DoctorJERMx's blog: "this is my brain on...line."

i found out that its my fault for being verbally disrespected and given an ultimatum by liars.

i saw the interview...i saw my supposed "destroyed" donated paintings.

by these so called correct thinkers and doers.

finding out that i am now the person who they "need" to squash old beef from is ironic.

and an idea that seems as rediculous as painting bowls of fruit.

but now yes...im wanted...needed for reasons of unity and peace and connections and apologizing to those who owe me an apology.

is it a grudge?

no.

its a moral issue in the sense that i dont forget the ill given treatment i got from these ghosts of human reality.

if i have nothing...i mean nothing...im a trouble maker and fool...

why try to find ways to secure a friendship with me again by the people who have called me those things?

i admit when im wrong.

yet im not wrong this time and i havent been.

i have been able to express my feelings...good and bad towards people i know and dont know even.

i am never going to pay lip service to a smiling face with a rotten mind.

i am never going to pay lip service to anyone.

i have in the past and its led me to anger from not expressing the truth.

so they can come after me.

bring guns.

make up stories.

paint bad portraits of me.

steal my friends and my ideas.

but these people will never be let into my trust again.

if so long ago we got in to a fist fight and i even lost...i would be friends with them again now.

but with the back biting and lack of adult interaction...there is no way i will think or feel about these people in a respectful and forgiving way.

in fact..i havent been thinking about those certain things for a while now.

yet it seems they "need to just say whut up to JERM"

why?

i have nothing to offer but my expression and my motivation and dedication towards self expression of others.

and to a bunch of money grubbing half assed hippies who told me before when i asked to have an art show beyond the local free art fest..."art doesnt make money for the place, JERM"

i would never forgive myself for knowing i proved that statement wrong many times over via ART and artists and art supporters of the area...

if i did in fact make some sort of peace with them now or ever.

so they can go fcuk themselves in their dirty fake positive bullshitting asses.

every action has a re-action.

they acted...i re-acted.

and i continue on doing what i said i was going to do.

while they beg others to "talk" to me and try to get me to connect with them on a community level.

i call that desperation and selling your soul for a 5 bucks a head.

-jeremy cook aka jermx