Ok so yesterday i did alot of venting because of course im an idiot!!! You have to understand i am very shy around ppl i don't know and it does take me awhile to get to know ppl so anyway I was venting about my volleyball doubles partner last night. We have been friends for years and played as partners for the last 2 years and we flirt alot its what we do and i have a rule that i won't sleep with a guy i play ball with so yeah why i hit on him i have no clue but it was worth a shot to me come on now we have a funny relationship however its more like friends then anything and yeah i was sooooooo stupid last night but im soooooooo tired of being without an FWB but the thing is I can't find one what the hell is wrong with me and i that fugly or what.. The only guys i hang out with are the ones i play ball with and that stupid rule i have i won't do it that and omg the guys i play ball with are either gay, dating someone, or too hung up on themselves to even contimplate have a FWB that and they know my ex and yuck don't want him to know that. I do have to say though that the lack of a sex life is doing my writing well I have two books full of what i write when my brain is full so that is something
