Ok so something is wrong in my world lately!!!!!!! I just have no clue what is going on my mood is funky and I'm just not my normal happy self. It really does suck. It just feels like I'm a door mat and I have the word SUCKER tattoed accross my forehead which I know I have both those words there somewhere. I know I'm not pretty or cute or anything like that but why can't I find someone who wants me for me. Doesn't hit on me we meet then want my friends!!!!!!! OK like I said I'm not pretty or anything like that but it hurts it kills actually. I already have self esteem issues and I already know no one wants me for me because when I let ppl see the real me the me inside the one no one really sees cause it would scare them then i get hurt all over again cause I'm not 90pds and Im not tall and I have had a beautiful child who i love and care about and he is the most important thing in my world and at present time the only man in my life he is the only one who loves me!!! and he only has to cause i gave birth to him trust me he has alot of little girls after him who he lets chase him he knows he's cute and plays the field what a kid i have. But he's it and it's cause he has to. Anyway enough of my mood i need to drink
