corporate punk's blog: "mindless insanity"

So I've been single since july. The reason for the break up not so important but mostly my fault. I'm accepting of it. But knowing someone for 5 years you would think someone would know you and be able to understand why you are mad at them. Not in my case.  I thought I would be able to maybe salvage a friendship out of it in a few months when a lot of our bs was done and over with. But after some serious thinking and realization I know this will not be possible.  It break me up to know someone I thought that gets me knows nothing. I'm terrible at meeting and finding new people. I'm in a hard spot cause I moved here for her and met noone. And now I'm here by myself trying and fighting to stay when everyone from back home is begging me to come back.  It's a daily struggle to not run back east and be around everything I know. I'm desperate for a special friend. I want need people to hang out with and in desperate need for someone to have some extra fun with. It drives me nuts every day.