until we’re both naked, The built up cum raging strong just like we’ve always hated. You insert him with a giggle of glee, His head pops in and he’s looking at me. Doing an inspection inside out, I’m glad he’s too big to go round about. You take him out and pla

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To love and cherish forever more, This happiness has reached my core. He took my hand and kept me close, He’s the one who protects me most. To look in his eyes and say goodbye, It was hard, I’ll admit I cried. To let go of the one I held on to, Was the hardest thing I’ve had to do. Watch him walk away alone, Of his touch I do mourn. Knowing he’s fine, that he’s okay, I use it to keep my fears at bay. Late at night I’m by myself, The voice in my head demanding “help yourself!” I clutch his shirt and hold on tight Out of the night it chases my fright. He is my one true love, The only one I have dreamed of. He’s perfect in every which way, For me he keeps his anger away.

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I want to cut, I want to die I have no time to wonder why. Bloody cuts caress my wrist, Holding my knife is such bliss. Remove me from this simple life I’m on my knees, ready to rid me of my strife.

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I’m not the best girlfriend I know that for sure, For me I wish there was a cure. Pretty and perfect, that’d be me For you I’d be all I could be. Keep you happy with a smile on your face I’d be able to get off my case. It’d be okay, everything’d be fine, As a couple we could shine. If I had my way, forever we’d be, I truly believe you’re the one for me.

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Bloody cuts upon my wrist, Something inside me feels amiss. Look in the mirror and stare back at me, Run away and let me be. Hide me from myself with ease, This fear that has got me on my knees. Torn apart inside out, I’m left to wonder what life’s about. Daggered words and bloody hearts, Inside my heart’s falling apart. Pick me up piece by piece, Above Hell’s door rests a wreath. It welcomes me home with wide open arms, I’m held together with pieces of yarn. Fall apart at your feet, I know these requirments I’ll never keep.

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Changes come and changes go But there’s always one thing that I’ll know. I’ve hid in shame and regret today For a stupid mistake I made yesterday. I’ve broken a promise, a long-held deal, The pain on my wrist I shall conceal.

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Cut my wrist and smile the pain away, I really don’t want to see another fucking day. Tear me apart with immeasurable glee, My life is something I try to flee. Run away and hide myself, These simple kisses increase my health. Say goodbye to this life with ease, Die with the pain that has me on my knees.

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Endless nights and hellish days, leaving me within a haze. My river of tears has just begin, watch me end this world’s fun. I’m on the inside looking out, trying to figure all this out. You’re left out looking in, catch my tears from within. Confusion haunts my every thought, leaving me wishing I forgot. The paina nd torment will never leave, leaving me wanting not to believe. Your lies have killed me inside out, what’d you think I was about? Fairy tale endings conclude with Prince Charming, all those tales send me arming. I arm myself with a learned ease, the pain that brings me to my knees. My world has shattered twice in two, I know not what to do. I loved you once, I loved you twice, this final time had made it thrice, my empty heart will have to suffice. Empty lies and promises of nothing, my only answer seems to be cutting. The pain devoures me inside out, I hate wondering what you’re

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Be myself? All the teasing, pain, and hurtful words? I can’t. I don’t want to go there. But I wonder… Is there good things that come? Sucha s good friends. I don’t have anyone to talk to. I can’t get help. I wish I could. It will take time to become my old-self again. I might have to take a chance. I’m going to be my old self. One piece of advice: BE YOURSELF!

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Sarah picked the picture of her and her mom off her dresser. Tears threatened to spill over her Cheeks the instant she touched it. Floods of memories instantly started washing over her. Sarah Closed her eyes tightly and mentally shut the memories out. The last thing she needed was Memories holding her back. She had waited too long to stop now.

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If I could turn back the hands of time, maybe I wouldn’t be who I am today. Maybe I wouldn’t even be alive right now. I could be “six feet under the fucking ground where you don’t belong”. Maybe I wouldn’t have the friends I do. I know one thing is for sure ---- I wouldn’t have made it without you. Whenever I needed a hand to hold, a shoulder to cry on, arms to be held in, an ear to listen, a mouth to reassure… You were always there.

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To the world, you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 5/4 of all people don’t understand fractions. We are all an angel with one wing. In order to fly, we must lift each other up. If you want to change the world, start with yourself. Your head understands what your heart cannot yet conceive; trust your head. The dead past haunts the living soul.

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Times have changed and I ain’t the same. I was told all lies; it hurts so bad ‘cause it’s gone on for so long. All I wanted was to be with you forever, but we’ve always been so far apart, always with reach but never called upon. I’ve seen your face a million times; I still don’t care about my emotions being set ablaze.

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Something gone You withdraw I’m not strong like I was before. I was deep inside of you. I can’t go anywhere. I burn candles and stare at ghosts deep inside of you. And some great need in me starts to bleed I’ve lost myself There’s nothing left It’s all gone --- Deep inside of you

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Just a voice echoing in the purple majestic moutains With pride…and sorrow. Echoing softly, yet loudly Loud enough for people to hear me Quiet enough so I don’t yell at them when they are there for me. Echoing in the distance to help guide me Echoing, Echoing. Echoing off the mountains I love so much, but getting shit dealt back in my face. But that’s all right. I’ve got my true friends to help me build a shield Always in time when shit hits I can block its path, sending it off course and into the past It won’t bother anyone Echoing in the ears of those who want to hear Echoing in the ears of tmy friends – my TRUE friends Those who stood by me through it all --- Thick and thin.

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I reach out for another hole to secure my grip To pul myself through the troubles To pull myself through the pain. As I reach out, I slip and I fall. You are there, holding me. Pushing me back up where I was. I can’t do this, I think, but ohh I can. I can do it. I grasp the hand hole again, my palms sweaty Full of sweat from wonder what will happen – the uncertainity I wipe my forehead and look back down You smile up and me with that angel face of yours. I know you are there I know I can trust you. You firmly hold me up I do not have a harness, nor do I need one ‘Cause I know you’ll always right there Always behind me.

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The story-teller sat cross-legged in front of a small crowd of about anywhere from ten to fifteen People. The crowd got about five more people on average of anywhere from five to ten minutes. The Story was being told in a small village called Shina-Kinsfolk, or what we call Kinshasa now. Shina- Kinsfolk spoke a language called Blakish, or what is now called Spanish. Shina-Kinsfolk were waiting Go to a bigger town. But what the people didn’t realize was the other parts of the world were Across huge bodies of water. Now once the God the people called Gitch-Maya overheard this. “You Fools!” he bellowed.

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Times have changed and I ain’t the same, I was told all lies and it hurts so bad ‘cause it’s gone on for so long. All I wanted was to be with you forever, But we’ve always been so far apart, always within reach but never called upon. I’ve seen your face a million times, I still don’t care about my emotions being set ablaze. The day you left is a day I’ll never forget. I crawled in bed and cried myself to sleep. The pain you left me with left me swearing I wouldn’t make it through alive. Yet here I am, alive as ever. I wish I was dead, the pain I cannot bear. Nothing I can do can erase the pain, so now I feel I must turn to my blade. All my release comes in the form of a few simple cuts. The blood runs down my wrist freely, and I make no attempt to stop it. The blood brings relief, and with relief comes comfort.

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A lent hand and a quiet heart, My guiding light within the dark. Though sorrow, pain, and great need, You never sat on the sideline to watch me bleed. You saw in me what she’ll never see, Part of my past, you set me free. Part of the family – you’ve always been, You saw my smiles that were thin. Today with you, our life begins, The talks we’ve had with stay with me. Part of me --- You’ll always be.

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You tell me you love me, so scared to believe, So many times I’ve heard it, so many times they leave. You tell me you love me, and I love you, too. But I can’t say it to you even though I really do. You tell me you love me, I finally say it back, A smile trails on your face You told me you love me. Although I’m still scared because you may still leave.

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I’ve had some trouble with love in the past, Endlessly worrying if it would last. Until I met you, I never believed in love, faith, or serendipity. And though I’m still scared I must admit, Looking into your eyes makes me want to commit. Your smile seems to beg me to say what’s on my mind, That I want you to be mine. But it’s really your heart that’s shown me the light, To believe in fate and love at first sight. And even though I know how hard it must be to fall in love with a girl like me, Stick around and baby, you’ll see. Just how good true love can be.

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Alone in the dark I sit and wait, I glare at the world as they determine my fate. Eyes that are clouded with bloody tears, All my fears of yesteryears. The pain and torment won’t let me be, With this cut I’ll feel so free. I’ll take the blade against my skin, The pain of cutting will now begin. The blade will slice layer by layer, I’ll close my eyes and say a silent prayer. I’ll push the blade a little deeper, I’ll shield my eyes from the keeper. I’m trapped in looking out, Someone tell me what this world’s about. I hate myself for what I am, I fear I’ve done all I can. I’ll close my eyes and slip away, My torment no longer can I keep at bay. I’ll bury myself alive in guilt, A river of tears I have spilt. Afar you are as you glare at me, I hope your spirit shall let me be.

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Minutes go by and days drag on, I still can’t believe how long you’ve been gone. There was no warning, I hate thinking about that dreadful morning. We had it all and there’s nothing left, You took it all with you in your very last breath. I want you back, I really do, I hate sitting here while my feelings brew. Why you did it, I’ll never know, None of us think it was your time to go. Encasing thoughts surround my head, Leaving me wishing I was dead. The pain and torment will never leave, I can’t believe I’ve been so naive. You said you cared, You promised you’d always be there. You left me to drown in my despair. You tried to say all the things you can’t undo, I know one thing, this is true, Never again will I love you.

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You’re like the blade and I’m the mere paper, I wish these feelings would all just taper. You cut through me with your laughs and your lies, I wonder if it’s all just a guise. I sit and cry and wonder why, Suicide kisses I must defy.

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I’ve torn my heart open, I’ve sewn myself shut, My weakness is I can’t do much. I feel so alone, so grave and bear, I’ll pay my fee for being me. These scars will stick, they’ll never heal, I tear my heart open just to feel. I’ve been damned from the start, Please don’t toy with my broken heart. I’ve lost it all once before, All the pain I’ve had to bore. My spirit’s sunk, my life is drained, I’m tired of playing this stupid game. I’ll end it now and be done, I’m sick of giving you all your fun. You take pride in my hurt, you take joy in my sorrow. Take this gun, let’s play your game, Shoot me now. End my pain.

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Broken smiles and faked truths, My hope is bleeding, seeping through my clenched jaw with the ash of my thoughts. Crimson regret rains down upon the Earth, coating everything within crimson lies and faithless nights, stealing the fragment of hope I had left, Forever scarring what was left of me.

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Sitting here alone at night, listening to my parents fight. Haunting thoughts race through my head, ghosts revealing what’s been said. My fear haunts my dreams, all I hear are paralyzing screams. Eyes are watching me in the dark, waiting for me to embark. I’ll wish it all away, take away my dismay. You’ll never understand exactly where I stand, go away and leave me be, This is my very last plea. I’ll end it here with a single tear, as I wish to disappear. I’m bleeding crimson regret and betrayal, This is my fake portrayal. I’ll go on in the winds, I’ll be in the back of all your minds. Let me go here and now, you’ll always have me disavowed. I’ll be back, haunting your dreams, enjoy every single of your shattered screams. What you’ve done to me will never let you go with glee. You’ll have no remorse if you continue on that life course. What does it matter, my heart was so easy to shatter

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You walked into in my life as if on cue, I wish I knew how to thank you. You took my hand and held me close, It’s so much more than I can say for most. I came to you broken and battered, You responded with a simple smile, murming to me the past’ll never matter. You’ve got me now and it’s all okay, No one will I have to obey. You calmed my fears and erased my tears, Never again will I turn to those years. Our time together didn’t last, You’re now a memory of my past. I thank you still for what you did, You never treated me like a kid. I’m afraid this is goodbye, Please turn away, don’t watch me cry.

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Haunting thoughts race through my head, Ghosts whispering what was never said. Thoughts come and memories go, Like footprints left in a new fallen snow. My dreams are shattered, I always felt like I never mattered. You took it all, there’s nothing left, As I now take my very last breath. I wave goodbye to the world with ease, My heart’s been stung by a thousand bees. These wounds won’t heal, they’ll leave a scar, I’ll never be a television star. I’m leaving it all behind me now, I’ll never see your puzzled brow. Please don’t worry, I’ll be fine, I won’t be standing on the waiting line.

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Always near, never far apart, That’s where you’ll be, always in my heart. A helping hand, a quiet heart that hears the simple words cried out in the dark. Arms always open, mouth always closed, I know you’ll be there even when time goes. You’ve always been there, that I can’t deny, I want to be with you forever, Until the day I die. So take my hand, hold me close, And never let me go. Remember I’m your girl, you’re my man, Nothing has to go. It’s us forever, always you and I, Always near, never far apart, Lovers ‘til we die.

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Icy daggers pierce through my heart, I’m torn inside out wondering what it’s about. A single tear slips down my cheek, All these memories I will not keep. I’m frozen in fear, unable to move, In my life this pain won’t improve. Slice this blade across my wrist, Slip into a painless bliss. The blood’ll drip down my hand, It shall stain this thirsty land. A peaceful quiet passes over us all, Now that I’m gone you won’t see me fall.

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With the pain that is in my heart as I try not to fall apart.. I once again made the mistake and started to love again.. What was I thinking that it will all work out that all that matters is what is in your heart.. Haaaa I say its all a mystery in so many ways.. Does everyone deserve to be loved?? Or is love like a precious dove.. Things come and things go and once you notice your all alone.. But this time its different and brought me to light.. That I will not longer put up fights.. I will resend and back away yet once again.. Love is no longer on its way.. It cause to much pain and misery.. Leaving me bleeding internally. For once I realize its time for me to stand alone and stay alone as no one can comperhend me until I grow old.. For over 10 years I have waited for that special someone.. But all I got was a bunch of dum ones.. Wasted 7 1/2 years of my life trying to hold on to what was the love of my life.. Haaa I say as he cheated on me day after day.. Was I an idiot to

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Not a cloud in the sky, A tear in my eye, No time wasted, Every kiss tasted, Better then the last. Then there was a Big rain cloud, One I couldn't see The stars through. You were falling away From me, faster then I Even knew. A long year of nothing But rain and storms Surrounding my Heart A clouded form A distant something Of what use to be your face But now you mean Nothing. And forever that Will stay Because as of now I will loathe you..... Until my dying day.

Untill Then.....
Until we meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."

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I've lived fifteen years, hoping to meet someone like you. Now that I have, I'm not sure what to do. You're everything I want, everything I love. You must be an angel, sent from above. Sometimes I think, that this can't be. I'm not good enough, for I'm just me. You bring light to my life, and a smile to my face. It's not my heart, you'll have to chase. You're on my mind, when I'm awake. My soul is yours, just to take. Don't tell me to let go, you're the one. Let's be together, until our lives are done.

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You've been there for it all Even though at first youwere with her You were still there for me In a weird way Then we both were single They all wanted us to get together And I really liked you Gave you my number You started coming around more Finally we hooked up You didn't care I had a lil one Instead you love her Treat her as if you were her daddy And me like a princess They all knew it would happen Before we even thought about it Seems almost meant to be For us to be together And for ust to be by each others sides They knew it before we even thought of it!

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MY MIND ACHES IN WONDER MY EYES IN AWE OF SUCH BEAUTY MY HEART FLUTTERS WITH SUCH COMPLETENESS MY SOUL REACHES OUT TO SUCH A LIGHT I STUTTER, WITH AMAZEMENT OF A CREATION SO PURE STRIVING,PULLING PUSHING TO GROW TO SUCH DEPTHS A HUMBLE SOUL SEACHING FOR THAT ONENESS SEEKING THE PEACE AMIDST THE ROAR OF LIFE SEARCHING FOR THE OPEN SPACE I SEEK A SPACE TO SHARE IN THE BLISS OF A LOVE A LOVE SO WIDE IT HAS NO END

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I open my eyes I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light I can’t remember how I can’t remember why I’m lying here tonight And I can’t stand the pain And I can’t make it go away No I can’t stand the pain How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I’ve got no where to run The night goes on As I’m fading away I’m sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me Everybody’s screaming I try to make a sound but no one hears me I’m slipping off the edge I’m hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered And I can’t explain what happened And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done No I can’t How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I’ve got no where to run The night goes on As I’m fading away I’m sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I’ve got no where to run The night goes on As I’m fading away I’m sick of this li

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things have been said things have been promised lives have been changed souls grew as one something noone had forseen hearts collided in mid space blood intertwined emotions so mixed to undo things now it cant be done no seperation is possible the wound will be too deep the feeelings that bound the threads of loved that repaired they cant be removed the ties are to strong neither heart strong enough they cant survive alone

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Nowhere to run Nowhere to hide The time is nearing The calling of finality No matter how hard the fight There is no winner in this game The clouds roll in The mist rises up Keep trying to run Keep trying to hide Its all set in motion There is no place to hide Dark corners wont suffice It will find you on time Then the fight is lost Take it as you see fit But just let it win My time is up, I have given in Let the shadows descend Feeding upon despair

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I lie on my bed Where my head finally comes to rest It is finally quiet in my head Sound and movement around me are dead An unbearable hunger makes my stomach ache My throat is sore from an incredible thirst Several lonesome fears make my heart break Tears are slowly drying, but it is only a matter of time Before the tears again burst Misery is like an old friend that stops by from time to time Moments of happiness in my life are precious and rare Sometimes I feel like my life is not even worth a dime As it seems it gets harder and harder for me to actually care Mostly hope and dreams are all I got Desperate for love, susceptible for illusions Makes it hard to distinguish between what is real and what is not I am living a life inbetween loneliness and confusion I wander through my mind Memories of the past make a smile on my face Now I seem so immune, so blind Living this life seems like a worthless chase

Until We Meet!!!
Until We Meet Until we meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."

