Wheelchair Bound 12/2/2007
Ok, so I have a bulging disc in my low back tailbone area & a bad case of arthritis. I’m not able to stand on my feet more than 5 min, or walk w/o being in a great deal of pain & feeling the need to sit. I have to rely on my husband and children to do the daily house chores, cooking, etc. It’s bad enough that I have many other health problems. But not being able to stand or walk, and not being able to do things I need or want to do, just pisses me off. I hate that I have to rely on someone else for stuff when I rather do it myself, then I know it’s done & done right (or at least to my satisfaction). I also get angry because I feel I’ve lost my independence and freedom.
The fucking saddest part of all is that I can’t enjoy things w/ my kids like I used to. I miss walking w/ them on trick or treat night, going to any & all school functions, or riding a bike w/ them around the block, etc. Because of missing out w/ my kids, I finally gave up and decided to ask my doctor about getting a wheelchair. I fight w/ my insurance company and Wal-mart for about 4-5 months to get the chair and wasn’t getting anywhere. Then recently I get told that I needed to pick a HMO health plan & will no longer receive Medicaid. So I pick another insurance company and guess what… I have to start all over w/ the paperwork, etc for my chair.
While my medical insurance was being switched and not knowing if I was ever going to get the chair, I ran into a yard sale w/ a gentleman who happen to be selling one for $500 dollars. Since I’m on a limited income living off of Soc. Security, the gentleman was nice enough to work out a payment plan w/ me. So I gave the gentleman a down payment & agreed to pay the rest in full by the pick up date, plus agreed that the down payment was non-refundable. I just received my chair a few days ago and now fighting to get a ramp built so I can get in and out of my house. So once again I’m feeling trapped and have lost my freedom & independence.
My landlady says it’s ok to have a ramp built, but she won’t pay for it. With my limited income and raising 4 children, there’s no possible way I can afford to do so. I don’t & can’t really afford to move right now due to money, kids, location, appointments, school, etc. I feel like there is more doors closing then opening, which makes me angry, and even depressed. I try to stay positive and thankful that at least one problem has been resolved and that was getting the chair.
