you slipped away...I know...
I just don't want to believe you've drifted...somehow...
..my tears could fill a thousand pools..
I know you were hurting...I know the pain was indescribable...you always thought of everyone else....you took the pain so others wouldn't feel it by putting up a front when your insides were hurting...
My fear came to life
The day you lost the fight
But a hero you remained
Touching the souls of so many that gained
Just from simply knowing you....
I know you're in a better place..
I know you have a smile upon you're face..
but I'm cryin' now!
Time just wasn't on your side..
this agony..I can no longer hide,
that's why I'm cryin' now
I played hide and seek with reality
I don't want to believe this tragedy
Hoping this was some joke on me...
but it's hittin' me now
I close my eyes in hopes to see
You standing right in front of me
Sayin "it's ok, it was all just a dream"
"Stop cryin' now".
I can't accept you laying there
All the goodbyes...
...all the prayer
Too unreal to me right now..
So, if you're gone
Why can't I move on?
Somehow I'm still linked to you now
If I could believe
It was your time to leave
My selfishness wouldn't take over me
I'd say a prayer and let you rest in peace
Please forgive me!
Remembering all the yesterdays
The tears, the fears, the agony
The strength and inspiration you were to me
In my heart, you'll forever be..
My tears are runnin' dry...
I pray for the day..
The smile...that once brushed your face
will appear before me somehow,
I'm waiting now...I'm waiting now..
I MISS YOU! PLEASE WATCH OVER EVERYONE...YOU ARE IN SUCH A BETTER PLACE...YOU'RE FAMILY IS DOING WELL.I KNOW YOU WERE SCARED...YOU USE TO SAY TO ME...HOW BADLY YOU WANTED TO LIVE...BUT HOW BADLY YOU HURT..YOU'RE NOT SUFFERING ANYMORE! I AM SAD FOR EVERYONE THAT LOVED YOU...EVERYONE THAT KNEW YOU...I'M SAD FOR MYSELF! GOD GAVE THOSE IN HEAVEN A GIFT BY TAKING YOU UP THERE! I MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!
PLEASE COME VISIT ME...WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES...I WILL BE LOOKING FOR YOU, PAPA! I LOVE YOU!
XOXO
I WROTE THIS WHEN MY GRANDFATHER WHEN HE PASSED AWAY