Until That Wonderful Day
Trying to summon the words To describe this great magnificent Feelings of love I never thought I would feel this But I’m in love His words his advice He’s incredible He’s irresistible There is something His very existence Which surfaces my inner Most desires and emotions There is something about him That something is what I love As I sit here and writing My mind wanders afar I long for his presence I long to feel his softest kiss upon my dampened skin I know his love brings The most delicious emotions And heartfelt sighs It’s like a high voltage Runs up and down my spine I am sure Without a word Without a thought One look at him Sets my soul on fire How many times have I thought of him And the many things I’d like to do I may sound like a fool I can’t help I need him close to me Filling my soul and mind Until that wonderful day He could be mine

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I LAY HERE WAITING TO FALL ASLEEP IN HOPES OF DREAMING OF YOUR FACE THAT I MISS AND SLOWLY I DRIFT AWAY TO RELM OF PEACE MY MIND IS SUBDUED AND AT EASE THIS IS WHERE I WANT TO STAY YOUR EYES ARE BRIGHT WITH LIFE AND YOUR SPIRIT IS ALL AROUND THE PLACE I START TO STIR IN THE MORNING LIGHT AS MY BODY BEGINS TO MOVE MY EYES SLOWLY OPEN AND FOCUS AND AS MY HEAD TURNS TOWARDS THE SIDE WHERE YOU LAY I REACH MY HAND TO A COLD PILLOW WHERE YOU ONCE LAID TEARS BEGIN TO FILL MY EYES AND I KNOW THAT YOU DID GO THIS IS HOW I START MY DAY NOW THAT YOU WENT AWAY Buried at PhotoCasket.com

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Entwined limbs we wrestle as one Me inside you our act begun Deep kisses of passion a tongue tease You on top doing as you please Riding and grinding to your own beat Bucking and slide in and out we meet Holding me tight within you so deep Feel me swell as I am yours to keep Juices that flow and a sweet musky scent We grind and buck faster till passions spent Climax comes hard and moans fill the air The feeling for us both is beyond compare My souls mate, My dreams I share in the night I do this and more as I hold you close and tight Sweet kisses that carry me to the brink of day Always our passions come and go in this way And then I awake alone in my bed Visions of what we did still fill my head And I long to be there in our dream shared only my dream with you is beyond all compared By R. Thomas Dinsmore Inspired works

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I wrote this to an EX just after she said she needed (space) Like the grey skies before a storm, I could tell that you were torn. It will be ok my dear. I'll still be here. Take the time you need. I'm your friend, true indeed. Just a portion on your plate. Through this thnig called fate. Put me not upon a throne, though i'm not a clone. Your special to me, can't you see. I want whats best for you. With that we can start anew. If it's in the masters plans, soon we will hold hands. Together, forever? if it's to be, I guess we'll see. Proud you didn't hide, The tears you cried. Inside I was torn, A new love was born. One I've never felt, this I've never dealt. You have yet to see, all thats inside of me. Accept me as I am? I hope you can. There is more to learn. I promise not to burn. You needed space. I'm in my place. Christine Marie, I've seen you grow. How much? You'll never know. You have helped me, to love unselfish

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i carry it with me in my heart, it eats at my very soul. it fills a space within me, it makes my heart seem whole. it gives me wings when i am down, it uplifts me in time of grief. it gives me strength when i am weak, though at times it seems so brief. i cant see it with my eyes or hold it in front of me, yet i can feel it in my heart and recieve it tenderly. i can not cut it with a sword or track it with a hound, yet i always know when it is there without a single sound. distance has set our souls apart yet i feel as though we are one. this battle of emotions, i know i have definatly won.

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What I meant to say Was Baby, don’t go away It just sounded like Get the fuck out I think about you Endlessly But express myself Horribly I try to tell you I love you But it comes out Babe, can I Have another beer You are truly special In so many ways Is dinner ready yet Is said, with a Sweet gaze I hate to treat you bad But I am just Another guy A regular disciple Of the primitive Can’t always pull Up my fly If you left me I’d lie Say I wanted that All along Maybe I need to learn That even I Can be wrong

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What would I care if you live or die, I told you the truth, instead you fed me lies. I could say its fine, lie and deny but I'd rather feal pain then nothing at all. Maybe nothings enough and I'm running blind, but as you don't care, thats all to get from me. You made your decision, and got the same from me, call it insanity or sickness but these stitches have healed. Rip them from me, in my mind, see what I see, truth is revealed but the world makes no promises.

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You put a bullet in my head Turned black thoughts to red This could all end in tragedy I dream of your death, Lay you down to rest I won't look back in fond memory But time marches on like a soldier, are you a killer? I think I know what you are - a thief in the night And though it's taken me so very long to figure you out You're throwing stones, your glass castle is falling down On top of your good times, I'm not interested in working this out You put a bullet in my head Turned black thoughts to red This could all end in tragedy And that's what you are, a sad plastic fucking mess Don't come to me with how your tired, used up and just barely getting by Because I would walk on by and not even, Not even kick you when you're down, Though you would deserve it because you are lower than the lowest dog But this is the part where I say goodbye And let the sands of time blow over us Say goodbye, and let the sands of time blow over us You've never had to crawl, you

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when i'm with you... nothing can make me blue... nothing can bring me down... clouds appear when you're away... but your smile brightens my day... i can't tell you what you mean to me... but in my heart you'll always be... for your love i'd cross the deepest ocean... to offer you my heart and a lifetime of devotion... i never wonder if you're the right one for me... in your eyes, that much i can see... tears falling is something i never want to see... i live my life to make you happy... you make me proud that i'm your man, and... not only are you my love, you're my best friend.

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Untitled-- I’m used, used like a dirty tissue Tears fall and then catch in my hands These events, this life, becomes the issues Grow up, come on, take it like a real man. How can you live a life behind closed doors? Have dreams of becoming something, so much more Dream, Dream like there is no tomorrow No actions, just fears of heartbreak and sorrow Why are you alive, when all you do is hide Crushes with no path, lost on the outside How can you be empty and be lost for eternity Break out of the barrier, set yourself free. No more tears fallen from my eyes I became someone, to much surprise. Look, new surroundings, open skies So many times, finally, the last try.

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His mind is in pieces, like a thousand pieces of glass. What to do, what not to, where to turn, will he hurt again or will he burn? The devil you know crashes and burns, broken and alone, don't leave me here alone, it hurts. Take me to the riverside,and repackage the lies, wheres my remote control so I can change this shit. Like spare change could change the world when the stars come out at night, deep inside myself is where I'll find my world. Deep inside I'm breaking down, tell them all, tell everyone hello.

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What is this infinity machine? This place seems odd, its just autumn on drugs, I tried to love my starfish, does it know its enough? When you get back from Mars tell me how you are, but if I tried to kiss you would you push me away from your face? If I told you how I felt would things have changed anyway? Just like any other Sunday, I know I'll levitate,I'll sleep and maybe dream again today.

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I woke up to the morning sun, its hitting my face as I sleep away. I'm up before both of my room mates, and soon the stereo'll be playing, maybe some Zeppelin, BHG, Hendrix or STP. I'll wash the dishes while they sleep, clean up downstairs and check the ground meat. I'll look out from the patio just to see, a new horizon is calling me. We'll stay up till when the night ends, and until the next morning begins. We'll laugh, remember memories from our past years, have some rum & a few beers. We'll walk through downtown, if its rainy we might not be found.

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My heart has been opened by kindness, All of my passions have come alive. I am no longer left for blind. I see who I am from the inside, Tingling with energy. Screaming on the inside! Shouting from the rooftop, I have found myself once again! Never to wallow in my own self pity. With open arms I welcome you, I welcome all into my bosom. Hold you with my soul. I love who I am, Who you are. Keep well my friends! Becky Leanne...this one is dedicated to that special person that means the world to me! They know who they are! *wink*

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Trying to find my way, I lay there confused, suprised, and in dismay. I tried to wrap my head and my mind around thoughts that keep coming back to me. Somewhere maybe I met you and couldn't say, couldn't stay, who knows if we were ment to be but now I've made my way away from the sun. Maybe it didn't last long enough, maybe its not ment to be, but confussion is more then just my enemy. His heart had thoughts he tried to make before, he couldn't do it, his decision would get him ignored. Would he leave them both, then despise would be easy for them on his broken heart. He doesn't know what to say or do, he was there before and it hurt for awhile after he decided to do what he had to. Now he doesn't feel the hurt, or the her from before, he doesn't need her anymore.

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Roses come in different colors They all stand for something different Yet, we are not prejudice toward them. Humans come in different colors too They also stand for something different Yet, we are prejudice toward them Why is it that when it comes to flowers Color means nothing Yet, when it comes to humans ..... 7-19-92 Waiting to see if this gets published I should know in a few weeks

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It is the very effort to stand up tall that brings me to my knees Like a flower fighting the wind, I wilt against life’s breeze Better to bend and flow like grass, standing tall in the field Daring the wind to take hold, learning how to yield And as many times as I have been broken As many time as the lessons’ been spoken Still I try to stand firm against the pressures that life brings To proudly proclaim my own strength, like that of ancient queen But each time I fall, the lesson is learned again and forgotten once more This time though, it is different; this time I have learned how to soar Life throws its immense weight at me, trying to snap my resolve But it cannot hit me because I’m not standing still. I am bending, and so I evolve I am laughing because life is frustrated in its attempt to knock me down I am crying because it won’t give up, and so in my tears, I drown I am soaring high because I’ve risen above it, never again to fight I am joyful now; I’ve lear

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its been such a short time but feels like forever never met anyone like you i smile when i hear voice even your name i thought id go my whole life without knowing if their was someone out there who was almost exactly like me im so happy and grateful that we could find eachother in this crazy world i wouldnt change this life for a thing i wouldnt want to miss the crazy times we could have together nor the intimate moments that we could share you could be the soul mate ive been waiting for but only time will tell

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We live in a kind of world where morning comes way too soon I was a simple girl you were just a man under that neon moon Our eyes meet from across the room you held my gaze with your hungry desire in my chest I feel a *BOOM - BOOM BOOM - BOOM BOOM* Damn you have a sexy smile and it looks like tonight it's just for me I'll just sit here for a while So I can watch you walking to me ~* Let's dance you and I Let's take up the dance flor Show me your moves and I'll show you mine ^MINE - MINE MINE - MINE MINE^ Mmmm dance with me ^dance with me^ I wanna feel you move with me ^move with me^ Stop whispering in my ear All your sweet nothings is not what I wanna hear All I want from you right now is your body, touching mine Move it to the rythm Swing your hips oooh I like that ~* Let's dance you and I Let's take up the dance flor Show me your moves and I'll show you mine ^MINE - MINE MINE - MINE MINE^ Mmmm dance with m

Until You
I didn’t know what it felt like to be beautiful Until you I didn’t know what it felt like to be needed Until you called me just to hear my voice I didn’t know what it felt like to be wanted Until you I didn’t know what it felt like to be special Until you promised me forever I didn’t know what it felt like to be loved Until I met you

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There is so much I want to know, so much I need to know. We all need each other, we believe in each other. Together we could make a whole. Washed ashore in a world where nothings right, never pure, never sure. No peace, street spirit on a rise so we keep breaking up on the out and the inside. Flooding ourselves with guilt, you want me go ahead and find me. I'll be waiting with your sanity, tired of the world standing.

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I can't seem to clear my head these days Or maybe it's finally as it should be All of the sadness has drained away My thoughts are consumed with you and me My heart has been racing since I first saw your face Those eyes.... that grin... I can't even express My skin is flushing a little right now Remembering your voice, your whisper, your finesse I can't help but smile when I think of us Even as tears stream down my face And the love that I feel for you is true You have my heart... my soul.. and soon, my embrace

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" Untitled " Untitled this poem seems to be No words to fit what's inside of me Conflicting emotions running wild And that is putting it rather mild So much turmoil I want to die Tired of ignoring the perpetual lie Really needing to take a stand But then there's the other hand So much joy and happiness At this moment I seem to possess Hold on tight as long as I can Because there is still the other hand Turmoil and happiness running amuck An awful situation in which I am stuck One moment I'm glad And the next I'm sad How do I get out of this rut Ironically I know, but there is a 'but' Am I prepared to do what it takes Am I willing to pay the stakes The cost is high this turmoil to escape I will suffer much more than just a scrape So many things forever lost Never again, that is the cost. ------------------------- Copyright 2007 TLC

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You're a faith disease, Divine crisis of soul. In an Age of Lies, You're the Truth I'm told. You're the Angel of Death, You're the bearer of light, You're the render of flesh In the war-torn night. I want to curl up inside you And kiss your blood and bones. You're the one sure thing, You're a shot in the dark, You're the Valley of Death, You're a walk in the park. You're the leather and lace, You're the cruel intent, You're the faith misplaced, You're my time misspent, And when I gather you in, I can catch the scent of your sorrow. Oh let's run away tonight To our cavern on the bad side of town. We can watch our words take flight From our lair deep underground. 'Cause you're a parasite Growing fat inside me, You're a hot wind blowing Through the Sephirothic Tree, And I don't know where This twisted street will lead - To sacrifice or infinity. You're so beautiful to me baby, 'Cause you're dying inside.

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He looks at himself, hes not rich, hes not perfect maybe hes not good enough for her. They talk, he could swear inside she deserves someone better then he, a guy better then me. He doesn't know what she wants, does she know what he wants or how to start doing what he wishes to do. Some call his aim, a bit too high, some call it a dream but its not yet expired. If he had a chance, what would he say, what would he do? He feels like a fool, sometimes he needs direction in what to do. He'll keep on trying, slowly dropping small clues, but if she got them he'd ask "Is there anything between me and you?" He'll push it aside, and take to the stage with this anger for not moving forward and work with his rage. Whats his range, he doesn't know, confused but those who hear this shit are often amazed.

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As for me, my only wish is to be free/ Carried away from all the pain and sufferin I see/ But is my cause a lost one, I just don't know/ So sick and tired of not knowing which way to go/ and so, I make use of what I have in my brain/ Makin my way through life, just tryin to stay sane/ But every day, it seems to get harder and harder/ It feels like I'm stuck just runnin through water/ Am I a product of society or just unlucky/ knowin that my every move just might fuck me/ Now I got my head stuck inside of this book/ and it's got me thinkin of some the paths I took/ Now I believe it's time for me to make my move/ Just keep on goin like I got something to prove/ 'Cause, first and foremost, I most certainly do/ Hopefully, my loved ones will see that, too/ And if there is a special someone out there for me/ I only hope that she can sypathize for me/ 'Cause I've been standin in the rain, trying to get wetter/ And maybe, just maybe, things will get better/

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I know sometimes, I'm out of whack About to crack And I get bitchy baby. In so much pain, I draw away, It's hard to play Always the downer. But I'm trying to find my way, Getting stronger everyday. I thank the world and more, That I found you. Then I hope that I just might Make loving me worth the struggle. Your my heart, Your my soul, You help me grow and I know, If I ever lost you, I'd just crumble. I know alot of times, You don't understand the reason in my rhymes, And you think I'm going nutty. Just bear with me, Your support, Lifts me through so many downfalls. If Im crazy it's ok, It's just with love for you. I just know I'll find my way. We'll be even happier one day. I love you and that love has helped me grow. I swear I'll find my way. 7-25-06

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I look in the mirror, what do I see? Nothing cute, nothing pretty, Just lonely me. I look away, Tears in my eyes, Hurt by all those troublesome lies. I think of my lies, My wanting heart, craving soul and uneventful mind. Drowned in sorrowful darkness. Waiting for love,life,direction. Do I want you? him? Them? Ha! they laugh behind my back yet care in front of my eyes! A bloody dagger deeper into my soul, Caressing the sin, Leaving the light. They say misery loves company. Yet no one, not even misery, Loves me. Help me! I'm falling! Won't anyone catch me before i die and rot away? 1996

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Insanity takes delight, engaging mind, driving to death. The placid eyes of life are closed. Ugly people like me, feeling sorry for themselves never live. My life is good, It's me thats screwed. Shy, ugly, unwanted. Another heart broken, another person outspoken. Join the club of losers, I'm the leader. Attempted suicide, Failed the mission. THis is the season for love, Pay the price or crawl into my world which is nothingness. THe light turned dark. The love is hidden cause nobody wanted it. like me. 1996

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I'm in your mind but you can't sense me. In your blood circulating evenly. In your heart pressing buttons. In your soul pulling strings. I'm playing with your feelings, meanings, and understandings. I'm surging through your body, but you don't know I'm there. I know what you are thinking. I feel what you are feeling. Its funny 'cause you don't know i exist. I'm decaying you from the inside out, but you don't feel it. I'm tearing strings and upsetting organs, yet you have no clue. Yeah. I'm doing this to you.

