Current mood: angry,hurt,sad...
Listening to:Already Over Pt2 by Red
Why is it people do the things they do?Lead you along,make u feel so good about yourself and everything and then when u arent paying attention they turn around and say something stupid?Especially when they know u'll find out about it? Im so sick of trying to get close to someone,actually succeeding and they turn around and do something stupid...I started liking this guy a lot,and he finally told me he wanted to date me..Well when i wasnt around he goes and tells someone else he wants to go see another girl and try to date her right after he just told me he wanted me!Wtf man....If u really didnt want me or want me in any way,u shouldve said something to me..Not lead me on...Definitely not go and say something like that...I dont know if i really want an explanation or just leave it alone..I hate the fact i was crying because of that,and i hate the fact i feel like i was fucked with..im so angry and hurt right now...im beginning to wonder whats wrong with me...let alone how the hell this happened again to me....im starting to think there is no man out there for me like my brother...my brother is the perfect man..loving,caring,supportive,funny and just always there when u need him...its so hard to find someone that makes me as happy as my brother does...then again he knows me better than anyone.....i wouldve given u everything,i want u to know that...my heart,my soul,my mind,everything..and thats not good enough i suppose...the biggest stab is u couldnt even tell me that u wanted someone else....i guess i was oblivious to it until today......im sick of hunting for someone to want me for me.....i want someone to find me,to tell me they want me completely...i guess there is no-one out there like that...so im giving up for now...i need to get away from everything....everyone...so i dunno if this is goodbye for a while,or just me saying im gonna become vacant and void of all emotion for awhile or what...we'll see when my brother calls me....i'm sorry i wasnt good enough D.....i prolly never would have been...atleast in ur eyes..maybe i wasnt pretty enough,or thin enough.....but maybe someone else will think i am,and when that person does,they'll be happy to have all of me...so leave comments if yall feel froggy enough,i know my girl stephy will...dunno bout anyone else....thanx for listening to my screwed up life...goodnight...