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I am driving down the road, In the early morn, The breeze is biting at my skin, With it's breath so cold. I am fighting these aches again and again. I am forgetting where everything begins. As I wipe my mind clear. Nothing but the morning air, The sunlight hits my eyes with a blinding glare, And I'm winding down the same road over again. I'm reaching for you like Iv'e always been. I know you'll catch me when I fall, You've done it many times before. I need to stand on my own. God forbid me but I don't want to be grown. God forbid me but my soul is worn. I'll hide just a little longer, No fuck it I'll come out and bite, Brighter and stronger, Maybe I'll slice like a knife. Can I handle this life , Can I handle the big stuff. Please help me try to decide. I need to learn to be strong in my soul. Just driving down the same road again, Clearing my head so i begin a brand new day, In my own I have caged me within. The sun promises a new light, Yet the

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In the pale blue light of the moon The stars fell into your eyes And I saw my future unfold before me That was the happiest moment of my life Until you asked me to be yours At that moment my heart melted Into a pool of never-ending love for you.

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Untitled pain and life, they question me is there and answer, there has to be to end this suffering to end this hurt they’ll bury my body in the dirt spread it across my broken bones wish me a prayer and send me home

Untill I Hear You Say....
Honey can you say, I love you, Every time when you hang up, Sending my heart to fluttering, For if, it escapes your mind, it Sends my mind to wondering. Whether those words mean anything, Until I hear your voice needing me, Hearing you say it, at the very end. Your rendition of I love you, Over, and over, all over me. From one period to another, on My monthly cycle of loving you, Till the eternity of time Being beside you saying, I love you too sweetie, Over, and over again. In my recording wanting you to Keep hugging me in with those Words that unite us forever!

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No more lies, Unwilling cries. I want you, No one else will do. I'm a society reject, Science pet. Come with me, Then you'll see. I hate my voice. There is no choice for me. I'm not who you want me to be. Just kill me, Then how happy I'd be! Flowers for my grave? My souls to late to save! No taste excpet for the bitterness of nothing. Take the life of an innocent child, I'll volunteer, Don't shed a tear, It's only me. Down the years I'll think of the tears I drowned in thinking of you. 1996

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No more lies, Unwilling cries. I want you, No one else will do. I'm a society rejectm Science pet. Come with me, Then you'll see. I hate my voice. There is no choice for me. I'm not who you want me to be. Just kill me, Then how happy I'd be! Flowers for my grave? My souls to late to save! No taste excpet for the bitterness of nothing. Take the life of an innocent child, I'll volunteer, Don't shed a tear, It's only me. Down the years I'll think of the tears I drowned in thinking of you. 1996

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i think i am going insane like a mad man laughing at the rain laughing at the hurt laughing at the pain i smirk upon the thought of how easily death can be bought giggle at the sound as i hear your heart pound for you are scarred by the sight of my face i am so ugly its a disgrace wishing you weren't here what i love you fear not knowing how i may act one minute like this now i am like that can you handle my mind not knowing what you may find i could be all your fears all your tears all that agony you built up within i caused your bigest sin cause i am your master but can i now just be your servant i can do things you can't i will do things you won't i am no good and i am no evil but you could love me still this you may deny i can be seen with only one eye cause i am in your soul and i am what makes you whole

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A lonely soul lost, Not knowing where to go, Left to wander alone, Looking for the soul, That is the mate. In the dark of night, This soul notices another, So charming, so tempting, The soul of a knight, Born to serve and protect. The soul lays itself at the feet, Of this oh so sensuous other soul, Hoping this knight's soul is the one, Feeling his power, love, passion, love, pain, all at once, Wanting to help him, the lonely soul gives herself freely. To this knight she gives her everything, For him to protect, love and cherish, Promising to be the one he's dreamed of, As she sees it in his mind, No turning back now, this lonely soul belongs to this knight. Vampiress (to Loyal Knight, my baby)

Untill The....
The sun rises above the hillcrest, As does the joy of my heart; Rays of warmth and love, From her I will never depart. Fresh dew upon the grass, Young birds chirp in their nests; I watch her gently sleep, My love to her I silently profess. I enjoy the stillness and calm, Watching as she smiles and dreams; She brings me to stillness and peace, Like that of a slow flowing stream. My heart and soul flow with love, And I smile as I quietly reflect; I’ve been handed a sweet princess, A sweet princess to love and to protect. A vow to myself I make, As she quietly sleeps away; To love and always cherish her, Until my last breath... until my last day

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I am thinking of too many things I am so angry with this world My blood is boiling because I am so angry I am so confusing in my mind My goal of direction get me no where I see the road go to somewhere but I don't know where that road go to? I found out that I am type 2 diabete I would say something punished me for some reason. Yup, I am so angry for many reason My family, My friends and exes hurt me so badly. Do they have a better life? Yup they do or not? I am single of because I love my baby daughter. Being single may is fun but most lonely at night time. What is the forgive? Would I forgive people make my life better? My mind is out of control. My goal of direction get me no where Yes, I am sad I am lonely every night. Am I dersve for this? Do I enjoyed being single? I am angry with this world.. Angry get me no where but relieve I am better person but am I deserve for this? I hardy sleep because I always dream of nightmare I wish I am vampire becau

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I am so angry and watch out I want rip your heart apart I am so angry and watch out I want rip ur eyes out I am so angry and watch out I want kick you out of the hell I am so angry and watch out Why you are fuckin stuipd let it come between us? I am so angry and watch out Why hell are you so possessive? I am so angry and watch out Why are you so depentant? I am so angry and watch out I want rip your clothes off I am so angry and watch out I want stab your heart and take it out I am so angry and watch out I want stomp your bloodly heart to stop heart beating I am so angry and watch out Your heart beating is stopped I am so angry and watch out Damn it is not enough! I am so angry and watch out I am cut you piece by piece I am so angry and watch out Dont fuck around with me Or Watch out!

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Look at my eyes There is stars in my eyes Look inside my heart There is several beating look at my blood There is thick blood Look at my tongue There is white stud on top of my tongue Look at my lips There is a soft lips You would look at my eyes and there is cold soul inside You would look at my heart and there is icy heart You would look at my blood and I am sick You would look at my tongue and you would imagine where my tongue will be doing You would look at my lips and you would kiss it You might hold me like nothing come between us You might inhale and sigh when we are hold You might look at my eyes and cold soul is gone You might hold me and make my heart warmth You might enjoy my tongue to somewhere on you You might enjoy my kiss like passion Are we hot enough? No, we are not You and I would be naked in bed Let strip and touch over each other You would see beautiful body with scars scars is my tattoo I would see you kiss on my scars I would see yo

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The blood flow through my heart My heart is pump so fast I feel little ache inside my heart It feel like my heart squeeze to take it out The blood flow through my heart My heart is pump little slower than normal I feel my heart getting more ache and little pain I feel my heart getting several cut in tiny piece and let lots bleed out My blood flow through my heart I left the city without see my friends and my love My heart know it I am going home to be all alone

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Oh baby, You are mine No one can take you away from me You are my love Oh baby, you are so sexy All the woman look at you All of them are so jealous of me You are only look at me. You are so over heel of me Oh baby, You are mine Give me a wet kiss I am yours forever Oh baby, I am so over heel of you We hold and naked under the blanket Let me give you a love bite Oh baby, you are so sweet. You are very dear to my heart. We are smile at each other like wonderul thing happen to us Let me hold your hand Oh baby, You are mine No one can break the connection between us Our connection is very important to us Our love is most powerful Oh baby, I am all yours! We sit on bench and look at people who being sad or happy We are hold the hand and smiling We are look at each other's eyes Oh baby, We are together forever

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My family and I are doing good. I'm just trying to be there for my mom, my sisters, my lil bro and my lil girl and her coz. I'm the oldest of 4 kids and i have a lot of weight on my shoulders now that my dad has cancer. i'm doing the best i can to keep things togther for my family. I know that there are alot of other people that go through things like this everyday. I just wish that i had someone to help me get through this besides my family.

Until You
I never knew Love could feel this way, The kind of Love that makes you always want to stay, I never knew what a wonderful feeling I could get, Just by Loving you and having you Love me back, To have you do things for me,and me for you, And it is such a simple thing to do, I long to have you lay down beside me, Just to hold me, feel me, Love me, Until I met you I never knew, how it felt to be wanted just for me, I grew used to being whatever other people wanted me to be, even though it wasn't true, I never knew the feeling of having someone love me for me, Until I met you...

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Love is a disease, That spreads with ease, To some it shall always please. Many people like I, May never get a chance to try, Always trying and never crying. So my heart and soul, That was taken from me, I cannot pledge my love for thee. Â©DGTFB 2007

Until It Sleeps
Where do I take this pain of mine I run but it stays right by my side So tear me open, pour me out These things inside they scream and shout And the pain still hates me So hold me until it sleeps Just like a curse, just like a stray You feed it once and now it stays Now it stays So tear me open, but beware Theres things inside without a care And the dirt still stains me So wash me until Im clean It grips you so hold me It stains you so hold me It hates you so hold me It holds you so hold me Until it sleeps... So tell me why youve choosen me Dont want your grip Dont want your greed Dont want it Ill tear me open, make you gone No more can you hurt anyone And the fear still shakes me So hold me until it sleeps I dont want it.....no It grips you so hold me It stains you so hold me It hates you so hold me It holds you, holds you, holds you Until it sleeps... So tear me open, but beware The pains inside without a care And the dirt still sta

Untill We Meet
Until we meet, My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you.

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Some people get stood up, some people get fed up. Some thoughts are broken, like emotions beyond repair. We're all someone else, we all feel, we all hurt, we all bleed, we all want and need. We can all lie, we can all be unsure, we all die. To know something is nothing even when your sure, we all want to run, to hide, to fly, to die. Words can mean it all, or nothing at all. We can all heal, or fall. Some of us do what we do, say what we say and play for today. The unbreakable,ununderstandable, the mistaken, the broken and the fake.

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its just one more day without you one more day out of many ahead in a way i cant wait for them to be over so i can see your beautiful angel face again its just one more cold sad day with out you here

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Always defending the good, Protecting the ones he loves, Shining in the light, a perfect soul, Searching for the one that will steal his heart, Not knowing that person is dark and fairly evil, Yet looking in her eyes, he cares not for what she is, Only for who she is, his woman, Now this knight vows to stay true to this woman, You never see good and evil joining forces, But here you see just that, Good and evil coming together under one cause, Love, stronger than any army or armor, Here you have a Loyal Knight and his Vampiress.

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Untitled Haikus Her voice is like wind Drifting through the summer clouds Gently kiss my cheek Eyes of sparkling blue Clear deep pools of emotion Sooth my weary mind Always in my thoughts Forever a connection She understands me Tear drops start to fall Then mingle with the ocean Two salts join as one Here among my dreams She comes to me once again All we dream is love Everlasting joy Shall play across my features She has touched my soul Read my darling one Words penned for heart of beauty Self given to her

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My body craves an experienced hand To make me explode do you understand A gentle touch will make me shiver A harder stroke and I will quiver My deepest desires I will express To hand that knows how to caress Tie me down and take your leisure Bring us both the greatest pleasure Do not stop because I groan In short time you’ll make me moan A little taste is not a sin As you tantalize my skin If your touches bring a little pain Please my love do not refrain The line between pain and pleasure Is much to thin for you to measure As I am bound to the bed You can get within my head Make me wonder build my desire Fear can ignite an awesome fire When I beg you let me go You must beg strong and say no But when I beg you take me now I pray you enter me like a plow Then in the middle of a thrust Release my bonds and taste my lust Forgive me if I leave red streaks On your back and lower cheeks And when I ravage you in return Remember it was you made my blood burn ©Dar

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Oh lover dwell within As in the darkness we begin A roller coaster of rise and falls Through out the night they’ll hear our calls On the bed, the floor, the table Tell me lover are you able Can you make me scream all night Will you continue with the light Can you make my body burn As I do yours in your turn Can we rise all the way to heaven Make me cum ten fold and seven Can you claim me with your fire Can you tame me with desire Will you tease me make me quiver Tell me lover can you deliver Will you taste my ancient soul When you make me loose control If I bind your feet and hands Will it be more than you can stand And when at last I regain control Will you to me loose your soul ©Dark

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Grab my hips from behind Take me baby don’t be kind Ride me deep and hard Treat me like a playing card Flip me over and start anew Come on baby you know what to do Spread my legs wide apart Use your tongue like a dart Taste the juices you make flow Hold on tight don’t let go Then climb my body enter me I’ll clamp my legs behind your knee I’ll squeeze my muscles around your shaft The bed will move like a raft I’ll move with you until I’m done Then caress your body with my tongue I’ll make you scream before you’re done And I’ll be on top when you finaly come ©Dark

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Dark is the night in which ride Deep is the water in which I hide burning, turning spinning fast a soul in turmoil urban class drowning, struggling, dieing last These are days of my past Burning pain that never ends hoping for a whispering wind surging lurching to and fro how will my mind ever know loving, lying, living, dieing all are things worth our trying Giving, caring, sharing too these are things I want to do Time to be all you can be join me in this empty sea life is ever spinning past the road is calling it's a blast come ride with me into the hills and I will show such great thrills Come lie with me beneath the stars and I shall ease away your scars ©Dark

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Who do I trust, what can I trust? It'll all come and pass like dust to dust, sand to sand in an hour glass as it runs through my hand. Whatever happens, happens even after its come my way. Truth is, right now I don't know what to do, or what to say. If tears could drown the world, would you cry an ocean from feeling & emotion? Maybe at times we all question devotion, can you see it all, even if its not clearly. We all walk darkend halls, we all see the darkness close to our falls, we all try to cool it off when we're close to losing it all.

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Whatever will be, will be but in the end what truly matters to me? So here I am, taking it day by day, falling and getting back on, time after time no matter the injuries. If you want to give up, know you can't stop me, and all those times I wanted to left be. Slow down now, I'm seeing ahead,maybe next year I'll wind up dead. Maybe I'll be alive and kicking, noone knows so I guess all I can do is hold on and see.

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How can you expect respect from yourself, don't expect respect from anyone else? Do it for you, do it for yourself, cause in the end it'll be waiting there for you. Don't take shit, stand up for yourself, don't do it for wealth.Don't do it for anyone else. Look in the mirror now, don't you want something more then just self respect? Something more, then just lookin back with regret?

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So here I sit, waiting on the person I could swear might be with me. Where is she? Should I call and check my messages? Should I go home and check msn? I'm sitting here, watching this time pass me by, slowly. As the minutes trickle into hours, I soon find myself saying "Fuck it, another hour, then I'll walk away." The bands setup, mic check, mic check, sound test. Instead of going & running away, I'll stand and listen to the bands play, at least my friend showed and kept his word today. Did she get my msg, does it really matter to me? No, cause when I wake up, it'll be a different day. I'll push & forget what happend that night, in no rush & no delay.

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I know what I want, maybe I don't for I'm confused. All these things floating round in my head, what to do what to ignore? Part of me wishes to keep working on lyrical riches and what follows with it. Truth be known, its not all thats thought of inside the head thats on my shoulders. I'm disconnected, tryin to find my better half as part of this solution for a better chance at reconnection or re-evalution in this situation. Maybe I'm just looking for restitution, but I'm stuck in 2 directions, like the hemispheres, do I keep constructing solutions to these fucked up thoughts like prostitution. I keep lookin around but the solution ain't nowhere near here.

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He falls apart, he saw a pic of such a happy family and knows theres no role in there for me. He'll want to move on, when that kid grows into a man, hopes he doesn't hate him but that he'll understand. He understands hes got no role, theres no point in him trying, is it best that he just fall? He enveys the family, inside he asks "When will this be me?" When will I raise a son, a daughter or a family? Maybe hes just blinded by jealousy. For now his hopes short, like nearing the end of a rope, and he asks himself inside, how the hell can I cope? But thats life, some people are jealous, some are fucked up, and some over zealous. Some cope, through liquor and dope, some rob & steal, just to feel & get a sense of hope. Some beat their wives, some try to stay alive, some are frozen outside, some run & hide. Some even work 9-5, while trying to raise a family.

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He didn't know the year would go, only 16 and suspended again for cuttin class. So, he smoked his smokes, and sat on the grass.Waiting for the girl he talked on the phone at night with, she came out and they walked and held hands. Not sure about future plans but they talked. He always walked her home, even when he froze, dead to the bone, watching it snow. He walked her to class, they even sat together in the school caf, never knowing how long it'd last. As the time went on, they'd pass but she still called him when he got with another, like she wouldn't let him pass. They'd talk on the phone, most nights, and sometimes during the days but as the months trickled into days he let her get away. He soon learned the truth, she was crushing on someone else, but what could he do? Her sister saw him time after time again, she always said hi to him. As the days trickled into years, two summers back they ran into each other, but said nothing with words, what did she fear?

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The same year he let one go, he found himself telling something old to someone he then didn't know. The 4 of them walked and waited for the bus, snow lay on the ground but then flying snow caused a small fuss. A snowball hit his coat, he threw one back @ her and when the bus came, after two transfers at the back of the bus, it would be just him and her. He told her something he never thought he could forsee, that he liked her and what came next was not instantly. They took it slow, and the relationship started to grow, notes and calls, even on the ski hill when he hurt his leg and took that fall. She kissed him and checked on him when he was sick, and when he would fall. They broke up a few times, but ultimately those who got hurt would be he and she. She said she loved him, and he kept asking himself how could this be? The time they spent together would not be forgotten so easily. She asked him the question, that to some would've been ultimately but he pushed her away for how he

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You claimed to love me, yet you slept with my friend in my bed. I might have caused you pain, to slowly flow like rain but know that I still loved you just the same. I don't trust you for shit you lying, two sided bitch. You stole from me and if you ever choke me again I'll kill you myself and toss you into the nearest ditch. I'm doing shit now, that I only dreamed of when you and I were a "we", I went to school and recorded some CDs. You saw me at the college, building C, told me you were still interested in me. I tried to ignore you, tried to dodge you and your glance, cause your bullshit ain't any long part of my plans. I waited on someone who took his time to show, instead you tried to dump some ice and coke down my crotch when I called you a bitch, a trick and a ho. You looked at me like you were ready to go. If this is how you treated an ex boyfriend, then you better watch your back cause I ain't falling for any more of your false shit again. I'm not dumb, I'm not fuckin

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Living in the line of fire Turning the corner on destructive anger A tough ride, the speed of life Charging the gates of infinite wisdom No one lfet behind Grace of words Breaking bad habits Flee and purse life Exclusive faith in hope To get loose from the noose of times of lies Just say the word A true disciple of wisdom, for God All things are possible So stand or kneel in Gods presence And be counted

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I'm sorry for last night,but what did I really do ? I caught you screaming and freaking at me, then you hit my shoulder with the fucking phone book too. I had to put some ice on it to take away the pain. Then you made it sound like I'm the reason your going fucking insane. I don't know how to cope, I'm at the end of my rope, but sometimes it feels like if you hit me again I should lose control. Go off the fucking deep end. I should hit you back, each time you hit me, like self defense. All I need is someone, not just a reason to leave cause my reason is I'm sick of this shit. Then you talk about shit like having your wrists slit.I've had jobs on and off for years, one day hoping to get away from all this, why do I take this shit and stay here?

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I thought my world couldn't get any darker But you came just in time to light it up Never did I think I'd find something so wonderful From a place I least expected Until you told me your love wasn't detected My heart sings to a different beat now You unthawed my heart some how I'm workin on it, it needs some revision, and some additions to it lol

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Inside I've got some plans, if only they knew about them and about my dreams they'd freak out on me. If they knew they'd push me away, for planning to be with someone who wants to be with me. I'm still torn in what to do, hopefully I don't cause someone to fall for me, as I will cause them hurt though its not like me. I could get a fresh chance, even if on my own but I do not know. If I pushed it all away and decided to keep going musically who will, who won't hate me? Is it wrong to want to be alone, or to walk this lonely road? These things will take time, but these demons are still slowly closing in on me. Where will I wind up, what shall become of me? I have those who know of my ideas & plans, one tells me not to bother and to move on. Others claim to have my back, and to always have my back despite what comes of me. If things pick up, and someone decides to persue me. I will be speechless and dumbfounded, clearly. I ask the question of why, I am reminded time and time a

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you're there Im here both alone with no one to hold wishing we were together holding each other tight yet knowing we're on each others minds the miles between us make things hard but i know no matter how close or far we are our hearts are always together and until we can be together again thats all that really matters

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I don't know how, I don't know why but somethings not feeling right tonight. I don't know what it is, but it all feels wrong, like something that isn't ment or shouldn't be. Its bugging me inside, and I wish I knew what it could be but hopefully tomorrow or sooner what this is shall be known by me.

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You deserve someone so much better then me, I don't know if I'm who, or what you want me to be. I don't know if I'm whats best for you. It feels like you need someone, something I'm not. If I am, then lets not crash & burn, lets not rush it all and waste all our turns. It could all crash in a blur,would you take the chance even if it hurts & burns? I would not be shocked if you walked, and never returned to the spot where it died.

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Tonight, today I want the world to fuck off and leave me be so I can work on this music shit. No, if I ain't with a chick I'll be pissed and lose it. I've been waiting for so long to hear the truth, tell me the truth, don't lie like being unkind. I'm tired of being used by women and being tossed away, like every single fucking day. The last one lied, when she said she loved me and had my heart, years after we split and I decided to part. I'm so sick and tired of being used, to the next woman to do this shit and play me off, fuck off and fuck you.

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I look back At what I had And it amounts to nothing How I wanted to hold you in my arms But never could How I wanted you to look at me In the same way But never a glance So I turned my head And then I gave up But then I saw a glimmer A little sliver of hope A ray of perfect sunshine So I looked up And there you stood Elegant and beautiful Like always But all I have is dreams Fantasies to play back in my mind You have no idea how much You’ve already helped me Just by being you Through those long days A simple thought that saves me from insanity You make me want to be A better person And for that I’m eternally grateful So I will wait And stand there with my head up Waiting for my angel To look again And smile

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Time is now changing Along with the season Life is moving on As did you for no reason Leaves crumble to the ground As summer changes to fall Did you really love me Or did I imagine it all You made a promise once That it was me you'd never leave That same promise you broke For it was me you did deceive I loved you so much And believed what you said So why must I continue to have All these sad thoughts in my head I want to believe again That true love will last But to find that love It is you I must leave in the past If I got to see you once more If you were to come around I wouldn't fall for it again This time I'd stand my ground Written 10/09/06

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~this one was actually wrote for me...miss you Steve~ When I looked into her eyes all I saw was pain she could not disguise. I knew her heart was broken what could I do her laughter streaked with pain her tears on my shoulder like bitter rain. As she cried I felt her pain the tormenting ache rotted deep inside. Trying to help to be a friend hoping her pain will meet a swift end. Just to be there is what I'll do with a warm hug when she's blue.

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My instincts telling me whats next, is this going to be true? If it is just know, I ain't mad cause this music shits calling me, its better then makin you fall and thinkin its my fault. Feels like all this'll become nothin more then another fantasy. Do the right thing, for you not for me. Forget about me, and let me be but know where I'm at when you need to find me.

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I'm ready to walk from everything and everyone except my promise and the plan. I don't expect anyone to understand it, or to understand me. I've thought of walking and saying "If you need me, I'll be there, until then my dear" but I'm trying to be near. Its not my life, I just live it, these ain't my lyrics, I just write and spit this shit. So as I lay my head down, I wonder if I should fight it, or continue and just hide it.

Until I Met You
I never thought I'd find someone, Who knows me quite the way you do; I never thoughht I'd find someone, Whose love would be so true; I never thought I'd want to spend, Eternity with another; I never thought I'd find someone, Who would love me more than any other; I never thought I'd find forever, In someone else's eyes; I never thought I'd find truth, Instead of bitterness and lies; I never thought that wishes could be granted Or that dreams could ever come true; I never thought I'd find someone - That is 'till I met you. done by christine

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We are good friends Even though we just met each other I think about you And we will be until the end And I think our friendship is one that is so true I had adream About me and you We were having a picnic next to a mountain stream And we watched the clouds in a beautiuful sky of blue We enjoyed the together time I gave you some flowers and a hug dear And I looked into your eyes and told you I would be there for you at a drop of a dime Also that you had nothing to fear I hope you can tell what I say is true And comes from my heart You are there for me and I'm there for you And it has been like that since the start We are good friends Even though we just met each other I think about you And we will be until the end And I think our friendship is one that is so true

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A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beards > sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them. > > She said "I don't think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come > in and have something to eat." > > "Is the man of the house home?", they asked. > > "No," she replied. "He's out." > > "Then we cannot come in," they replied. > > In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had > Happened. > > "Go tell them I am home and invite them in!" > > The woman went out and invited the men in" > > "We do not go into a House together," they replied. > > "Why is that?" she asked. > > One of the old men explained: "His name is Wealth," he said pointing to > one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, "He is Success, > And I am Love." Then he added, "Now go in and discuss with your husband > which one of us you want in your home?" > > The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her husband was > ove

Until The Night
Until the night Milky white shoulders, Ebon’s Embrace, Velvet soft kisses, Moonlight on your face, Nibbles and caresses, Like crimson and lace, Love’s heartbeat evoking, Another time… another place, Feeling your heat, You search and you please, I moan and I cry… As you passionately tease, Mold me and shape me, Take me this night, Desire engulfs me, As my soul takes flight, I’ll keep your love with me, I’ll cradle your heart, As the sun whispers your name, We’re never far apart…

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Untitled 1 Sin floats between my vains And I'm losing all my knowledge Even my dick's upset with me But I'm up for some bondage I'm kicking my legs up and down I met a pedophile the other day I cut his face and made him drown Untitled 2 May I run my fingers over your lips And may I kiss you out of lust May I lie with you in your bed I give you something you can trust I would be there when you're cryin' And lovin' you is a must Even when you thought you were dyin' I wanted to give you the biggest kiss And I'd be there beside you tryin' Untitled 3 Stick your finger in my eye Tell me my eyes are dull I squashed your fakeness Because I am a cannibal I make more tribulations I'll take you for romance I feel your dying sensations Untitled 4 Would you love me as a friend And would you kiss me in the end Would you hold my hand at any time And would I know that you are mine Would you talk to me when I cannot see And give me the needed com

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Good personality. Great sense of humor. Loyal to friends and family. Nice to everybody. Caring for the people that are loved. smiling and laughing most of the time on the outside. Crysing on the inside. Happy go lucky on the outside. Depressed on the inside. Out spoken, open and honest. Outgoing. Will talk to almost everybody. Determined but is held back. Knows exactly what wanted and how to get it but can't quite reach it. By: Abigail AkA BlondeAquarius

Until We Meet Again!!
well,depending in the weather,I will be leaving in the morning,friday March 2,2007. I have been a member of CherryTap for quite sometime.I have met a ton of people,added as friends,and family,and even fans.There is an incredible assortment of characters on sites such as this one.I have seen a million bulletins,I have had fun reposting alot of them too.lol. Alot of the friends,have been like musicians-its seems one hit wonders...never did get reply back again...things change,people move,computers blow up!! To know me:well,ok,I am very old fashioned.I really take friendship to heart.years ago,on my adventure with yahoo chat rooms,a friend of mine,who has not alot of use for online relationships and friendships,told me its hard online-you dont know really what the other person is really thinking,or their facial expression or eye contact!!I told him then,and still believe it-that shouldnt matter!!!A friend is a friend!!whether its on the phone,by letter,by email,or by chat!!I honor frie

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I feel as if someones breathing on my neck, with their hot sticky breath. I feel a couple of pin pricks in my neck, I feel as if there has been a spell casted on me, I see a beautiful woman, with long blond hair, deep blue eyes, and blood red lips. Then it stops, as I'm laying on a sidwalk, with a massive pain in my neck, and relize that I've been chosen by a vampire. Before I pass out I need to see who has taken my life, and casted such a spell on me. I see her, it's the woman I saw in the field. I hope that witch gets what she deserves. Copyright ©2007 Gerald Russell Duren

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Im taken from myself and released to be free. The things in my life which now matter to me. So much I was blind to that now is revealed and walking this tight rope, my faith lets me feel. Im balanced for once. I am feeling alive. Im continuing forward. Achievement I strive. Acknowledged is the life of me that I no longer live because something was wrong and something had to give. Im now seeing mountains. I move with my eyes. I feel like the ocean. A journey of surprise.

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There you are again, brazen and bold I stand in disappointment, as my soul grows cold Your arms don't hold the warmth anymore My body shivers to the core My lips don't dance with the sound of your name I can't believe this is happening again, my body is no longer tame My soul cried out for someone to hear But, now it grows silent with no one near You used to tempt me with thoughts of forever Now all I see in you is the bonds dangling severed Your light grows dim as in twilight you stand Alone and solemn, you slowly sink in quicksand Darkness envelops my heart once again Void of emotion, the solidification begins.

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Lying in bed, I am alone. No one to hold and call my own. So, I close my eyes and what do I see? A figure of a man lying next to me. He is loving and everything that I want. But can this be real, or is it just a taunt? My imagination runs wild and images are grown, But I open my eyes, and I'm all alone.

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We once were everything Allowing others & things Destroy our Love had Tears from being sad I can only pray how Happiness you find now Even as my soul is in pain I know heartache won't remain For I am to late From saving my soul-mate

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As hes done it before a thousand times, on a Friday night, clearly he watches this pass him by, and thats time. Sipping on a drink with his brother, the car stereo blasting, its a mix between his mixtape, Snoop, 2pac and the radio. They both lay on the hood, and look up, he looks at the bottle and spills the last few drops. Hes looking out to the sky, wondering where she is, is she somewhere out there or somewhere down here? He wants answers but the questions don't go away. He keeps going on, hoping maybe someone, some how, some way, some day, but hes not ready to run away.

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Its hard to change the world, they say silence is a saviour but is it just a waste of time when you walk alone? You make no beat but that of your feet, you think maybe you can, maybe its all pretty sweet when your not down on your knees. Its a waste of time with an empty mind, its just a game inside this frame. They say one person can change it all,leave it be and watch it all crash & fall. To watch this shit get worse, fall & burn, to crash into whats left of of this. This pile, this mess, this whole worlds full of bullshit and stress, whats left? Feedback, step back,back track,

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The song goes "This is my farwell to you and I, this could all end in tradgedy." This dosnt end in tradgedy, it ends in me saying I have had enough. I do believe that truth is your poison, if you were honest, even once, it would kill you. Filled my head with these lies to many times and now this has gone on too far for way too long. Integrity. The universal trait to which I believe all people should embrace. I have had a dark past, I have spewed my share of lies. They never caught up with me, but they have caught up with you. I have lied to my friends, to the people I loved, and I live with the regret that I betrayed their trust. You have no such guilt. No such shame. This is typical of sociopathic tendancies, you only think about yourself and your own gain, you dont give a fuck about what happens to the people you manipulate and virtually destroy. "I will bid farwell, sever the ties" You left me with no other option. You have stood me up for the last time. you have spo

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Around, all around, the dark memories gather. My dread grows as the Dark One's touch falls against my neck. It wounds me, and darkly my life's blood drips to the cold, uncaring tombstones. In my madness I call your name while the end of life takes my hand. Now alone, my blood falls upon dead eyes. This is your love ©DGTFB 2007

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Thursday, October 27, 2003 Have you ever noticed the minute you are ready to give someone your heart, in that very moment your heart is broken into so many pieces you can't even count them? Yet people keep giving their hearts. In hope that someday they will find their right caregiver to mend and care for every stich. So Many find that person, but what happens to the hearts that never find their caregiver? Do they spend their life in pain, or is there peace to be found?

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AS I OPEN MY EYES AND TAKE A PEEK LOOKING INTO YOUR EYES I BECAME VERY WEAK, YOU SMILED DEEP, DEEP INTO MY SOUL... HANGING ON WITH EMOTIONS I CAN'T LET GO. I BEGIN TO GLOW AND THEN I SHINE SLOWLY I BEGIN TO LOSE MY MIND, GENTLE WHISPERED WORDS INTO MY HEART SAYING THIS MOMENT IS JUST THE START. SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL, SWEET AND TRUE IS GOING TO BE SHARED BY ME AND YOU, WE HAIL EACH OTHER DDP DOWN TO OUR PRIDE VOWING, NEVER OUR FEELINGS TO HIDE. WE KNOW THE WORLD WON'T WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY EVER, I TOOK AHOLD OF YOUR HAND, BUT YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS KNOW... WE WILL NEVER HAVE THE NEED TO LET GO.

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Her I sit, thinking only of you Wondering what is to become of us Understanding all you have been through Hoping to slowly gain your trust My heart aches for you, and also I yearn I want to understand you In hopes that I will learn Your unique and special qualities amaze me Your smile Your mind Your voice and its beautiful sound Your hair Your ability to cheer me up When you see that I am down My feelings for you go beyond that of words And at first it didn't seem real But that just taught me a lesson In doubting what I feel It seems I dreamed you into life And the reason for my stare The bluest sky The deepest sea Don't even compare Shane, you're so very special in every single way And thoughts of you Run through my head Every hour of the day In hope that you will understand Just how I feel about you I want to be your guiding hand For all that you go through

Until Eternity
I never could have imagined that it would come to this, where the lips of the only man I love another woman would kiss. Each time she puts her arms around you another little piece of my heart slowly dies, what here have you to ignore the tears that were falling from my eyes? You had made a promise to love and care for me till the end, you had sealed that vow with a kiss saying that I was your lover and best friend. But you've let the enemy of our love inspired your heart to do me wrong, now I'm left a sad and lonely woman with only the memories of a love that was once so strong. Have you ever thought of the pain I feel when I think of you, and break down and cry like a child? have you ever wonder how I get by these days without you by my side? On bended knees I had pleaded with you not to leave me this way, but it seems that you've gotten some personal satisfaction, when you walked away that day. So I'm asking you now, is there a chance or hope,

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Different things are pulling me each way, its driving me nuts inside each day & each night. I hate how it feels, maybe its part of a plan, I just don't know at this point, maybe I'll never understand. Different people are calling me, maybe thats what it takes for the falling of me, or my perspective should change. So much is always calling my name, the difference between ave life and shame. I'll zone in and out again, I hope you choke on bullshit like gimmicks once again.

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I love that look that would be in your eyes right before you blindfold me I love that feel of surrendering to you Just as much as when you would surrender to me Love and lust are intertwined as one Keeping us all wanting for new times to come Pain and pleasure meet at a thin line Knowing not to cross it will let you know your mine. It’s not about being submissive or dominant It’s all about knowing what you love down deep inside I think the true fun comes in knowing that it’s fun to switch sides This all runs deep inside me a dark side made for fun Would you like to come and play with me one day? Do you want to have some fun? Would you like to feel a joy so complete? Just reach out and take my hand I will lead you to my wicked, wicked little play land …. Poetry In Motion “Mario” http://www.myspace.com/dying_poet http://blog.myspace.com/dying_poet

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I love that look that would be in your eyes right before you blindfold me I love that feel of surrendering to you Just as much as when you would surrender to me Love and lust are intertwined as one Keeping us all wanting new times to come Pain and pleasure meet at a thin line Knowing not to cross it will let you know your mine. It’s not about being submissive or dominant It’s all about knowing what you love down deep inside I think the true fun comes by knowing when to switch sides This all runs deep inside me a dark side made for fun Would you like to come and play with me one day? Do you want to have some fun? Would you like to feel a joy so complete? Just reach out and take my hand I will lead you to my wicked, wicked little play land …. Poetry In Motion “Mario” http://www.myspace.com/dying_poet http://blog.myspace.com/dying_poet

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How much shits going on all over the world? How few people are dying all the time? How few people care about all of this and care about themselves only? Its funny, I thought people would care about things like AIDS,drug addiction and all that but whats really going on? Very little, and it makes me sick, we've got bag ladies on street corners, kids with only one parent,people who've got no jobs and welfare but we don't care enough to fix it. I am seriously let down and disgusted by all this, so all this gov't bullshit you read about how we're doing this and doing that for all these problems, use common sense. All this Walmart and Starbucks corpocracy control shit via money and power angers me beyond belief. We've got kids on drug cocktails (no I don't mean illegal drugs you fucking dumbass bastards, I'm talking the prescribed bullshit)and we turn our kids into fucking zombies cause some pill pusher claims to know this is the best for them. Then we've got all this online drama bulls

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far from home people all around but i feel so alone no hand reaching out to hold me familiar faces i know they are there no words of kindness to ease this depression across the room, my heart on the floor under my loves feet opression

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The fear is in your Heart indtead of in Your eyes. It's the hateful And angry words You say that I have Dispised. If it's one thing I know, it's how Much you don't want to Let go. You can Push Your feelings away As much as you want... But no matter How hard you Try and fight and Whine, complain... Your love for me is Still there, the way I see it... It's plain and visable.

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We no longer live in a world of free thinking, instead we are lead by the media and the Jews who control it. No longer are we able to stand up and speak out against the atrocities which are committed against us on a daily basis, no longer can we seek guidance from the very people we place into positions of power and we as a nation have lost all hope for standing alone and cutting all ties with Israel and their war tendencies. Today we as a nation no longer are allowed to have a sense of self worth and a sense of isolationist policies, no longer are we allowed to pick and choose which laws we pass and which laws we enforce. Today we as a nation are becoming weaker by the minute, we are loosing good men and women in protecting Israel and we are being lead by a politician who has very little clue as to what he is doing. I do believe that he is a half way decent war president, but I do not agree with his argument to supply more funds instead of pulling our hard working life risking men

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Untitled~~~~~~~~ Suit of armor~ Bullet proof~ Dented but not damaged~ Protected from you~ Encased in steel~ My heart stays strong~ Words shot from your mouth~ Your weapon of choice~ An attempt to cause harm~ Each one deflected~ Cast to a pile~ Like used shot gun shells~ Empty and worthless~ Numb to you~ I feel no pain~ A smile on my face~ Proves I dont care~ Say what you want~ Believe what you will~ My mind is powerful~ Sharp shooter no more~ Put away your arrows~ Drop down your blade~ Look in my direction~ See your reflection~ The defeat is on your face~ Take all your shit~ All your lies~ Just turn around~ No time for goodbyes~ Be on your way~ For I am protected~ By this suit of gray~ Written by Melody 3-21-07

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Don't leave me broken hearted... Don't leave me sad and blue... I know what I want in life, I know I need you. Don't walk away an forget, All the love we shared... Because through it all, You were the only one who really cared. You are my life, You are my dreams... You're the moon, the stars, my solid ground, And everything in between. You make even the darkest days seem bright, My nights are filled with dreams of you... You say you love me, I love you too. If I could take back the hurtful words, Believe me, I would... But you and I both know, Even if I tried, I never could. I wish you could hold me in your arms, And whisper sweet nothings in my ear... Tell me your dreams and wishes... Tell me what I need to hear. I need you in my life, I need you here with me. You fill me with so much joy, I never want you to leave. Your kiss, your touch, Without you, where would I be? Lost and confused, broken and bruised... You are the only one I want wi

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AS WE GOT TO WHERE WE WERE GOING,WE BOTH WERE SWEATING LIKE MAD,AS WE TURNED TO FACE ONE ANOTHER WE WATCHED EACH OTHER STRIP,SHE WAS DONE IN SECONDS,BEFORE I EVEN HAD MY SHOES OFF SHE LEANED AGAINST THE OLD FALLEN OAK TREE AND STARTED RUBBING HER BREAST WITH ONE HAND,AND WITH THE OTHER SHE RUBBED HER HOT SWEATY PUSSY,AND MOANING LIGHTLY IN SOFT WORDS.DO YOU LIKE WHAT YOU SEE?I SAID HELL YEAH,AS I TOOK OFF THE LAST PART OF MY CLOTHING,DROPPING TO MY KNEES,BETWEEN HER THIGHS AND STARTED LICKING AROUND HER PUSSY,AND PLAYING WITH HER BEAUTIFUL ASS,WITH MY HANDSI BRING ONE HAND AROUND TO SPREAD HER HOT JUICY PUSSY LIPS APART AFTER TEASING HER FOR A SHORT HILE,AND SHOVED MY TONGUE AS FAR AS IT WOULD GO UP HER PERFECT PUSS,AFTER SHAKING IT IN HER LIKE A RATTLESNAKE AS SHE QUIVERED,SHE CAME QUICK,AND LIKE A RIVER,FLOWING ALL OVER MY TONGUE AND FACE,AS I LICKED SHE MOANED SO LOUD TO A LIGHT SCREAMING AND THEN TO THE TOP OF HER LUNGS SHE YELLED YES!YES!LICK MY PUSSY IM CUMMIN IM CUMMIN I CAN'T S

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Standing in the darkness..trying to find my place, wondering if I'll ever fit in..with the rest of the human race. Constantly having a craving..that I feel I can never subdue, I ask myself would I be accepted if everyone really knew? I know that I am different..and these feelings I must hide, this pain that hurts my heart..I must bury deep inside. The fact that I can not be the real me..stabs at me every day..and I cry at the sad thought of always having to live this way. Feeling hurt and resentment..from everyone that is around..trying to find more like me..but they're no where to be found. Wanting this agony to end..to be among others like me..if I find my true family..I will finally be free.

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Look @ your reflection, what do you want to be? What do you want to see? Lookin through the cracks, what can you see? Inside your head,your thoughts and creations ain't always your own, fears of the unknown. All that surrounds you, doesn't feel like it seems, the world you knew is just like an illusion, or a scheme. What're you afraid of, what do you want to see? You look when your eyes are closed, you see a reflection in the glass, everything below. Everyone around you, could be fake like a dream, the world could be fake like a dream. I hate my reflection, I don't like all I see. I try to look through myself, I'm afraid of me. What if the fallen, are nightmares of your own? To the world I remain unknown, I live in this bubble of who I am, what I believe and all I've seen. Nothings what it seems, all I've known, all I know could be so fake to me.

Until We Meet
Until We Meet by Syreeta Elie Until we meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."

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There's a mist before your eyes, and it hides me from you Love will never be our prize, dreams of us can't come true, you can't see me, there's a mist before your eyes. There's a barrier between us, though neither are at fault, we cannot even dent it, it's a hurdle we cant vault, I can't reach you, there's a barrier between us. There's a bond we cannot honor, and it hurts us as we part, a love that can't be kindled, that will always break my heart, I know i cant be yours, there's a bond we cannot honor. So we cannot be lovers, Not now and maybe never, We may belong to others, but my heart is yours forever, With this forsaken love.

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As the night slowly fades away, I sat and wondered what my life meant today. I sat to watch my children play, Listened to the things they say. Those about tose dear to my heart, Especailly those who are far apart. Thought about thelove you give to me, Always there, always free. Now I know that my life today, Was special in so many ways. Sherry D. Parrish Nov. 5, 2003

Untitled..(yeah Theres Alot Of Those Lol) Written 10/18/05
Connected by the unexplained.. bonded by love..Never wanting to let you go..Needing to see you, hear you, feel you in my arms..wanting to be in your heart, your soul..I've tasted your blood..I've touched your lips..Just sitting, thinking wanting more of it all...Not knowing how far it will go..only knowing..I dont want it to end.

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UNTITLED... You don't want to know me Who, without this, I'd really be Though I fell completely lost I'll hide who I am at any cost This razor, it's all that keeps me sane I know it's so lame.... But it's the truth, my deep dark secret Now, can you keep it? How twisted am I, that this is what I need That upon this self induced pain I feed You don't want to know me Who, without this, I'd really be No, I'm not okay, but I'll live for now Shhhh...don't through a cow This 'isn't serious, it's like a caffeine addiction Not a serious affliction My razor is the only friend I have Please don't laugh Because who I'd be without this, you don't want to see It feels so shameful to just be me You don't want to know me Who, without this, I'd really be Though, I feel completely lost I'll hide who I am at any cost -------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------ UNTITLED..... Blood fell down my wrists Into my hands, clenched

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EVEN THOUGH WE ARE MILES APARTS YOU ARE NEVER FAR FROM MY HEART I LOVED YOU THEN I LOVE YOU NOW ITS ALWAYS WHEN AND NEVER HOW TAKE ME BACK TO YESTERDAY ALL THE WONDERFUL THINGS YOU HAD TO SAY I LOVED YOU THEN I LOVE YOU NOW IT'S ALWAYS WHEN AND NEVER HOW I SEE YOUR EYES I FEEL YOU NEAR ALTHOUGH NOT REALLY HERE

Until We Meet
Until We Meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."

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Nobody listened Nobody cared They all just watched They all just stared I'm screaming inside And nobody knows Because I have to much pride to say so I do need help I really do But I fear that'd be asking to much of you So as I sit back Tears roll down my face I'll go off in my own little place All of this because of you I hate you I really do I cut my self to watch is bleed A little worm my heart will feed Thinking this can't be right Got so much shit on my mind I just want to find Who I really am inside I just don't know So many tears So much sorrow So much blood to shed over you I cry myself a sleep at night Just wish someone would hold me tight All I want is one wish I wish every thing was alright Or I wished someone cared Since I feel like no one does Im getting scared I don't know why I feel this way I feel like this almost every day I sit and wait For the phone to ring If it did I would probably scream Just to hear someone say my name It wou

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Wrap your hands around my neck Choke the life right out of me Make me break me Give me life You always know how to do it Bend me twist me Hold me down Take it from me Slip your fingers inside me Feel the way you make me slick Be my Daddy you know you want to Touch my naughty places in the dark Find those dark places in my heart... Here is the place you can start. © andi 2007

Until The End.....
Until The Endâ€¦â€¦.. So cleaver Whatever Iâ€™m done with these endeavors Alone I walk the winding way Here I stay Itâ€™s over No longer I feel it growing stronger I live to die another day Until I fade away I give up I give in Itâ€™s not enough It never is So I will go on until the end Weâ€™ve become Desolate Itâ€™s not enough It never is But I will go on until the end Surround me Itâ€™s easy To fall apart completely I feel you creeping up again In my head Itâ€™s over No longer I feel it growing colder I knew this day would come to end So let this life begin Why give up Why give in Itâ€™s not enough It never is So I will go on until the end Weâ€™ve become Desolate Itâ€™s not enough It never is I will go on until the end Iâ€™ve lost my way Iâ€™ve lost my way But I will go on until the end Living is

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Heading to lay down on the couch, I am still sick and can't live on the computer all night, lol! Would love some rates and comments Hugs and kisses, Wonder Woman AKA Jen and Prince Zachary

Until Eternity
Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees; a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching,

Until I Had You
Until i had you life was unbearable until i had you love was lost until i had you my heart was breaking until i had you fear of life was gone now i have you life is joy now i have you love is here now i have you my heart is pumping now i have you the life is glowing

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Two in a week, the muscles are starting to strengthen again. :) A calculated reflex in case of emergency. Just a way to stack the decks so nobody else can see the weakness hidden just below the surface of my shell, behind the curtain of the show I can't bring myself to tell.

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When I am alone with my thoughts, I think of you. When I am beaten by my fears, I scream for you. When loneliness is banging against my heart, I yearn for you. Why do you do this to me? Promise me forever, but then you go away? Are you coming back? That I'll never know. Only one this is certain though. Even though you walked away, I can't let go.

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I hate that you changed. I hate that you’re the same. I hate that you left. I hate how you’ve stayed. I hate how I cry. I hate how you make me smile. I hate how I miss you. I hate how I feel. I hate how it hurts. I hate that it’s my fault. I hate that it’s yours. I hate that I can’t be around you. I hate how I’ve lost you. I hate how I’ve found out who you really are. I hate that I can’t tell you any of this. But most of all, I hate how I can’t hate you, Not even a little. I hate how I still love you

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We kissed in shattered mirrors and romanced in the grey ashes. Writing our names across the city like a burning effigy of love. Holding hands as the sun stagnated over the horrizon. Bitter sweet memories of better past time settling themselves on bitten tongues and tasting like burning leaves. The cinders fell around us like snow. The sound of breaking hearts destroying the calm quiet. Fallen stars clung to your face glistening like tears of joy. The marquee read ' true love is forever.' Child like wonderment filled us as we carved our names into the dirt preserving the unspoken promise we made. We kissed in shattered mirrors... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ By moi

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This place that I call home Is certainly not the place I want to continue to roam This gothic no where, Is the place in which I am, but I would rather be there... In HELL Can't you just tell I scar myself so I can see That this truely is not the place for me to be I should be dead, I should've died But instead I have only cried If only you knew just how much i want to die When you tried to kill me, it was the one thing I looked forward to, to let my soul fly To the bright pits of HELL And if ya miss me, oh well Cause you never showed your love to me Now you'll know I was serious, now maybe you'll see

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We are fighting, Your changing me. .. She couldnt talk I feel guilty I'm always here no This is the end Why, can i hug you ? no It is the end But how can you say that Dont forget me I am alone

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I can't help it ... because for you I shed a million tears, Now that we parted, I admit it was my biggest fear Anger and resentment are hard to wash away Loneliness and heartache are now here to stay The pain and grief make me feel so alone Since you're not by my side, this no longer feels like home I believed that you truly loved me, hard to accept I was wrong What a fool I was - to live in this deception for so long Now all my heart can do is mourn your loss with a noiseless call It's just useless because the cries are locked within 4 walls So the tears start flowing, no matter how hard I try So difficult to know you never loved me Like a neglected rose - I wither up and die

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Live every moment of life to the fullest each day Given that we're on borrowed itme, and not meant to stay Life is a source of experience to be lived to, not survived Experiencing all the ordinary moments that constantly arrive "Someday" and "One day" should be carefully thought Don't you think every event should be experienced and sought? Putting things off for another time are left up to chance Relax ans cherish everything around you - live it all, and not at a glance All things are worth the time - seeing, listening and doing it today Because tomorrow simply seems to be uncertain, it's so far away Don't say "One of these days" and leave it for another time Believing everything in life will constantly be fine Tell your family how much they are treasured and the love you feel Open your heart, laugh at a joke and always keep it real Remember not to leave for tomorrow all you meant to do Make everyday special, any and everythni

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I KNOW YOU CARE BUT IS THIS I ASK OF YOU A DARE YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME BUT DO I REALLY CARE YOU KNOW I CARE BUT IS THIS YOU ASK OF ME REALLY A DARE YOU SAY I'M THE WORLD BUT TO THE WORLD I'M JUST ME YOU SAY I'M EVERYTHING BUT IS EVERYTHING WHAT YOU REALLY WANT IN ME I SAY I LOVE YOU BUT DO YOU HEAR WHAT I MEAN YOU SAY YOU LISTEN BUT DO YOU HEAR ME CRY OUT TO YOU OR WERE YOU JUST TO BUSY TO PAY ATTENTION TO ME MY HEART BELONGS TO YOU YOU HOLD THE KEY SO BE GENTLE TO THEE MY HEART IS AS FRAGILE AS CAN BE SO PLEASE TAKE CARE OF ME!

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Fear is a place we go when we don't know fear is the man in the shadows behind that bush or that memory or that time walking in the peace of the streetlights down the sidewalk waiting for fear to jump out grab us and pull us deeper into the metaphor just close your eyes and get lost in the metaphor of blue skies and fearless dreams

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Oh why do i feel this way I feel like this night and day I really try push this feeling a side but this feeling i have turns in me like knives This feeling i have it is not love It is the worse one of I am lonely I am empty I feel this way often and plenty I want love i want romance I want a woman that likes to dance I want a woman to kiss and hold me Because I never want to feel this empty or lonely

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Lost in a sea of dreaming, wondering what it would be like.. You know, your still in my heart. Broken and battered, it withered without your light. You showed it so much... how to rise and fall. Utterly alone, I live my life without. You left me here with my suffering Was I not enough? Was I not your heart’s longing as well? The day has become darkest night, under a cold resentful moon. What do I do now? The ashes of my heart blown out to sea.

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.untitled o2-o1-o7. i feel that my heart maybe riped from my chest. after the first real heartbeat i felt in my zombie state. i lay at night in this state wondering is this going to be the day that i fall back into this dark abyss. i wonder if it was something that i did to have this feelin that i belong in this abyss. with my wiccan ways. is there a speel or charm i ma cast over your eyes to show that i maybe the right one. but with thise wiccan ways can only show you what i want you to see. but with that i still wouldn't know where your heart truely laid. now i ask...... DO YOU EVEN KNOW?

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did you ever have that feeling that it's to good to be true. for some reason i have that feeling now. i mean i the happiest i can be. but then there are moments that i feel i may be just gettin lyed too. or it was just the fact that i have been treated like shyt in the past. i dunno. but it really fuckin bothers me that i don't know. god my mid gets the best of me. but i seriously have this gut feeling that i am goin to get ran over like a frieght train. if that happens. i am so done with people & lettin them in close. sorry just had a little thing on my mind just felt that i had to get off.

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i sit & wonder if i am goin to feel your breathe again. thtat warm gentle breathe on my ear when you whisper those sweet nothings. that warm breathe down my neck, when you kiss it so softly. that tender touch of your finger tips when you run them down my arm. you know that's my weakness. you know that takes my power away. & makes me yours. i miss the breathe down my neck. down my body as you kiss me all over with them warm lips. it's been so long since i felt that warmth. i have been feeling cold & dead for so long. i am always wondering when i get to feel that warm breathe to bring me back to life. i know one day i will. til then i have this spot saved next to me in this cold death state. your breathe, your touch. i am waiting for to bring me back alive. i just sit here ina zombie state, with my heart still beating. but only beating as half of one. i know that when your heart starts beatin next to mine. with them warm kiss from the lips of my true one. alls y

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? when i first walked in the door. ? i seen your smilin face. ? we were introduced. ? but we have knowen each other for years. ? as we sat & talked about how things used to be. ? how we all wantted to go back to that time that innocence's wasn't lost. ? but now the years have came & gone. ? as we all sat still reminising about our pasts. ? i caught you out of the croner of my eye. ? i could see that smilin face. ? i seen that look in your eyes have changed from the first time i walked through that door. ? the look you gave me across the room could've made me melt. ? but there was one thing that made me feel weird & i knew i couldn't touch. ? so i had to keep my feelings aside. ? when i heard from you a few weeks later. ? you had my mind racing. ? makin me think & feel something that i haven't felt in along time. ? then we had a chance to meet again. ? we all just sat & reminisced again. ? as the night drew to a close. ? it gave us time to be just

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The room is quiet. Too quiet. So quiet that I can hear the ticking of a clock, or the passing of traffic on the highway a quarter mile away. I sit alone at my computer. Forgotten, a cigarette burns in my hand while my cold coffee sits on the desk. A cat paws at the door from the outside, just wanting to be let in from the cold. It's cold inside too. I continues to stare at the sceen, which has gone black. The power is out. Maybe I should've payed the electric bill this week. My hands begin to shake. They've been doing that a lot more lately. A tear wells up in my eye, then escapes and travels down the side of my cheek. The cat lets out a mournful cry. The cigarette begins to smolder in the overfull ashtray. When did everything go wrong? The wind howls oustide. Lightning flickers on the horizon as a gentle rain decends upon the street. A cell phone rings in the other room. Even after all that's happened, they still know where to find me. They still need me. I have nothing le

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Sometimes I feel as if I'm the only one in the room even though there are thousands around.... Sometimes I feel as if I'm the only one alive... Sometimes I want to scream at the top of my lungs to let people know that I'm alive... Sometimes I want to curl up into a ball and bury myself into a big hole... Sometimes I want to lock myself in a room and never come out... Sometimes I want to cut open my chest and give you the only thing that is pure... Sometimes I want to become invisible to see if you would even miss me.... Sometimes I just want to die!

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glaring deep into black eyes the soul of this helpless person disappears... the same cheery woman becomes evil and bitter she doesn't show it revenge is planning building up inside the hatred enters closely to the surface black rays grow murky non-transparent tightly squeezing her lips together squinting to see their weakness she dispurses of them...

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I never thought hat I would lose my mind That I could control this I would bring down the moon and sun To show how much I care Don't want to lose you now I know we can win this Don't want to lose you now No, no, no or ever again! I've got this feeling you're not going to stay It's burning within me The fear of losing Of slipping away It just keeps getting closer Your face just never wants to go away Don't want to lose to loneliness I know we can win Don't want to lose to emptiness Never again!

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I'm lost in my own mind This world won't let me unbind Myself from the painful heartaches My skin is on fire its baked I blink one you're there I blink again you're scarce Fighting with the demons All I'm doing is screaming Reaching for the one helpful kind But miss and fall far from the sky Just one more shot, all I need is one more prick I close my eyes, your face is what sticks Clawing at my neck, gasping for air All I notice is that I don't care I don't care about you, I don't care about my I don't care about these eyes to help me see See what I've done As I grab ahold of this gun Pointing at her, pointing at him Pointing at me just hoping I"ll slip Redp pours out like the fountain of youth I hope by now you're getting the scoop I don't care about you, I don't care about me I don't care about these eyes to help me see Tearing of the flesh I stab again Wish I knew how and where this all be

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To have you gone from my life brings utter saddness I can't bare the thought of the dying heart It feels like only yesterday you held me for the first time But as you are slowly slipping away, your shadow fades Running after the fast-paced train down the tracks of heartache You suddenly disappear from my vision Remembering thodr chocolate glazed eyes staring back at me Feeling that warm rush of anxiety flowing through my body Your gentle touch caresses my soft skin with every stroke Goosebumps grow as a cold chill hovers over me Longing to have you right here beside me Aches more and more as the days go by Your gentle kiss glides over every crevice Since being with you, my heart has grown ten times its size But i forget what it was like to be loved.

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Kill me now... Forever I am doomed... There is no faith upon thee. Images of death... Surrounding my head... Wanting to feel my heart's beat stop! Laying on the floor... MOTIONLESS Being kicked and tormented from all angels... Curling into a ball... Lying in the pool of red liquid. The moonlight peers through the dampen forest.

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I don't know how its going to sound, but as time passes I'm still workin away on this new disc, slowly, and slowly polishing it. It might be done in a day, a week or a month, I don't know when though. All I can do is put my best out on this next set and hope it flies. I don't expect to blow up, but it would be nice if I could sell more then I did when I started out. If anyone is reading this and they've heard my stuff, if you like what you've heard then please let me know. It would be nice if you bought some of my digitals, from either me directly or from a website. Also be advised that I'll be pulling a promo draw, and give away soon so let me have your names and contact info. Well, time to go back to my note pad. ~ Silver Demonix

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I'm walking away, I'm walking alone in this land of sand like a massive dune. I keep walking but I can't see where I've been, I don't see where I'm going and I wonder why. I could collapse and my actions can speak louder then words, I thought we all learned from it all, but instead maybe its not so bad to take that dive and fall. If I came as I was, would I still hear the call? Maybe its my time to go, maybe I should've died years ago, but for now what more can I do then keep on going. For now I guess thats the way it goes.

Untill You
untill you i trusted no one untill you i opened up to no one untill you i loved no one untill you i wanted no one for all time i trusted you i opened up to you i loved you i wanted to be yours for all times untill you distrusted me untill you stoped opening up to me untill you stoped loving me untill you stoped wanting me for all times

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When your heart is broken your whole life fades away slowly but surely but its bound to happen you cry yourself to sleep praying the pain will go away but when the sun rises the pain is still there eating Your heart away I try to stay positive and I try to stay strong but everything is a reminder like our favorite love song the pain is torturing, its killing me softly like the pain from a dagger ripping through my soul I trusted you with my heart but the trust was never repaired I dont know how I can forgive you for all the suffering you've made Lord knows I love you I told you all the time I just wanted you to love me back but that wasnt to be the case this time

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3/18/07 Why do I let this sadness consume me? Our love, so true, yet broken by harshness… Ill-tempered thoughts & emotions entwined with kind words that eat away at the soul, leaving not but ash… In truth, love turns a blind eye towards such malice. As ignorance kills slowly, so does your kiss, your smile, razor tongues sting thine ears with sweet, torturous lies. Broken chains bring forth breath, freedom, perseverance, & emptiness… A chasm within my heart.

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looking at something new wanting to grab ahold of it like a star in the sky it shines bright building a wall that keeps everything out afraid of being hurt by everyone around searching within my soul to find answers of questions that are asked the answeres seem unreachable i long to find that heart bending love that will make all else better

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I’ll allow you to self-destruct But don’t blame me for the mess This was your choice Lie in the bloody bed you’ve made Don’t cry for help They’re all dead to your chaos You’re all alone now Because no feels the way you do Shut up and walk it off There’s nothing left for you to whine about And no one wants to hear it

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the sky is overcast; there are no birds singing; the heavens open up and begins to cry on humanity. covering the entire landscape from sea to deplorable sea. the clouds dissapear and all you see is blackened sky, with dots on your pupils. help me, the sky's tears are stuck in my hair. the whole earth, cloudless, depressed, flooding. and this is what it has come to. it is sick an tired of watching us do nothing. nothing if it isn't for our own gain. it wants us to do something. something that isn't just for ourselves. maybe think about someone else. it watches . . . the sky. watches very closely, for it has nothing better to do. it watches us sleep. it watches us scream. it watches us use the restroom. it watches us eat, slap, scream, die, fuck, cry, shower, polish, speak, blink, earn, buy, confess, lie, steal, cheat, comit, promote, ksdhfb&jdmdofp . . . . it watches us watching it watching us watching. watching watching watching. waiting. . . . |for what|? the flood

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Let us pretend I am happy for a while, sad thought; perhaps you can persuade me though I know the contrary. If my understanding is my own truly, why is it then so quickly to dismay me and so slow to console me. Wisdom is not the know-how of subtle and vain discourse: being wise is knowing only how to choose: life. Let us learn though to be simple, else we shall find that you have glibly refined us and usurped our life's real time.

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Untitled 1 3.12.02 As I open my ears to this world I hear a strange sound, A sound that is not from my world A sound that brings sharp chills to the spine, I hear screams of pain I hear screams of pleasure The screams of this world mystafy me, They make a void in my presence They make a want in my soul, The screams make my blood boil The screams make my fantasy The screams of this world bring me pleasure.

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Untitled 2 (3.14.02) As My fingertips wander I feel many things, Some are soft and beautiful While others are sharp and jagged, As my finger-tips move ever-so I search for someth'n beautiful, Something as beautiful as this world, What I know is beatiful is now out of reach But now the beauty is gone, My hand is still extended Always reaching for the beauty Even when it no longer exists.

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I sit there, waiting. What am i waiting for? I still have yet to answer this question. Its dark in my room. Really dark. I sit on my bed and smoke a cigarette, watching the ceiling fan. Its storming out side and the rain is starting to come in threw my window. I just leave it open. Feeling the gust of wind bring in the cold rain. Reminds me of the past, when me and my fiance would walk around in it. The thunder clashing together in the clouds, almost looks like a dance. My cat jumps on my bed. Dammit. . .I dropped my cigarette. I watch it hit the wooden floor and go out from the rain. Still thinking about what I'm waiting for. What am I waiting for? Why am I here? And who is at my front door at 2:30 in the morning. I open up the door and find out what I was waiting for. I was waiting for my fiance to get home from work. But instead it was a police officer. They showed up which isn't normally a good thing. He tells me my fiance is dead. They found His car around the block from my

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I need to walk for myself, I need to look back into the mirror and take another look at myself. I know your mad, but I can't do this right now. Ask a question and hear the answer from my grapevine, maybe its my time to go, or maybe I should try to find mine. I can't finish this cause I'm too weak to speak, I doubt you'd understand but for now theres the slipping of my hand. The darkness will still be my friend, the beast might've gotten the best of me. xxx ~ Bob Cat

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I wake up in the morning. It's sunny out. Not a cloud in the sky. I go and grab the newspaper noticing that my fiance is already gone. So I walk back in the bedroom and fall asleep. i wake up when i feel a kiss on my check thinking its my cat i try to shoo it away, and then i feel a hand on my back. I jump up not knowing who it was. And its my fiance. Waiting for me to go into the shower with him. It's midnight so I get up, go to the bathroom get undressed and he is already in the shower. I get into the hot steamy water, pulling back out from the heat but he insists that i come in. So i get back in the shower making sure the water barely hits me. I turn around to get my shampoo so i can wash my hair and he starts to hold me. Caressing my body. Gently touching my breasts. He starts to play with my hair. I turn around and give him a kiss. A passionate kiss. i turn off the water from the shower we get out and he carries me to the bedroom with my legs wrapped around his waste. He sets

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well let me start of by sayin my name my name is sue lousie moore and i am 20....Ok well see i need to let this out so if i hurt anyone by this i am going to say right now that i am sry i did not mean to hurt no one...Well i am not goin to say no name's do that way there is no finger pointing,well i am so in this guy he is the most wonderful guy that i have ever meet see i have been with guys who beat me to the point that i was in the hospital,but see this guy that i am in too i know that he would never beat me or hit me and i am thankful for that and i want to say that yes there is other female's involved in this guys life and i am ok with it to a point.I am not the kind of girl who will tell a guy that he has to stop talkin to his ex's or to other female's that is just not me i just dont want them to try and take this guy from me and there is this female who i am becomein friends with and i am happy that i am i mean i have lost friends and also gain friends beacuse of this guy and i

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I wake up in the morning my fiance still asleep. I go in to the living room and turn on the T.V. They say its suppose to be sunny out today but i don't know how thats going to happen when it's cloudy and looks like it is going to rain for the third time this week. So i change the channel to cartoons. The Flintstones are on. You know the one were Dino locks him out of the house at night and he tries to open the door, when he could just go threw the window since they haven't invented glass yet. I go into the kitchen and make some coffee and start my usual Saturday morning breakfast. Pancakes, sausage, toast, and eggs. He usually doesn't get up till about 30 minuets after I do. I'm in the living eating. His food getting cold his coffee still hot he comes in and joins me. We start to talk about what we are going to do today. Giving each other suggestions. I finally go back into the bedroom and start getting dressed. I put on my socks,my pink thong, my tight jeans that show my ass, and my

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Call my name,and I'll come to you Dream of me,and I'll see you when your though Show me the mountain it takes to have you And I swear I'll reach the top That's the wonder of a fool We don't know where to stop Laugh at me,and I'll laugh right along Cause ain't it crazy just how far I've gone Just to touch you,just to see you That's the wonder of a fool Our pleasures are so few I live out hope and dreams Someday I'll fit into your grand scheme You'll find your way back around I'll be the one to set you on solid ground But time ain't gonna endear you to me And my heart won't break the chains and go free Tell me bout your crazy night out with the boys Talk about another women,the pleasure and the joy I won't cry anymore,I won't show my pain That's the wonder of a fool We think we have everything to gain Tell me lies, I'll beleive every word being said Tell me everything that ain't about you Ted Were both so good now at this game That's the wonder of us fools,who h

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As I lay here tonight Thinking about you And how happy I am That I have you in my life Its been a such a long time Since I felt this way I can only hope That this felling Wont fade away I hope its stay An that you will stay with me too For I don’t know what I would do If you were no longer in my life I cant imaging what it would be like Bet I do know one thing I think I would just die I know we have only Know each other for a short time But in this time I have grown so close to you I fell like I can tell you anything With out the fear of judgment I trust you with my life I trust you with My most darkest of secrets I love the way That you can make Me smile and laugh And when I’m at my sadist I know I can count on you To help me get though it all

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Until there was you I tried so hard to not to fall in love again until there was you and now i don't know what to do it all feels so new i cant stop thinking of you your like a song stuck in my head and when your not around i feel so dead

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Years pass me by in minutes Without you by my side Everyday I'm haunted By a love to strong to die I cant let go of this false hope I'll wait for you long after I'm gone In this life or the next,we meant to be together

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i'm dragging on eggshells, bleeding something fierce. standing on the edge of whatever this is supposed to be. -don't lose yourself in the masses- bring me dead roses, bring me salvation from your heart. in the end, there's nothing more to feel. hoard away everything you thought you could give. it's painless, for what it's worth.

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the sight of lust in my eyes as i close in, it puts me in a state of mind like nothing else is around. the smell of your scent in the wind drives me nuts as i close in on your position. your in trouble, im a fiend for your beauty, i cant have enough. your eyes drive me wild, your hair like silken strands of gold. To have and to hold you is what i strive to achieve, when shall you be mine? when will time break the barrier of the distance that holds us apart? you are too good for me, i know this, yet i cant give up now. your perfect in every sense of the word, you will be the one i cherish this i promise. im a fiend for your beauty, your in trouble, i can never have enough. your body is what i long to hold close and dear, when shall time take over and bring us near? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I walk Miles inside my soul insearch of who i am, i come empty handed with dark holes inside my past. I have lost wha

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This is a poem I wrote a few nights ago about how the man that is my husband, makes me feel most of the time. Everywhere I turn there is a shadow that falls over my head. I can't see where I am going and it's scaring me to death. Hold me close and keep me safe Tell me everything is okay. Something in me is screaming screaming to get out. I don't know what it is, or where it came from. It washed over me like a tide wave. Crushing my chest, making it hard to breathe. Take this pain away from me. Pain in my heart, is worse than any other pain I could ever feel. Though pain is what i feel when you are around. You say you love me, but you always leave me. You leave me alone and cold Wondering when you will be back. I feel I have lost you, and if I have then you have lost me too. You can't make me happy anymore, So I think I should go. Go in search of somthing better, something new and exciting. To make myself happy!

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Alone with your thoughts Lost in the moment Driven by passion Never knowing when to stop It follows you, stalks you, torments you Diving deeper into the black abyss Ever changing All knowing Seeking freedom from the thirst Ready for love Never to find it Too trusting Losing your mind Hoping, Waiting, Wishing, Flying, Falling, Drowning in silence Thriving for Lust...

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The first day I road over that hill, I could just see that I'd be with you. I knew one day I would have a chance with you. They way you touched me and held me, They way you smiled with joy, Just toom me into darkness, Where I knew I wouldn''t be alone. I just felt someone there. I knew it was you. There with your arms out to keep all that scares me in the dark away from me so I don't get harmed. I had butterflies in my tummy. Right then and there I new you were their to protect me. As time went on, The feeling of having butterflies grew stronger. I didn't want to stop those amazing butterflies down there. I waited and waited to hear those 3 words come out of your heart with meaning, with honour, with respect. Once you said " I love you", I couldn't help it but cry. Known I have someone who cares for me now. Those 3 words, echo in my head everyday. Everyday those 3 words circle around me like a lost cub trying to find it's mother. When the cub does fin it's mother, They hug eac

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alone in my obsession no one knows how to find me keep my distance from all that i love only to keep myself alive tears slide down my cheeks i sit and stare at the world around me is this what was meant for me? solitude? I feel nothing anymore but confusion hiding in my lonliness drowning my sorrows in murky water soiled and tainted by destruction my only companion myself my only hope? i don't know i have to decide do I keep going? do I stop dead and remain where i am I know nothing of the life i once had have nothing from the life i once knew i just want to be loved i just want to feel that feeling i want to be addicted to nothing but happiness to be or not to be.. is not the question i want to answer don't ask me what I am don't ask me where i went my truth is my own my soul is conflicted do I love? Can I love? am I loved? Do I need to feel? all questions i ask myself Don't pity me don't feel bad for me Don't worry about me I am who I am a

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Somewhere inside of every dream is a rainbow, not the sort of rainbow you get when the sun hits the rain, but one where a thousand lonely tear drops hit the bright rays of hope, and create a kaleidascope of uncertainty. Sometime, maybe in the past, or the future, when I was filled with such doubts, I felt the rainbow stir inside of me, a million beautiful colors, touching ever corner of my body, tingling me with energy, and anticipation, and I closed my eyes and floated on the moment, soaring over giant redwoods, like a magnificent eagle, wild, untamed, and free, looking down upon the world, seeing everything, but unshackled of it's problems. After many hours of flying, that took but the blinking of an eye, I settled on a raft in the ocean, a small wooden raft, that had floated upon the seas for all eternity, that had been floating there before you, and I, and forever were even dreamt of, and I lay there, still in the morning sun, with the gentle surf lapping just inches from my

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rain about 2 come time 2 smoke the last one smoke and clouds look the same sittin on a wooden bench bent in reflect or regret of the sexy red pet black clunky heels change the scene pasty white skin tasty fishnets kissed thick calves up 2 thighs the blk skirt said hi or was it the eyes not looking up 2 the voice then there was more black corset for that buxom chest coming down from her neck so hot, or was it the burned out cigarette? shaken fingers eyes linger 2 silver lipgloss long blk hair she tossed said r u lost? straightening up...sorry teeth perfect pearls smiling girl said do have a name i want 2 no the same since the moment u came n took me by surprise my name is jet i like 2 get wet in the rain sometimes my arms u can bind if a guy i find can please me the right way do u ride a harley? do like like morrisey? no...well i must go whoa, please don't look at wha

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These lyrics are so strong, they touch my heart deeply. They are the truest and strongest of any song I've yet heard.. The message is simple, Jesus loves you he died for you, it's about time the message is taken seriously. By: Chris Rice Title: Untitled Hymn (Come to Jesus) Weak and wounded sinner Lost and left to die O, raise your head, for love is passing by Come to Jesus Come to Jesus Come to Jesus and live! Now your burden's lifted And carried far away And precious blood has washed away the stain, so Sing to Jesus Sing to Jesus Sing to Jesus and live! And like a newborn baby Don't be afraid to crawl And remember when you walk Sometimes we fall...so Fall on Jesus Fall on Jesus Fall on Jesus and live! Sometimes the way is lonely And steep and filled with pain So if your sky is dark and pours the rain, then Cry to Jesus Cry to Jesus Cry to Jesus and live! O, and when the love spills over And music fills the night And

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Double helix stairway of questions plage my mind, following this path ensue, suggests that they rewind. Constrain unmindful thoughts into, oblivious to what they do, But still these words show no remorse. Contaminating aguished course. I'm blind to see my sorrows source. The curling smoke of surpressed candles, caused by all your obcured scandles. All your errors are so costly, yet your sentiments are lapse. Then accuse the other side, untill accusations grasp. All the offensive words you speak, and still forgiveness is what you seek? But when a fight gets dug to deep, your always first to fall asleep. Sleeping soundly? just in cause? While my heart is bleeding, patching hearts with tearing guase, While my hearts still needing. Where on this side of full regret, when words are said and fear is set. I'm drained of all until I'm weak, toss and turn can't fall asleep, opened mouth where words can't speak, I clench my chest and start to weep. And still forgiveness

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I believe whole heartedly that there is someone out in this world that is ment for us or as close to being ment for us as possible. the question is are we truly opening our hearts and minds to them or are we closing them off and looking past them with just a smile because maybe they don't meet our look standards or maybe they don't have the money in their lives like we want from the other person. Who knows. there are millions of reasons that we can come up with that will tell you why we look away from them with only being polite and having a brief conversation with them or maybe even not looking at them at all. But I know that the right one is no such thing. The real one and the one that we allow ourselves to get to know and open our minds and hearts to and allowing a physical response to happen are the ones that are ment for us. Not "The One"! Sorry. I'm not sure what got into me with that but I agree it must have needed to come out because I didn't stop typing till the end and whe

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It started with this, a lonesome summer bliss. I tried to keep it inside, but all my feelings I just can't hide. I'm just a plain simple guy, who's been keeping it inside. To cry for the special girl I love, to lie, to bleed, to die, I don't know why. Maybe she's really that special, that love will be sacrificial. There's no other way to say it, and I just can't deny it. Maybe I'm just afraid, of her reaction. I have lots of perennial moments with her, my feelings with inevitable adoration. Maybe with this beating heart, it just needs to bleed. Before I tell her, that she's the only one I need. I'm too plain and ordinary, to be with a girl like her. Those times with her, I'll cherish them forever. My poem ends here, with the feelings I have hidden, these words about her, in my heart I have written.

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Hands roam free Over endless curves Boldly exploring hidden places Work roughened hands Glide over peachy silk skin Teasing Beckoning Begging Feather kisses As soft as a whisper Tantalize Following the fiery path Blazed my wondering hands Opening to such sweet torture To be taken heart, body, soul Moving Clinging Becoming one together As temperatures rise Melding two bodies as one As the heavens crash Sweat glistened And sated….. We rest

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Stuck in a world Of blinding pain Stuck in an endless battle Between right and wrong Between life and death Between happiness and hurt Stuck in a bleak place Where light does not penetrate The dark that surrounds me An abyss of pain An abyss where a heart Should beat strong A cold empty space That can no longer be filled No happiness can be felt No love can be given No love can be received Heart broken too often Loved not enough I’ve given up on hope Given up on love Given up on life Each day is a farce A lie I live to show To those that are blind That cannot see How empty life is To me

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This is by one of my favorite poets and this poem shows you why Untitled Edna St. Vincent Millay (1892-1950) Love is not all: It is not meat nor drink Nor slumber nor a roof against the rain, Nor yet a floating spar to men that sink and rise and sink and rise and sink again. Love cannot fill the thickened lung with breath Nor clean the blood, nor set the fractured bone; Yet many a man is making friends with death even as I speak, for lack of love alone. It well may be that in a difficult hour, pinned down by need and moaning for release or nagged by want past resolutions power, I might be driven to sell you love for peace, Or trade the memory of this night for food. It may well be. I do not think I would.

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In all honesty, I am scared to face reality. What was once true love, has become distant, and for what was once found, is once again lost. Yes there is some happyness, but where is the laughter? Where is the joy between two people in love? Where is the thoughfulness of one another? Have we forgotten who we are? Can we ever fall back in love again, or are we so torn inside that this is what we will be forever? It's not much to ask for a shoulder to lean on, or a hand to hold. What is a house to build with, but no love to make a home? How can we last last forever, if the joy, love, and laughter has folded so quickly? You can make a house look so beautiful, so other's may smile opon you. You can ride to the hightest mountain, so other's may smile. But who will smile in the end, when all you have done is walk away from the one's who matters most.

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a deadly silence falls over me one i can not break alone all i can do is wonder why do i do the things i do why do i result in mutilation why do i get so depressed why cant i get you off my mind as i think about these things i hold the blade upon my skin wanting to see the blood pour from the fresh cuts i make i sit here and run the blade up and down side to side softly not adding the pressure i need to make the incision i think about... all the lies all the hate all the love all i did for each and everyone of you and how u screwed me over time and time again and how i believed you all and fell for you all so i sit here and look down and all i see is the blood flowing from my arms lik a river maybe it will clot or maybe not so i still sit here and ask myself why do i mutilate myself and all i can come up with is... its like a salvation a way to release myself from everyone and everything 5-12-07 written by bridgette m bailey

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You should have told me that it would have been the last time That we would purposefully touch. I would have pressed you into the door of your car And bit your mouth, so I could never forget how you tasted and the slippery warmth of Your tongue. Now, It is as if that night was desperate in how you finally kissed me Saying “Just one more” And not stopping for minutes.

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Untitled Bells ring in farway land Doom is close. Death at hand Hills rumble Nations crumble Green fire from the sky Super Powers die Why do we live If it's not a lie? Earth shakes at its core Love and life are no more

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A stranger you were once. Then, with a gentle look you took my hand. As our lives engaged, you lit my life and I held both your hands. Now that decades have passed, ours souls have indeed become one. How fortunate we are that we have found the love so true that everyone dreams about. - Laura Veronica Merodio -

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We sit here takling on the phone Me falling with you More and more every night Your voice and the things you say Kept deep in my heart The more we are together The happier I get I feel the warmth And the love in your touch I see the truth And loyalty in your eyes And I fall deeper The deeper I fall the More I realize That I I love you Your heart is purre The love i feel From the warmth of your touch I feel the caress From a true deep love I know tihs love is Completely true I can feel the feeling grow stronger Every time we talk Twice as strong as before I like this love That I feel I want to keep You and this feeling Forever

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in the day mouth and hands clenched tight wondering how you sleep tonight choosing to stare at the monitor... boasting to seek for null sighing behind the keyboard IM, bored n life's dull ...trying to stay invisible the true desire profile's a liar heart's on fire consuming a calling higher than yourself is it Love or is it God faith and trust today's society not who we are is it Love or is it God wasting time to keep your sanity not what you want rated G or rated X wanting passion not necessarily sex the latter grabs attention speaking about goals and spirituality aint cool, settling for a word from anyone stay with me pray with me walk in my life listen 2 me your tears roll down inside is it Love or is it God faith and trust today's society not who we are is it Love or is it God wasting time to keep your sanity not what you want in the day mouth and hands clenched tight with the person(or peace) you sleep tonight choosing t

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You came in from the shadows Into my little world Like a thief in the night You stole my heart and soul In your eyes I get lost Your arms shelter me from my nightmares Thoughts of you swim through my head My heart melts with the sound of your voice All I know is how much I love you!!!

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Witch, vampire, ogre Call me what you will Try to take my power Come get your fill It is I who serve the feast So take care what you consume For if the chalice you take is poison It shall surely be your doom ************************************************************* Blood, tepid and black Seeps from the knife in my back Trust one, the other turns Why be honest when you can eek by? Why suffer through hardship and pain When you can decieve to achieve your again? Because all know the rule of three Whatever you project comes back to thee So better to put out love that hate Or darkness and oblivion will be your fate ************************************************************* Rain drenches my heart and soul Shattered shards pierce my skin Must needs make them whole Before the red begins again Goad me if you think you must Label my imperfections Yet don't be surprized when you're crushed t

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Please forgive my monster Forgive my seething rage This is not always who I am You'll see when you turn the page I do have a fluffy side Though sometimes it's hard to see Underneath the sheilds and shadows Ever protecting me Wish you could see past the shadows Can it be you have the Sight Can you get past the steel and leather See past the darkness to my Light But no, I should remember Once I set the monster free Everyone knows the truth That the little purple monster is me

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Its building up inside of me, the love that we share. There is something inbetween us, this just isn't fair. I see the way you look at me, but then you think of her. Why do I love you, as my emotions begin to stir. I know you can't see inside of me, but you know everything I hide. I know you know how I feel, but inside you still let me die. Why can't you just open up, please take my heart that i give. Why don't you understand, that you've been my will to live. Now as I watching you, your slowly walking away. But you don't comprehend, that I JUST BARELY SURVIVED TODAY.

Until Further Advised
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Untitled: You were never within my reach... a fantasy of the heart. A warmth that spread across the miles and flourished from the start. No hope of tomorrow, only the wish of what might be... to dream of all that might have been if you and I were free. So I'll love you from afar with a heart that's full and proud and I'll cherish every moment, each bit of heaven we're allowed.

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I can't seem to get my min off of you My eyes drift away Your chocolate eyes glide across my deatures That great smile becomes a link between us I'm always remembering your first look at me As we greet each other, your palms become sweaty My smile becomes greater as I glance to you You stutter beyond imagination, your words I dismay The distinction on your voice I study Your features are beyond my dream man Hopefully, we get to notice, we like each other Maybe one day we'll get together I'm wishing I could tell you everything I see Stopping myself, I don't want to make a fool of me I want you to take my hand and kiss it face down I want you to tell me of my beauty The way your dark locks frame your face The stare of your chocolate eyes bare sensitivity The touch of your hands are so soft Expressing how your heart feels for love Your soft kiss reveals your sense of love Your touch against my skin Adds sweetness to the blend of my kindness I feel strong i

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As the moon crept from behind the darkness You look deep into my eyes Not a word was allowed. Your warm arms kept the coldness away The meaning kept my fears distant The beauty of our hearts was heard. The wind stung our teary eyes I lay my head on your shoulder A tears glides down my face I whisper "I love you" As you kiss my tender lips.

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Don't know what to say Don't know what to feel Your heart is one I want to steal. Wanting to touch Wanting to see Your soft smile Appear in my dream. You speak so sweet Your gentle words flow Just give me to words That I have come to show.

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Walking through the woods I couldn't help but to notice The way you glow When the sun rays touch you Hand in hand, we walk along the path Over the roots and dirt The sun peers through the trees Like it's spying on us Becoming anxious, my heart beats Uncontrollable, my thoughts roam The leaves sway back and forth Expecting to become free Our souls become linked From beginning to end The life we want to live Is within our grasp.

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As my salty rain drops fall from me You reach out your hand of honesty Grasping me as if there was no tomorrow Taking away this pain and sorrow A quick look back and you could be gone I tightly close my eyes and wait for dawn.

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You wake to find her eyes still closed You want to kiss her but don't want to impose Stroking her long beautiful hair Touching her skin that is fair. Just to see her face Just to taste her lips You'd walk a thousand days.

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i see the love in your eyes and it sure doesnt tell any lies just like the way you hold me close it's so strong i overdose and when your gone i wish you were here every time i close my eyes your the face i see with your arms spread out and ready for me i long for every kiss and every warm embrace but all i do is close my eyes and theres no more missing you for you is what i see i cant wait for the day that you are mine just like so many years ago but as time goes by i still love you and thats why the singing doves fly i think about you everyday and wonder if you do the same but all in all as years gone by you will someday soon always be mine like years ago as so it should be to forget we parted becuase that will never ever be your in my heart and thats where u'll stay forever in my thoughts and at night when i pray i loved you then i love you now and u'll always be my lover,best friend,and ur married to my heart for ever and always trin,

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Some things should never happen, Some things just aren't meant to be. I still don't see why you left, You should still be here with me. All that's left are the memories There are many things I wish I could change. I keep replaying that day in my head, But the ending remains the same. There was a bright future in store, Many things left undone. I can't believe you're gone, Your life had only just begun. So now I lay here, Wondering why. They say there's a reason for everything, But the one for why you're gone, I can't seem to find. Never again will I hear your laugh, Never again will I see your face. This awful thing is permanent, The ending we can't erase. So we all want you to know That you were loved by all of us This thing is a mess, And maybe one day we'll awake from this nightmare.

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UNTITLED 1 SOMETIMES THINGS ARE LOST ON ME LIKE WHY THE ANGEL’S BLOOD STAINS THE STREET??? OR WHY THE FLOOD MUST BE SO DEEP??? SOME THINGS I’LL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW DOES THE DEAF CHILD KNOW HOW LOUD TO WAIL??? THE BURIED SOLDIER DIED FOR LAND??? OR DID THE DEVIL FALL OR FAIL???

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UNTITLED 2 I DON’T NEED NO PRAYING HANDS OR JESUS’ IMAGE AS A MAN I DON’T NEED NO CROSS FASHIONED IN GOLD I DON’T NEED GOD’S NAME IN HEBREW WORDS I DON’T NEED NO HAJJ AROUND THE WORLD OR KNEEL BEFORE METEOR STONES I DON’T NEED NOTHING TO NOT FORGET I WEAR GOD IN MY STEP MY SIGHT, MY TOUCH, MY TASTE AND FEEL I KEEP GOD IN MY EAR EZ10

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Imprisoned splendor Croons an idle song, slipping Trammels form my soul. In my frail canoe I struggle to cross the sea Of change in a fog. I turned off the light In my yard and was surprised At stars in the sky.

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A builder builded a temple; He wrought with care and skill:- Pillars and groins and arches Were fashioned to meet his will; And men said when they saw its beauty: “It shall never know decay. Great is thy skill, O builder, Thy fame shall endure.” A teacher builded a temple; She wrought it with skill and care;- Forming each pillar with patience, Laying each stone with prayer. None saw the unceasing effort; None knew of the marvelous plan; For the temple the teacher builded Was unseen by the eyes of man. Gone is the builder’s temple;- Crumbled into dust,- Pillar and groin and arches Food for the consuming rust; But the temple the teacher builded Shall endure while the ages roll;- For that beautiful, unseen temple Was a child’s immortal soul.

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As your lips take mine to play Hands roam free over Silken skin Electricity sizzles on this cloudy day As we take each other in Touches bring heat That fan the flames Of such newborn desire Fingers trace along lines in lace Surging to life this burning fire Your brown eyes piercing As you steal into my soul I feel you fill me so completely Threatening to consume me whole

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Untitled 3 (11.11.04) A world covered in darkness, Never seeing light. A glimmer of light sparkles In the distance. A figure appears Within the light. The world slowly Becomes lit. New wonders arise While darkness withers. Love and beauty Are seen across the world. A world of darkness no longer, Only a world of beauty.

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I miss you like clouds miss the rain bellies once full now emptied again once full as a mother awaiting birth relieved of life as it waters the earth, the thirsty earth will nourish on your sweet. I walk through cool grass in bare feet. I miss you like sunshine before the rain that warmed my skin and bleached each stain.

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There was a time when I sat alone. My heart lonely and made of stone. Thoughts floating like leaves on a river. I was always the one that was the giver. An island unto myself relying on none. Hoping and praying to find that one. One that would stand the test of time. Fight the demons to become mine. Moving through the maze I created. To save myself from being jaded. You knocked down walls at every turn. Are you the one for which my heart burns? Stand beside me, take my hand. While the years race by like falling sand. Be my lover, my friend, my life. Be my rock my pillow in all the strife. Have my heart its yours to take. Happiness, misery every other emotion to make.

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The people surround us, Watch as if they know. They see the tears, Shining in my eyes. You act as if you don't realize The pain that I show. Love has blinded you, Past the point of reconignition, Past the point of no return Past the point of sanity. You stood there and watched me die, You stood there and watched me drown. But now... I will live eternally in your mind, your heart, your soul, your life..... Will you ignore me and pretend I dont exist, Or embrace the truth that lies before you? I am here, I am now, I am that thing that will not stop till it drives you mad...

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If destiny was a rising sun I could stare my fate right into the sand They say you don't get far without the Good Lord by your side I say he left this child to walk a mile alone This pendulum of open doors and closed minds Cuts right down to the core of my being Selfish soul desire Nobody will ever know I wake up with my will at my feet Somethin tells me to look up But this crown carries a heavy load Promises are very convincing But I know I gotta keep moving on

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I have black lights and candles glowing, to try and recreate the love growing. Even cooking, and drinking all the beer, has me feeling yet another tear. I sit here thinking, up all night, all upset and feeling uptight. All my wants, dreams and needs, seem like just a bunch of little seeds. Seeds that need my true love, the one more precious than life above. No matter what tough times bring, my heart is filled with love that sings. So much love and definitely pure, I thought we'd be together for sure. I It's you baby,I write this letter to, without you here, I feel so blue. i close my eyes and you're in my dreams, but when I awake, I"m torn at the seams. All this sweetheart, sure breaks my heart, I tried to tell you I liked you right from the start. People never wanted to believe we'd make it, It's come to this; I don't give a shit! You're the one I truly love, I'll tell everyone below, between and up above. BL 1

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Sometimes life is full of twists and turns, always seeming as if everything burns. Why does it seem as if the Lord makes us pay tolls, or maybe it's the devil taking our soul? Who the hell am I to judge or question, but why can't I just once make a suggestion? Get along, love, trust and believe, It's not that hard a concept to conceive. Put yourself forward and take a stand, or if you need to, just ask for a hand. If thought about, it's not at all that hard, Just pull your head out of your ass, don't be a retard. Life does have tons of twists and turns, It'll be alright,if we realize: It's All it concerns. BL 12/17/05

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I’m trying my best to get away I don’t know what else I can do or say I’m doing this all on my own Going as fast as I can all alone Without and help or encouraging words I guess my speed is only at two-thirds I’m moving slow, my body can’t take much more As it is already most days I am quite sore My love for you has already stopped growing No feelings for me are you showing I will never stop loving you, so never fear But, will I ever pull you near As things stand now it’s something I doubt Though if I’m wrong I’d surely shout I would surely shout for glee If only you were loving me.

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In stasis, immobile The air presses against my chest My feet stand in stagnant tears. My thoughts wait for escape. With nowhere to go, they sit. No one willing to invite the torrent that fills my mind.

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You came into my life unexpectedly, and everything took a turn for the better. Your warm eyes, your laugh, the sincere way you speak, and the kindness you showed me, all became a part of my life. As you unfolded yourself to me, I discovered more and more beauty. I have never seen so much gentleness in one person. Without even knowing it, you were slowly making a place for yourself in my heart. It used to seem so hard at times to feel so close in a relationship. But it’s so easy to feel close to you. I can’t tell you how nice that feels. I realize now that I had never known what it meant to be loved until I was loved by you. - Laura Baker -

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My biggest personal accomplishment is that I'm still here. Scathed, but still standing, I'm brave, but I still fear, Showing my true feelings, afraid you might hear, My heart speak the language, then no more are we near. Let me make this real clear, my pride I hold dear. Felt like I was thrown in the fire and left there to sear. Felt my spirit burn, while flames evaporated my tears. And it burned up that thing that I said that I hold dear. I was stabbed in the back, must've separated my spine. Because all the pain that remains left me emotionally paralyzed. I cant move forward cuz of what I left behind. And I cant go back cuz now its lost in time. One day I might find, the passion that I once had. I just need the courage to put my hand out and grab. But I'm not sure if I deserve it, and I know that sounds bad, But I cant look past the pain and the sorrow and the reasons I'm mad.

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I wrote this a little bit ago. I just let the words flow from my mind and spirit. Take from it what you will and leave the rest As of now, it does not have a title. ---------------------------- {Untilted} night walker - dream stalker; passion thrills - neglect kills. surrender a must- abandonment a bust. which way do you know? which way will you go? love leads- lust bleeds body impales, spirit prevails. pulse throbs within your mind; heart tortures your soul blind. follow your guide to the end- leave your knowledge at the bend. which way do you know? which way will you go? come to the part where your life must start; continue on less you mission falls apart. heal your way whole- give up the pain that lies in your soul; don't think your way here- drown your pride in your fear. which way do you know? which way will you go? heroes come and go- villians alwa

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The wall comes too soon But I'm truly ready you should know A single tear escapes the wipe Logic seeps in far too slow Maybe caring is for nothing When all I gave is lost Collided worlds now seperate Yes it was worth it's cost

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I reach for you You've turned away I ask your heart And you won't say Not a single word The silence clear Not here beside me Or anywhere near Restrained emotions Encased in fear No way to reach you No words left to hear Quietly weighted Moments pass on Nights empty bleakness Won't break with the dawn.

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We love the smallest things Yet we never notice they're there We get attached to them yet we don't see them until they fade away Its not until we see them for the very last time That our eyes get watery That empty tears fall down We live with the thought That they'll always be there We think we never have to say "I love you" That we'll have time later to show them we care Yet in a time so short they just slip away And we're left with the feeling of loneliness And the urge to yell "I miss you, come back!" We never know what we have until we have lost it Like the wise men say So when you still have them Tell them you love them Show them you care Don't wait till the next day Because that next day might be the day- the day they fade away..…

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Get More at COMMENTYOU.com MY LITTLE GIRL IS GONNA BE 2 TOMORROW. DAMNS I FEEL SAD THAT SHE IS NO LONGER A BABY. SHE IS SO INDEPENDANT ITS STOOPID. I HATE IT THAT SHE IS GROWING UP TOO QUICKLY. WHY DO THE FIRST FEW YEARS GO SO FAST. IT SUCKS. I WANT ANOTHER ONE BUT I'M DIETING SO I CAN HAVE A REALLY HEALTHY PREGANCY AND SO I DON'T HAVE ALL THE PROBLEMS I DID WITH MY LAST ONE. I WISH THE FIRST YEARS WENT A LITTLE SLOWER SO YOU COULD APPRECIATE THEM MORE. PREGANCY IS AWESOME ITS FILLED WITH EXCITEMENT RITUAL VISITS TO THE HOSPITAL FOR CHECK UPS EVERYTHING IS PLANNED FOR GRANDPARENT'S EXCITED ANTICIPATION NOTHING IS GONNA BE AS IT WAS AWARE OF THE CHANGES IN YOUR BODY NEVER MISSING A BEAT CATCHING UP ON STUFF YOU FEEL THE BABY MOVE........

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I peek out of my shell for I'm starting to come out. My life is staring to look up cause friends are givin me a shout. They care bout me enough to see me through. You do for me and I'll do for you.

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I lay in bed all alone, all i can think about is you, I want to be held, but i want to be held by you, i want to be kissed, but i only want kisses from you, but you are too far away. I love you and i need you, i want to cuddle, but we can't just yet, i want to feel your body, we just have to wait, but still you are too far away. Together forever is all that i want, we shall be together soon, i want to feel you breath on my neck, i want to feel all the wonderful things in life with you, but for now you are too far away, But soon together forever we shall be...

Until We Meet
Until we meet My nights will be a little colder My days a little shorter My heart will beat a little less rapid Until we meet I know that my arms will be empty My mind hurting from the constant thought of you Minutes will seem to be hours Hours will seem to be months While months will seem like eternity Until we meet The stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of life Until I am gazing at them in your arms And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing Until it is you that I share the my food with And Until we meet I will not feel whole My world will seem incomplete Until that wonderful day When our eyes make first contact And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song "Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."

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Whisper to me and tantalize this woman with a touch full of depth and desire as your strong hands caress my body. Lingering fingers over my heart while your eyes devour mine in an embrace full of hunger. Entwining our bodies in a wild promise of truth and fantasy, forever aching for release. Shining bright and beautiful, we lay there warming in the sun's light, bathing our fevered body's in its rays. Soak up this sacred bond between your soul and mine. Rely on the promise that it will remain for all time.

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What did we do wrong? Who was the one who made the mistake? Why couldn't we have stayed okay? I thought what we had was perfect Now I yearn for yesterday If only I could go back in time And stop all the pain you caused They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger But I don't believe in that any longer Because I can't seem to move on with the courage I once had How can something so good turn out so bad? Now my plastic fake world has shattered Leaving only the harsh reality behind I can't get over the fact that you're gone If I could turn back the clock To the time when the sun was still shining But why am I trying to fool myself? I can't rewrite the past, it has already been said and done They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger But I don't believe in that any longer Because I can't seem to move on with the courage I once had How can something so good turn out so bad? I have to find a way to get over this heartache I used to feel so strong, b

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If love created my happiness Hate will create my pain You may have broken my heart But my love for you will remain I know you cherish your freedom But just don't walk away I know we both need breathing room But why does it seem so easy for you to stray? You said you needed to slow things down But they seem to have come to a permanent stop Is that what you meant by letting things grow between us? By never letting us talk? If love equals suffering Why do I want it so much? If hate equals peace Why do I resist its touch? I feel like I'm close to the edge About to fall from the precipice I need to harden my heart So I came to you for the recipe I've come to you I seek you out How can I learn to be as insensitive as you? How can I easily snuff my emotions out? Explain to me just how things fell apart between us For I force myself through everyday I tried to be "the one," your everything But you just walked away You can't forget about me No matter h

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I've become the fallen I've become the blind Blinded by from what I've just seen From what I've seen could be described as beauty And yet my heart can't tell what that means Raging hunger Love and lust They boild within But I shall not release For all I feel must stay in silence And all I feel must rest in peace It never cease But needs to stay quiet So wild and hungry Yet kept in a cage Thank the heavens that it is not anger For anger hard to control once tempt by rage I look inside you to see the same Cause if its not Then my feelings die in vain No love to catch mewhen I start falling For when I land, all that I'll feel is pain So lady of beauty Please take my hand Through what we can't see But sure can feel And part my lips with the presence of yours And tell me the love I found is real.

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untitled In a field there I stand Looking east and west I see nothing I see no one Remembering back Back when I was surrounded Friends and family To many to count What happened? The feeling of love Happiness and harmony But in the blink of an eye I�m all alone My family has moved No longer do I fit My friends have wandered away Noting to smile about Nothing to love All alone in my world Where�d I go wrong? An outcast in life.

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Don't read without tissues because it will make you cry if you have a heart. Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees; a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last t

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I open my eyes I try to see but i'm blinded By the white light I can't remember how I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight And i can't stand the pain And i can't make it go away No i can't stand the pain How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes Got nowhere to run The night goes on As i'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me? Everybody's screaming I try to make a sound But no one hears me I'm slipping off the edge I'm hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again So i try to hold onto a time When nothing mattered And i can't explain what happened And i can't erase the things that i've done No i can't How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes Got nowhere to run The night goes on As i'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes Got nowhere to run The night goes on As i'm fading away I'm sick of this life I

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So it seems that everything is where it should be. As far as things that were once going shitty for me. They're all now better, or just gone period, which is good. Now Im able to sleep better at night and not be so damn down anymore. [pat on the back] Most of you may have not noticed, period, that I was going through a very tough and stupid situation here in this local area. Which is good. Not that I have something to hide, but I think Im not a big boy and can handle times like these by myself. And from the looks of it, things have been up and down but has shyt gotten to the point where I have to be beggin on my knees for help? No. Certainly not. Its all good. For the ones I HAVE gone to for some advice and words of wisdom, thank you. Deeply grateful for it all. Well, recently, things have been pretty odd. I say "odd" because things have been working out not in its usual way. To get more specific, Im seeing signs. I mean, theres always signs that tell us whats good and bad and if w

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i hate the fact that everyone uses me the fact that everyone abuses me for i am only 1 person and cant do everything for everyone i shed a tear but noone sees for they think i am so strong but i am weak on the inside i lie and say im fine and turn the other cheek i hold my head up high and pretend its just a dream i will not let this get me down for i will hold on strong i will do this all my own as i have done before i will carry on and let this slide for i once was a weak child but now i am strong and can carry on my own i shall not ask anyone for help nor will i for comfort so i say my good byes for i will not be returning to you

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Don't ask me to stay because I won't, don't ask me to love you because I can't. I've tried so hard to make myself love you, but you can't make your heart feel something it won't. Why do you ask me to stay? I already told you I have to leave. Don't tell me you love me, I can't handle hearing that. I'm so confused about what I want, all I know is that I need to go. A chance to think, to sort my thoughts, that's what I really need right now. That chance will come very soon, and I know I'll be doing alot of thinking then. Maybe I'll realize that I really do need you, that I've just been ignorant these past few months. Then again, I could find what I want, what I've only dreamed of... When I find my destiny, I'll let you in on it. For now I just have a favor- a simple thing to ask you- Don't ask me to stay, for I can't, don't ask me to love you, for I won't.

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I can’t take anymore. Liquor and cigarettes call me back, they want me back everyday and I want relief cause all I do, and all I’ve done is spit on. Its been shit on, so I grin and smile, and keep the violent temptations deep inside. Bottled up, all I’ve done is never enough. Attacked but you don’t care how I feel. Things change, come and go, told by you to forget about my goals and to let them go. I can’t do that, its something I refuse to do, so fuck you. I can’t conform, and act, or do what you want to do. I can’t be that way cause I’m not you. You told me after that night I rapped on stage "Get a job, move on and grow up", now thats something you know I just won’t do. I refuse to stop what I do, either accept it or fuck off and fuck you, or respect it don’t push me till I regret it.

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I am yours, If you'll have me. Just never leave, Me to be. All you have, To ever do. Is take me by the hand, And always be you. I'll stay always, Right by your side. And never leave, No matter how wide. You can always be, My only sweetie. And I would be, Forever your baby. Together we could, Take on the world. And be fore each other, Our only true lovers. I'd do anything, To make you happy. And always be, There when you need me. I don't know how, You feel inside. But I do know, For you I'd gladly die. Give me a chance, And you will see. Jus how much you've , Come to mean to me.

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Theres one person, On this earth. For whome we're, Ment to be. But I can't help, ut to wonder. If I'll find the, One ment for me. Charming, kind, Enduring to say the least. Funny, Sweet, A gentalman through. Shall I dare to hope, And even to dream. That I've found him, In you?

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How can life, Be so unfair? I wish I could see, You standing there. Your gorgeous eyes, And wonderful smile. Could be seen for more, Than 10 country mile. I can't wait for, Us to meet. Dare I believe, This more than a dream. I long to hold, Your hand in mine. And kiss you, Each and every night. Past lives that seem, To Coincide. Could you be the one, To righten my life?

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I feel closer to you, Than I do to anyone. And with each passing day, I hope we'll never be done. Learning more each day, About who you are. You maybe shy, But you shine brigher than the stars. I know I haven't, Meet you yet. But adore you I will, That is my bet. Stay sweet always, I really hope you do. And always be yourself, I expect no more of you. You're my sweetie, I hope you always will be. And I will always be around, When ever you need me.